永远找不到我要的东西

Last saturday was my off day.. woke up around lunch time, had lunch with ming and ah mun and went to digital mall myself to meet my cousin. actual plan was to get a 1gb memory stick and change my phone case to a white one (currently using black.. and got bored of it..). but when i reached there, he said have to wait til this weekend cos he forgot to order it. so went for a drink with him and got my iPod a screen protector before i left. since i'm already there, might as well look for a pda cos i need it for work now.. so many meetings and things to do. right now, i'm using a normal notepad and everything is everywhere. most of the time, i forgot what i need to do. i saw the one that i want online last week.. it's white. my iPod is white and my phone will be white soon.. all will be white!! so nice huh? hehe... so.. the one that i saw..



which is this one.. Palm Z22. my sister had a Sony Clie last time but she didn't know where she put it, so i tried looking for a new and cheap one... and the price in their official website is rm499, which is affordable. so i went from floor to floor to look for it... most of the shops in digital mall don't sell pda. most of them are selling pda phone. they told me it's better. "all in one. very useful". but i only want a pda. not a pda phone... so i thought, maybe i go to low yat, they'll have it...

i called my bestie and lucky me, he's free so i went fetch him out and when we're there, the people who sell Palm told me that they only have the latest model. all of them told me the same thing and they said it's been discontinued in malaysia.

maybe because most of the people now don't use pda without phone function.

but hey, z22 is affordable and cheap. and it's like iPod size.. so the salesperson told me look around in those shopping mall that have less people. they MIGHT have it there. ugh... i thought of sunway or ioi mall or maybe subang parade... but we decided to go to the curve. lagi teruk. only found ONE shop who sells pda and they're only selling Palm TX. it's too expensive for me... :(

so i thought.. maybe they're right.. perhaps i should get a pda phone.. i saw this online as well...

sony ericsson m600i. click here to try the phone... i think it's nice.. perfect size for a pda phone. not too bulky and it's available in white too... hehe...

so we went to cineleisure's sony ericsson store.. i asked the fella there and he told me they don't have it too! they're pushing a newer model.. damn.. what i want is what i can't get...

i'm so desperate for a pda that i called harvey in US, and asked him to look for me. i told him wanted the z22.. and he said he'll look out for me.. :) so lucky to have friends oversea.. just hope that they won't say no stock or stop producing anymore..

so after dinner at Charm, (they serves delicious halal oriental and western food. like pan mee and asam laksa..) we shop around at the flea market. i wanna get ear rings at first but couldn't find. saw a belt similar to the one that i wanted.. so i asked the lady whether she have the design that i wanted.. "sorry ah miss... that one is old design, now don't have already..." -_-

him: why you always like OLD things geh?? so does it mean that you're outdated..? hahahaaa!

grrr!!!!!!!!!

so i got the similar to the belt that i wanted... in white! heh..

haih.. so hard to get things that i wanted..

A Person Not To Forget.

The first memory that I had of my grandfather is that... he likes gardening. He likes to plant bonsai when I was little. And orchids. He likes to mix few different colors of bougainvilleas, let them grow into a big bush and cut them into shapes like airplane, birds and in a shape of bonsai. Oh, few months ago, he shaped on of them into a sea lion. No, he didn’t tell me what it was… it just looked like a sea lion. Very creative huh? But then around five years ago, he sold most of his bonsais to people who pass by our house every evening when they brisk walk. I remembered my dad was furious about it. Part of it is because he sold it very cheap to them. Part of it it’s because we had it for like…. 10 or 15 years? Since we moved in to the house. So we only had bougainvilleas.

Grampa likes to catch birds. He’s very creative in bating the birds into a cage that he made himself. He likes o hear them sing. But he never keeps them very long. I remembered there was one time; he caught a blue greenish bird. Very beautiful. But he freed the bird few days later...he said the bird doesn’t sing.

I also remembered when we’re kids, he likes to make puzzle toy for us. He used key chains and those thin steel wires whatever they called it. Very creative. Well, daddy said last time when grampa was in China, that’s what they make to entertain themselves.

We used to breed chickens at home. And I’ll watch him kill it when they’re big enough to make a dish during Chinese New Year. Oh, grampa also likes to grow vegetables in or backyard. He’ll use his urine as fertilizer. Sometimes, he’ll ask my brother to urine on the plant.. He says its better! So every time my dad cooks the vege that he planted, I don’t dare to eat it. But they said it’s normal to use urine as fertilizers. But I couldn’t help thinking about it and I swear I can even smell the stench of urine whenever daddy cook the vege... or maybe it’s just me.

Grampa’s 95 years old this year. He’s asthmatic and he complains of neck pain very often since last year. we took him to the hospital few months ago due to lung infection. I was in the ambulance with him. From HUKM to Klang GH. I remember the first thing he said when we got down from the ambulance is “Where’s my shoes? Remember to take it.”

I was damn nervous that time and when he said that to me, I don’t know whether to laugh or what. That’s my grampa. He doesn’t like people to hold his hand when crossing the road. Even in the hospital, I hold his hand when we’re walking to the toilet, he let go my hand and held the handle bar along the wall instead. I think he did that because he wanted to let us know that he still can walk on his own. He wanted to let us know that he’s still strong.

Yes.. he’s still very strong... few weeks back, he still have the energy to cut down a tree at our backyard. Few years ago, he still climbs up a coconut tree to get the fruits.

Grampa likes to take pictures.. he always smile whenever he sees a camera. taken in 2005, my birthday.

Debb bought a walking stick for him from pharmacy last 2 years for father’s day. He didn’t use it.. He still prefers to use his own creation of walking stick, from a guava tree branch. He didn’t use it to help him walk. He can walk perfectly fine. But he just likes to hold it when he goes out for brisk walking in the evening. To shoo those stray dogs away..

2007 Chinese New Year.

Last Thursday, I got a phone call from my youngest aunt.. “Your grampa passed away. Come back now”. I’ve heard so many of my friends lose their grampa at a very young age. Some never even saw their grandparents. I’ve never thought about not having my grandparents around. I feared this call for so long that when it came to me, all I know is RUSH!

I rushed back home and while driving, I thought of the times when I talk to him by just doing hand gestures cos he has hearing problems, shouting doesn’t work. I remembered how we tested him in Chinese New Year, asking if he recognize each and every one of his grandchildren. He has a very good memory and eyesight. At age of 95, he doesn’t need to use glasses when he read the paper.

I really wanted to cry. But I didn’t.

He went to a better place.

When I saw him lying on his bed, he looked normal. Like he’s sleeping..

I grew up with grampa and it’s weird not having one now. I’ll definitely tell my children about their great grandfather, like how I used to dislike eating his vege, how he used to climb up the trees, how he used to like drinking Stout. Everything about him.

which one?

"Fatal bid to 'save' handphone
KUALA LUMPUR: A woman who lunged to grab her handphone that slipped from her hand plunged five floors to her death at Sungei Wang Plaza yesterday.
Beauty shop operator Pauline Lye Yuan Min, 32, was sitting on a railing and talking on her mobile phone on the fourth floor of the shopping complex at 7.15pm when the phone slipped from her hand.
She then tried to grab it but toppled over the railing and fell on a table on the lower ground floor, resulting in severe head injuries.
Many shoppers rushed to her aid but she died on the spot."

Source: NST Online



So i thought NST reported a more specific news than The Star.. but then, i was wrong...

i was having breakfast with my colleagues today and we talked about this incident. he read in China Press that a Malay woman saw the whole incident.

Apparently, Pauline's husband sells crystals on 3rd floor. she went to 4th floor to make a phone call. the malay lady saw her dialing her mobile a few times, while doing that, she walked back and forth near the railing. when she started talking on her phone, she stepped on a chair beside the railing and sit on the railing and continue talking on the phone. after that, she slipped, and fell down.

that's what China Press reported. she didn't drop her phone. but she slipped and fell down.

so, which report should we believe?

firstly, her husband's shop is on the 3rd floor. assuming that she was there to see her husband (cos she's wearing casual and it's a holiday), why she went one floor up to make the call?

secondly, if there's a CHAIR there, why she didn't just sit ON the CHAIR, but chose to step up and sat on the railing, ON FOURTH FLOOR, instead? logically, if it's ME, i'll choose to sit on the chair. it's meant to be seated on, right? and, 4th floor is VERY high! it's dangerous. logic people like me wouldn't sit ON the railing in 4th floor and talk on the phone. right?

there must be another story behind it.

click here.

i saw the body.

i was there i think around 10 or 15 minutes after this lady fell down. i took the escalator down and saw it. the cops were taking pictures by then.

we all thought she was alive when the ambulance came around 5 mintes we knew about the tragedy... but then they went away with the stretcher without the lady. which means she was already dead by the time the ambulance came.

i saw a pool of blood around her head. her face were covered with her hair. body facing down. tragic huh?

we thought she commited suicide. but some said she was pushed down. some said she fell down. like in the news, she fell down. right on the middle of the stage.

how can she fall down in a famous shopping complex?

sohai.

went out with Ming's friends for a drink at a mamak nearby yesterday and happily planning about things to do for this weekend's long holiday... suddenly we heard some shouting and i turned to my left, about three square tables away, two Chinese guys stood up..

sohai: WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT... (i presumed that he said "why are you looking at my grilfriend"..) they were shouting like the place is on fire, so i can't really understand their english..

guy: WHO SAID........ (i think he said "who said i was looking at your girlfriend" or something similar to that..)

Guy actually sat facing directly to the girl. just the table next to each other.

then the girl beside sohai stood up and calm him down. Guy sat down. then we heard the girl shouted, "HOW I KNOW HE WAS LOOKING AT ME?" or something like that..

shouted at each other for a while, the girl left with the sohai...

when we heard all that noises, Ming, Mun and Gary including me, quickly take a look at the girl.

first and normal reaction, you'll think that the girl is super pretty.

but when we looked, we're damn disappointed. the walked pass the table opposite ours. the girl is (i) not pretty as we thought, (ii) short (like my sister), (iii) fatter than my sister triple times.

sohai.

me: huh? cannot look at gf one ah? don't bring out lah.. chi sin...

mun: haha.. now everyone is looking at her.

damn sohai right?

firstly, if you don't want other people looking at your "precious-oh-so-beautiful" girlfriend, don't bring her to a mamak. especially a very famous mamak. or he can ask her to cover her face like arabians... or just don't fucking bring her out. keep her in a safebox.

secondly, IF you notice some guy looking at your girlfriend, you can switch place with her, move to another place with less people surrounding, sit where your body can block the gy from looking, or.. just don't bring her out.

thirdly, look at the "quality" of your gf first before shouting at other people. cos this really WILL embarrass both you and your girlfriend.

my opinion, if there ANYONE who want's to look at your gf, you should be proud of it. at least it gives a clue that your gf is not ugly.

if my boyfriend suddenly pick up fight like that, the first thing that i'll do is stand up and run far away from him.. damn embarrassing..

what will you do?

I was on MSN like usual at office..

Him: hey, why you never text or call me anymore?

Me: I did text you on your mobile. But no reply so I didn't call.

Him: Huh? I didn't get any text from you. Which number you text?

Me: 315-69xxxxx

Him: Oh, I changed number. It's 315-79xxxxx now. I told you earlier.

Me: You didn't tell me.

Him: I didn't?



That's how I realized he has become a memory now.

told you guys miracle will happen!!!!

after the two hard days of working part time for 11 hours per day straight, i was tired like i've worked out 24 hours straight!

so a day before yesterday, i went to bank to take out the last balance of my money to pay bills... :(

whe i checked the balance after i took out the money, there was an extra of rm200!!! i was puzzled and i thought i wrongly see the amount. so i went to office and checked on maybank2u.

my claim for the sunglases that i bought last month ( when i was still working in the old company) has been given back to me!!!!!!!!!!!!

phew!

i thought they will not grant it due to the non confirmation of employment. but phew! i'm so relieved that they gave it back to me cos i bought it because i thought i can claim, when i told my ex colleague, they said not confirmed staff cannot claim. but i did fill in the claim form and submit it anyway. (who doesn't want money back, right?)

and also, my current company paid my 5 days salary on the same day!

new job. few miracles?

so i started working in a new company.

new boss.

new colleagues.

new smoke buddies.

new place.

new experience.

almost everything is new now.

well.. here, there's less stress. i think the stress that i'm having now is the stress of looking for something to do. to keep myself busy.

it's the third day working here and the third day i sit here all day long logging in to facebook, looking for someone to chat on msn, maybe fax one or two documents... that's it.. oh, and i did the team's leave report for the month of september as well.. that's all i did for the past three days and today.

should have more things to do in the following month though.. i heard there are quite a number of event that they're organizing. (btw, i'm working in a game publishing company now..) imagine how relax it is here...

no more rushing to work every morning (or noon) to log in and wait for calls.

no more on standby (to pick up calls that comes in automtically).

no more toilet breaks, cigarette breaks, lunch breaks, etc breaks that needs to be monitored.

coming in early is stupid. coming in on time is hardworking. coming in late is a norm. as long as you don't do it often and work back the hours that you're late, then it's fine.

cool huh? maybe because this is not a big multinational company, things are more flexible.

damn fucking relaxed!

well.. for the time being lah..

my boss already told me that for the time being, mostly it's just admin job.. later when everything is well organised and settle a bit, he'll bring me out to meet clients, learn some business development thingy with him and sorts.. so i guess later on will be busy days for me.

hmm... hopefully i can stay long and learn more things here.

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you know.. when you're tight on money, like... you know you only have enough money to last for only a week, suddenly there will be miracle... like someone will give you back the money they owe you for a long time, you found RM100 notes in the jeans that you forgot to wash for few months, you know... that kinda miracle?

it happen to me many times..

there was once when i was still in college and working part time, that time, i don't ask money from my parents anymore, so money is always only enough. but there was once, a few more days to pay day, i only have enough money to go to work and come back. and that already included all my coins.. so i was thinking how to go to work the next day until pay day?

and miracle happened..

when i reached work, my manager told me that there's tips money for me...! she forgot to give it to me a week before and even though it's not a big amount of tips, but it can last me til payday!!

a few times i thought that i'm already broke, i found money in between pages of the books that i read previously, i found some in the pockets of jeans, sometimes in the bags that i don't really use anymore...

and like now, i don't get my september salary and with the money that i have now, it'll only be enough for bills. i'm seriously cracking my head how to survive... but like i say... miracle happens... a friend ask me to work part time this weekend. and the pay is not bad. so i agreed... and today i got a call from him saying that they increased the pay a bit... haha.... see? miracle DO happen..

:)

new hair!!

wee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NIGHTMARE BEFORE MARRIAGE.

AWAS!



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KUANG KUANG KUANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

earthquake.

and i'm on ground floor so i didn't feel it..

everybody in my office who were working told me so many funny stories about the quake...

like how she saw the pin dropped from the table.

another girl thought it's her eye's problem cos suddenly everything's shaking..

another guy told me that he felt the chair shaking and he thought it's his mind playing with him until he saw another colleague waving at him, and the other person was shaking as well....

damn... i missed it! again!!!!

the last time the earthquake took place, i was at home, ground floor as well. so i didn't know until my sis told me the next day...

this time, i was at ground floor, having my dinner when most of my colleagues were up on a 13th floor, enjoying the shake...

hmm.. a colleague of mine told me that it was quite bad.. but i felt nothing on ground floor!! so it wasn't THAT bad, i presume..

i really wanted to know how earthquake feels like...

but maybe it wasn't a good idea though..

quake for Malaysia is a very very bad disaster.

Malaysia, can say it's the safest place on earth when it comes to natural disaster. we don't have quakes (before this), we don't have hurricane, no volcano, twister, no big natural disaster... safe right??

hmm..

he can't make me stay.

ok..

so i came to work today. after 5 days of leave, the feeling of coming back to work is like... worse than waking up in the morning to take the bus when i was in primary school... even though i'm working 3pm-12am shift, i dread going to work.

ugh.

so anyway, i came to work today and talked to by team leader.

me: boss, if let's say lah.....

boss: let's say what... (smile cunningly..)

me: let's say i were to give you a LETTER, i have to serve 2 weeks notice right?

boss: why? you wanna give me letter meh?


then he started talking about how far we can go if we continue working here, after X years, if we find job outside, it'll definitely be a manager post.. bla.. bla... (you know lah, the normal phrase they will use to make you stay...) i told him i found another job that have more flexibility and i don't have to sit all day and glue the stupid headphone to my ears. plus, the new job, i can meet people. unlike now, i only see the 15 inches crt monitor, with no macromedia flash player installed in this particular pc, which means there's a lot of websites that i can't access to..

ok.. maybe i'm just being bias..

so, i found a new job and i wanted to leave as soon as possible. but he said i have to serve 2 weeks. if i want to leave within 24 hours, i have to pay them back half a month's salary. which means, i can't get this month's pay if i leave now. damn it.. die die also have to stay here for another 2 months..

so i gave the letter to him after while we finished talking.. and macibai... he duwan to accept my letter and said "you think about it first ad let me know tomorrow.. i won't accept your letter..."

wtf?

i just told him that i've wrote today's date and no matter what, he needs to sign it. he just asked me to put it on his table...

ada ke patut???

so he just went back after 10 minutes without signing anything... he called me after that and i told him that he needs to sign tmr.. he said "depend on my mood lor..."

-_-

i just told him that if he don't want to sign tmr, i'll ask his boss to sign it..

"ok, we'll talk again tmr..." that's what he said before he hung up...

mgch...


and guess what? i got to know from one of my senior colleague here that if you tell the company that you're going to work for a competitor, they will release you immediately with your full month's pymt.

how cool is that???!?

so since my boss don't want to accept my letter when i told him that i'm going to a small firm, i'm going to let him know after a week of notice that i just got a new offer from any of the competitor and he have to release me no matter what... muahahahahahaha!!!

now i know......

in mood for puppies...

so now, i'm off on thursdays and fridays.. cos i have to bloody work on fucking saturdays and sundays.. how cool was THAT? hmm... the only one thing good about getting offdays on a weekday is that you can get all your banking, posting, billing and shopping done. oh, did i mention paying summons as well? damn...

so i went to jennhoel's place on my offday. for a drink... jenn's place have 6 dogs.. yes.. 6... 3 outside, 3 inside. one dalmation, two dunno-what-breed dogs, one miniature silky terrier, one poodle+schnauzer, and one shih tsu... boys all outside, girls all inside... so cute huh?? hehe... since it's my off day and i seldom visit him since he moved to sg long, camwhore a bit with his puppies lah.....

this is Baby... the poodle+schnauzer.. she damn gah gah one.. (pretendious). she will sit far far and pretend to be lone ranger but after i played with her for a while, she sticked on me.. damn cute...

this is Silky... my fav of them all!!!! she's very tiny.. very clingy also!!! i felt like kidnapping her from jenn... she's adorable!!! i like!! (sorry Alfie, later i give you one bone...)
see?? so cute..............
one more picture...
ok lah... last la..... *kiss*
ok ok.... this one last....

she reminds me of Alfie... maybe because Alfie is half silky terrier too.. their colors are the same.. and features too... except Alfie's ears does not stand up like Silky... and Alfie is not as skinny as Silky... hmmm.... i'm so in love with Silky... she's really very cute... (ok Alfie, i'll give 3 bones!!) actually there are more photos taken with her.. but duwan to put so many here lah...

damn sien... i need to talk to someone... how i wish they have msn at office... damn sien can die!

girlfriend wanted.

he always tries to get on our bed... whenever possible... and when i say "alfie! get down!" he will lie down like this and pretend to sleep...

he will try to act cute and blur when he did something wrong. especially when he pee outside the bathroom when there's someone occupying it..

he will make sure that we're asleep before he does...

sometimes, he will also do this... such an attention freak..

he will also give you this look... when you're eating something in front of him..

alfie is turning one in october 18th.... i'm looking for a gf for him... i want to "pou shuen" (have grandchildren...) already... hehe...

Her Majesty's BIG Day.

ugh... don't know if i've mention before that i planned to go to Bangkok in Sept with my ex-colleagues? Yes.. We all bought air tix in January itself because that time, they have this zero fare thingy and we only need to pay for the airport taxes.. costs only RM245 for a return tix... so our trip is scheduled on the 6th Sept and come back on the 8th... while i was happily, eagerly, excitedly and nervously counting the days since the day we bought the tix on the 15th of January (my first time going for a trip with friends to a place where we need to take plane!!!)... So three weeks ago, i got an mms from my sister...

so many fine lines.....

So.. i asked her, "What's that for? A 'just because' present or engagement ring??"

debb: duh!!!! what engagement ring?... it's a wedding ring!

dy: -_-

so she's getting married. (rolled eyes few times)

and after few days when she came back to inform my dad, we talked about the preparations and all.. you know, the normal wedding stuffs...

and yea, the day after that, my sis told me that her wedding dinner will be on the 8th Sept.. and lunch at ah kor's side will be on the 9th... 20th will be her "chut moon" (when the groom come and get the bride) day... i was happily thinking how excited everyone will be... and suddenly i remembered something......... MY BANGKOK TRIP!!! Damn!

So my flight home is scheduled at 8.45pm on 8th.. so will be reaching KLIA around 10.30pm... so i thought, maybe still can make it cos dinner is at our house.. But after few days, she told me that there's some changes again... lunch on 8th at ah kor's place and dinner on 9th at our place.... ARGHHH!!!!!!!!

Damn stress....... i have to choose one.. to go for my almost-a-year-planned&paid trip or my DEAREST sister's wedding lunch....

you tell me how lah....

ok.. so i thought, since both of the event are important to me, i have an option to change the flights to go and return in the morning instead of night... but need to pay additional RM140 lah.. which is actually not a problem to me.. since that i got to know Celeste, who is going also, is thinking of changing to early flight cos more time to shop.. :P

so i can take the earliest flight back to KL and still be on time for the lunch!!!

but HER MAJESTY advise not to go cos there'll be a lot of preparation before the dinner and all.. scared flight delay lah, this lah, that lah.... haih... and oh yeah!!! i also forgot that because it's my QUEEN's wedding, i spent quite a lot on her wedding gift,which is a quilt set, which also, my dad thinks that it's a waste of money cos he said i could've bought something else like jewelry with that amount that i spent.. (roll eyes triple times).. I think jewelry is the last thing that my sis need compared to the quilt set that i've bought for her.. it's more practical, agree?

ok, back to the topic... so i've bought her a quilt set and for myself as well and also for Ming's mom cos we just bought new beds... spent a lot, i'd say.. so this Bangkok trip that i'm dying to go for, have to be cancelled... well, i still can go actually if i want to.. but then when i come back i'll be a happy but broke girl..


tell me lah... why like that one?? my dream shopping+ eating holiday plan is gone just like that (snap finger)....... due to a shorty's wedding...

how unfair...