the transformation.

i'm bored.

i got nothing to do.

staying at home.

it's boring.

i wanna walk.

in the rain.

i feel like swimming.

stopped for two weeks.

i wanna shop.

get something for ming.

also get something for mother's day.

get a shoe.

that's for myself.



this is how i look like now..

the haircut.

i felt like i'm the saddest person alive lately..

too many things happened at once.. haih....

sometimes, i felt that i'm not being fair to him...

sometimes, it's hard to explain what's in my mind..

sometimes, i just wonder if all this happens for a reason..

sometimes, i'm afraid that i'll bore him to death..

oh.. btw, i planned to have my hair cut.. but ming doesn't agree with me... he said i won't look nice with short hair.. =(

but i wanna have it cut like this.......see? she looked sad too... like me.. maybe because her boyfriend doesn't like her haircut.

sometimes, i just feel like running away to a place where nobody knows me.

sometimes, i feel like a useless person..

sometimes, i wished to be heard.

sometimes, i wonder when it's gonna end..

the car park bully.

i fucking hate that guy who drives a black wira aeroback.

i went to mid valley with michelle today for an interview. the car park was packed and it's very hard to get a space. so i made few rounds to find a parking space, like every other cars. it took me half an hour, rounding in the car park and finally, i spotted two guys heading to their car, which is just beside me. so i stopped at the side and gave signal that i'm taking the space. so i waited for him to get out. i drove to the front a lil bit so that he can get out easily... then i waited.... as he drove off, passing my car, i reversed slowly and from the rear mirror, i saw a fucking black wira turned and parked into the parking space that i spotted!!!! so i horned. non-stop.

then i saw him reversing... so i stopped horning, thinking that he got the idea and wanted to back out... but no.. he's an idiot who got his license from the *longkang, reversed and adjusted the position and parked nicely at the parking space. i stared horning again and he didn't come out. so i pulled the handbreak and got out from the car. i walked angrily towards his car and he came out.

dy : can't you see that i gave the signal?????

*lancau machan : what??

dy : i said i gave the signal for this parking space....!

(he raised his voice..)
lancau machan : yes, i know you gave the signal, but you were way off!!!

(i shouted back)
dy : i moved to the front to give way to that car so that he can come out from the space!!!!! plus, i've already gave the signal and was reversing!!!!

lancau machan : ok ok..
(he stood at there, glaring at me and not moving)

dy : what ok ok???
(pointed to his car and my car, trying to tell him that he's wrong.)

then that lancau machan went back to his car and the passenger beside him (i think it's his wife or sister), came out. and just when she came out, he said, "fuck off la".

i was furious...!!! so i shouted back at him. (he's already inside his car.)

dy : WHAT THE FUCK?????!? WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY 'FUCK OFF'??????!!?

at this moment, the lady tried to calm me down saying, "cool down, cool down". then michelle said the same thing (but i think she said that more for herself...lol!! she's as furious as me). that fucking dickhead came out after i shouted, looking like a bloody lancau, trying to counter me back. the lady asked me to cool down again and get back to the car. then michelle asked him to get in and move his car instantly. if not because the lady was polite, i'll make sure he don't have any windscreen right away.

so he moved his car and i got the parking space.

knnccb.... and he think he can bully girl driver. he's totally wrong!!! i'm not that kinda person who tolerate this kinda shit. plus, he went in the car park later than me. because when i reached there, it's not raining. after a while, it rains and i saw his car was wet... mahai... he thinks that i'm driving a car with probation sticker means that he can bully. lancau machan.. mess with the wrong girl today. i hope he'll meet with accident everytime he drive out.

*lancau machan = dickhead malay guy.