Annual Trip - Cameron Highlands

So finally i have time to post some of the photos from the Cameron Highlands trip last month. it's kinda like an annual thingy la.. whereby we will choose a destination for short 2-3 days trip anywhere in Malaysia. this year, we all agreed to Cameron Highlands again (we went last year too). one of our friend's company owns a bangalow there and it's really cheap to stay since we don't have to pay for the rent.. we only pay for the meals which includes breakfast, lunch and dinner. there is a care taker there to clean and cook for us. so during our stay there, i felt like a queen... wake up in the morning, breakfast already served. then watch tv or play games and lunch is served... then another leisure time and dinner is served...

no need to do anything. so relax. that was the purpose of the annual trip..

just some photos not in order.. lazy to drag..



first night. after dinner and nice long hot shower.



the next morning. photo session... actually we're really reading.. (LOL!!!! believe or not? hehehe.)



first night. steamboat. all thumbs up for the food.. vege were very fresh.



second day. still morning. we played boxing on Wii. guess who won?? (of course me lah!! 3 rounds non stop winning! now who wants to challenge me??



second night after dinner. it was BBQ. yea.. i know u must be thinking... why i wear the same attire from night one until night two.. because it's cold that we don't have to shower.. gah!!!!!!! hahaha!! actually it's because i slept the whole day on day two and woke up already dinner.. BBQ smoke very smelly ma.. i don't want to shower so many times. (Bleh! lazy!)



this is actually day 2 morning..


oh... before i forgot.. "Congrats Joyce!! you will be mommy soon!!" i'm so excited when i knew that Joyce (in black jacket) is pregnant.. it's like... of everyone in the group, can say she'll be the first.. so happy to hear that..

Note: Joyce is Smelly's bestfriend's wife.
Note 2: Everyone in the trip is actually Smelly's friend and the girls are all "Ah Sou".. including me.



told you photo not in order...



girls in action. seriously, i think i should get a Wii too... after 3 rounds of boxing, my arms muscle hurts for few days. it really helps for those who are lazy to exercise..



Good hair day... this is first night.



gah!! i know you can tell it's heavily Photoshopped.. bluek!!! seriously, i just want to show how good my hair was...



last day... we don't feel like going home...


i saw a moth on the wall in the morning of our departure... it's very nice actually... only my camera not nice..

will post the rest of the photos when i'm free..

the pot of gold.

It’s been more than a year I’ve been away from the corporate-style office, which is to require me to be at work on time. I’ve been going to work well, not very on time I’d say, for the past year. But hey, it doesn’t mean that I’m lazy.. It’s just that, it’s kind of a culture in the previous office. People come to work not on time, but they work more than 10 hours a day. Some even go back home after midnight. So it’s natural not to be at work on time. But then, it’s also because the company is not a corporate company. It’s because the company is just a small and comfortable one.

So anyway, I’ve finally had the courage to step out and learn something new. Well, not exactly new la.. but more to change of environment and also to challenge myself in a different industry. It was kinda difficult for me to leave everything and everyone behind. Especially Sam. He’s the first boss that treated his subordinate like friends. And I treated him like my older brother cos he’s very young too. Only 6 years older than me. Perhaps that’s why I felt happy working there at the first place. Even though the salary wasn’t as good as I got before, I felt happy and didn’t mind working there. Come to think about it, he hardly gives me any pressure during my service there. It’s very comfortable working with him (I can always walk in his room without even knocking and chat with him like a friend). Very informal and very easy.. I wonder if I have any chance to have a boss like him again..

The next thing that I missed most is the colleague there. Even though sometimes when we’re busy with work, especially during events, and sometimes there will be some misunderstanding and disagreements, everyone were very close. It’s like a small family growing in the company. We talk, we laugh, we got angry, we scolded each other, and we made up, we’re just like a family. A typical one.

It’s kinda sad knowing that I had to leave but seriously, if it wasn’t about the company’s restructuring plan that went terribly wrong and stupid (my opinion lah), I wouldn’t have resigned. But then.. oh well… let’s just make that a history.

Being in a new company, a different industry, a new boss, whole new colleagues and different environment kind of made me feel like it’s a new ME. It’s like I’m newborn. There’s so much to learn.. So many things to catch up and because this industry is new to me, there are so many emotions running in me now. I have a mixed up feeling the moment I got to know they accepted me in. I felt very happy but at the same time, scared. I was really nervous that I couldn’t really sleep well and had nightmares for almost two weeks. Yes… it really affects me. I don’t know what I’m going to face. I don’t know how my future boss will treat me. is he the kind who have a black face all day long? Will he scold me for something puny? Or will he treat me like my previous boss? Is he strict? Is he lenient? I don’t know..

I don’t know how my new colleagues will be. Will I mix with the wrong crowd? Will there be any crowd? How will they think of me? Will they think that I’m a bad girl by judging my looks?

I’m so nervous yet very excited at the same time. Can I wake up on time every morning? Will I be late to work? I can’t afford to go late to work… must be disciplined. It’s unlike my previous company where latecomers aren’t warned at all..

So.. the first day of work….

Miraculously, I managed to drag my lazy ass and heavy body up and finally forced myself to open my eyes and face the reality – which is to wake up early to work like almost everyone else. I find it quite challenging to wake up early in the morning, as I’m really actually very superbly definitely NOT a morning person at all. But I managed to be at the office 10 minutes earlier than the scheduled time (praise self).

I went to HR dept to get my tags and do some quick introductions of some of the policies and stuffs and went to my workstation. My boss was in a meeting and the CEO’s PA, Carmen, showed me around the building. Which is quite a number of floors we need to go (regretted wearing high heels— hurt and blistered like hell now). Got to know some important people that I will liaise with in the future, which are secretaries, head of divisions and some other people that I will work very closely with. To be honest, I can’t really remember who is who yet and I totally forgot their names right now but I will definitely try my best to remember who is who and what is what.

Well, I can’t judge my boss now cos it’s only one day and so far I think he’s okay. But I got to know from Carmen that he’s a very morning person! He reaches the office around 7-8 every morning… -_-!

So this week is more like a 'getting-used-to' period.. hopefully everything will be fine la. Oh.. Have I mentioned that lunch is provided too?? Hehehe… this way, I can save up for my Hong Kong trip!

Yesterday was a very nervous and blur day.. to be honest, I felt very scared because I really don’t know what’s ahead of me. I felt lifeless. I felt dull. But then just before I went home yesterday, I went in my boss room and I saw a full rainbow. Yes… FULL RAINBOW in KL.. and it instantly lighten up my mood. I instantly felt much better and funny though… the rainbow is like a hope. A very good one..

Perhaps God wants me to know that there are still hopes and the world is still colorful.

Perhaps there are really pots of gold at the end of the rainbow… :)

the day i suddenly become 30 years older.

Ahem!! i finally curled my hair last week.

but it's not the curl that i wanted lor!! i wanted wavy... but then it turned out to be CURLY... sigh! now all my friends are calling me Aunty! >_<>

NAH! preview......

very curly right?? right?

see what i mean?



i think i miss my straight hair now.

hmmphh!


see? straight hair looked 20 years younger.



my silky(ceh!) straight hair!


but right... i think i miss my short hair more... see?



short hair is even better! look 30 years younger!



you see what i mean? and i looked slimmer too!



see? so the baby face. (wakakakaka!)





but then i was lucky lah.. even with curly hair, i think i won't even end up looking like this...




WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAA!!!!!

random.

i saw Alice did the "What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?" quiz and i thought of giving it a try since she said that the analysis is quite accurate for her. here's my result..

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

eh...

a bit agree overall. but i don't think i tend to set blogging trends lor... i'm not that influencial afterall. hehe.

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Smely starts working on weekend starting form today. =( his offday will be on Mondays. =( so it means that i have to spend my offdays without him again. sigh! 

but never mind! last time when i was working with Amex, i worked on weekend shift too... not the first time spending my offdays alone anyway. but then... it's been a year we spend our weekend lazing together, fighting to use the PC, fighting over the tv remote, asking each other to go out and buy food cos both are lazy.... hmm..

now i'm here alone on a weekend, blogging (no one fight to use PC with me).

have to go out and buy food. =( [even though i'm almost always the one who gave up and go out to buy food or cook instant noodles]...

i can hug the tv remote... or even bring it to the toillet with me.. bleh!

hmm.. who wanna yamcha, shopping, lunching, or do anything with me on weekends? i'm totally free to be your partner.. :P

how will you feel and what will you do...

when you got de-promoted from your current position? well, kinda technically got depromoted from a kinda good position to a kinda not so good/grand/sounded nice position? but your salary is still the same?

when almost everyone, especially your bosses still calls and spells your name wrongly even after a year working with them? they spells it wrongly EVERY TIME even when your email spells your CORRECT name? when there are not one version but a lot more other version of your name that got mispelled and you know it's not typo error?

when 30-40% of your colleagues starts to resign or at least are thinking about resigning or talking about getting another job?

when you know your direct superior is leaving and you got "thrown" to another department, work directly under another superior that you dread working with due to no respect?

when you woke up in the morning everyday hoping that is was still Sunday?

when you heard the alarm rang and you pretended that it was your neighbor's alarm?



tell me la...

how will you feel?

what will you do?

my gramma.

i went home 2 days ago. dad asked me if i want to go home for dinner. one of his staffs' birthday. thinking that i haven't been seeing him for a week, i thought of going home.

had dinner and gramma haven't sleep yet. it's already 8.30pm when i got home. she's sitting there, watching tv. gramma is like that.. everytime there are visitors, she can't sleep. or should i say, she won't sleep. maybe she felt insecure or something. she will be very worried and keep on asking where my father is.

she's been naughty. dad asked her to sleep cos it's late. she normally sleeps at 7pm. she just walked up and down till everyone went home.

she sat beside me. my bag was on the chair opposite where i'm sitting. she pointed at the bag and asked, "who's bag is that?" i told her it's mine. "don't put there. later people take away."

i assured her that it's ok.

after five minutes, she pointed at the bag again. "who's bag is that?"

again, i told her it's mine.

"don't put there. later people take away."

this repeated for almost 6-7 times.

then i took my bag and put it on my lap.

she stopped asking.

she saw my phone on the chair, just beside me, "is this yours?"

"yes"

"keep it. later you lose it"

sigh.

then my dad came out, after cutting the cake, he asked gramma, "do you know who is this?" pointing at me.

gramma smiled. "i know.. i know.......*mumbles*"

she can't remember me that moment.

"she's your granddaughter. remember?"

"ahh.. yes.. i remember."

no. she didn't. she said that just to make us feel better. she's afraid that we know that she can't remember.

dad's staff always comes over our house and gramma will scold them and ask them to leave the house cos she don't recognize them. dad will tease her. "she's your grand daughter, remember?" she won't believe. but when dad told her that shortie, me and fatty are her grandchildren, she will smile and say "ah.. yes.. yes.."

i felt sad.

sometimes, she remember me clearly. asking me where i went. if i'm going to school that day. (cos before her condition got worse, i was still in college).

sometimes, she thought i'm her neighbour.

sometimes, she thought i'm a friend.

but luckily most of the time, she remember my name. but when asked, she got mixed up. i hope gramma won't forget me totally. i wish she still remember i'm her grand daughter.



before she went to bed, she stared at me very long and smiled. "you lose weight" she said.

"is it?"

"why you lose weight?"

"i diet... am i pretty?"

"yes yes... of course!" she laughed.

missing home.

i found out that my baby brother started blogging yesterday. i read his first entry and it made me cried.

his english wasn't as good as me and shortie . yet he wrote something that made me teared. he wrote about his daily routine. just like when i started blogging, i wrote about my daily routine and musings.

though he's not good at english, i still think that he wrote wonderfully. why he started blogging? i wonder..

is it because he's got nobody to talk to?

is it because evrybody owns a blog, he wanna have one too?

is it because he's lonely?

i can't figure out.

i felt kinda bad for not being at home so often. and everytime i went home, he'll get some kinda scolding or lecture from me. not taht i intend to argue with him every time we met la.. just that sometimes, it's difficult talking to a teenager. (do i sound like a mother?)

the thing that made me teared is when i read about what he wrote bout my gramma, who have Alzheimer's Disease.

"my grandma knock the door...she thought a thief...so i told my grandma she is my dad staff can say my dad 'Kai Lui'...than she go away...so get back to my pc play some old games...Gunbound..after playing 20 min i heard my grandma knock louder n louder...so i tell her she sleeping dun kacau her...then get back the same things after 5 min...hiahz...so cham...because she got abit sick...sometimes she can' remember me...sometimes she call me as his son...hiahz...but nvm...old ady is like tat lor...hmm.."

after reading this, i felt a lump on my throat.

it's been a while since i go home.

i think it's time to go home now.

should i cut my hair?

OMG!!! bad-brows day!

or keep it long???

i don't know... i looked back all my short-haired photos.. i looked slimmer in it. really!! see??

so.. should i cut my hair short again???

huh? huh? huh? should i???????

rant. rant. rant.

It’s been a while since I write anything serious here.

Today, I feel like writing.

I feel like ranting. I feel like bitching. I feel like back stabbing.

I feel like complaining. It’s my blog. I can write whatever I want here right?

I feel like shit right now. So shitty that I don’t feel like talking to anyone. Talking right now is like throwing a bomb to those who’re listening. It’s like listening to a volcano that’s going to explode soon. Like that “psssttttttt pssstttttt” sound that came out from a boiling kettle. Like that “tick tick” sound from a time bomb that only left three seconds before exploding.

I don’t know what I’m writing.

Bah!! Bear with me.

I’ve been listening to a lot of things lately.. from many people around me.. especially in the office.

Damn 7 sien.

Damn 7 dulan.

Damn 7 no idea what they want.

Hou 9 lan 7 hai 9 farn. (read it in Cantonese. If you understand what I tried to express.)

Gah!!!

I hate people who think highly of themselves.

You are not smart, don’t act smart!

You are not pretty. Don’t say other people ugly!

Everything you said doesn’t really make sense. Don’t say other people’s idea is pointless.

You’re not thin as chopstick. Don’t say other people FAT!

You hate that person too, don’t pretend that you’re not.

You don’t wanna do it, you don’t have to pass those shit to me lor.

Like I don’t already have enough shit on me.

You think I’m not fit for the task, then you think you’re fit for it? Lick my smelly toes!

Gah!!!

Okay… those people I mentioned above are compilation of certain people that I deal with everyday. Yes. Few of them. Not one. FEW. Damn sien right?

Imagine I have to see them every fucking working day.

That why I chose not to talk to them if it’s not necessary. Trying hard not to get close to them. Trying hard to avoid them if I can.

They’re fuckheads who are fucking two-faced. Maybe three or four-faced creature.

Damn 7 ugly. When I mention ugly, I don’t mean physically only. It includes mentally also.

Grrrr!

Ok.. let’s not talk about those fuckheads.

Ok. I just found out that I’ve used up all my Annual Leave for this year. Whoa!! Record man!! It’s only July. Damn 7 regret for not going to the doctor when i have monthly period cramps. But it doesn’t matter anyway.

Sigh! No more annual leave means Hong Kong trip will have to postpone.

Just found out that Smelly have to wait til after New Year before he can go for long holiday. He said year end is when people buy cars. He doesn’t want to miss any good prospects.

Sigh.

Never mind. Next year is good also. More time to save money. I really need to get a part time soon. Grrr…

Why I’m not born wealthy? Why my surname is not Gates, Hilton or Marriott? (sorry ancestors.. I don’t mean to blame all of you. Forgive me please. Hikhik..)

Ok, enough of ranting.

Updates! Well, I’ve been hanging out with my girl colleagues lately. It’s been a while since I got so close with girls. Well, since high school to be exact. I don’t know if it’s a good or bad thing though. Hanging out with girls was like… the last thing that I will do. But this time around, I felt comfortable when I’m with them. Perhaps I’m used to being a lone ranger.

I usually won’t choose to hang out with the same person for long. I prefer to be alone most of the times. Right now, right here, at this moment, I still prefer to be alone and not to get so close with someone. I hate it when something bad happens, things go wrong, and all. If you get what I mean.

I hate the feeling of losing something. Someone.

That’s why I normally won’t get attached emotionally with people around me most of the times. Knowing more is not always a good thing. People knowing more about me is not a good thing also.

Haih.

I don’t know what I’m writing.

Pointless.

Gah!!!

i have a nice boyfriend.

smelly just bought a car for me to buy.

how cool is that?

very.

he paid down payment and i have to pay the rest in 5 years time.

that's why i said he bought a car for me to buy.

cool leh.....

stupid Picasa.

damn.

i hate Picasa!

just when i thought "oh.. let's use Picasa to upload photos. it looked easier..", some of the photos that i posted previously are GONE. i didn't know that the web album was automatically created cos all the photos are not in order. so i thought, "maybe i did something wrong" so i deleted all the photos in the album and *poof* photos all gone in the blog too!

grrrrr...

that's why some previous entires are removed until i found the photos. grrrr... i hate Picasa.

why? kenapa? 为什么? どうして?

why sad news and good news always come together...?

:(

grrr...

ok.. lemme tell the sad news first.

sad news= dy have to put down weight to FORTY NINE/49/EMPAT PULUH SEMBILAN/四十九/よんじゅうきゅう KG by SEPTEMBER!!!

THAT is almost 10 kgs!!!

how how how?

how to put 10 kgs away within 3 months?

i'm so sad now.

because the good news relates to the sad news, i have to be determine this time.

good news= an all-expense-paid trip to Hong Kong with the condition above.

ALL EXPENSE PAID wor!

which includes air tix, stay and SHOP!

SHOP! can you believe it?

SHOP!!

well... i kinda doubt that i can do it lah... it's 10/TEN/SEPULUH/十/ じゅう KGs weh!

i asked, "if i can only managed to go 50~53 kgs only, how?"

"oh... then we go Bangkok only lah..."

=.=




i don't want Bangkok! i want Hong Kong!

:(


i shall starve to thin from now. or starve to death so that i can travel around the world by teleporting.. (all ghost/angels/devils travel by teleporting right?)

shed off 10 kgs for Hong Kong... worth or not?

tell me lah... worth it or not?

go away.

i don't need your sympathy.

Day Out

guess where i went last weekend??


















heh...


no... i didn't go gardening...



went to Bukit Jalil with Chris and his gf.. with Jimmy 仔 and Alfie too.


this is one poser cat. very the poser...



see?



it was actually a photo session. we planned to start at 4pm.. since i'm not a morning person, 4pm is good.. but i woke up at 3om and brought Alfie for grooming and we reached BJ around 6pm.. the sun was setting, so the photos are not so nice lah..



the fountain behind is actually brown colored water.. imagine how dirty the pond is.


Alfie is very active. so difficult to get good photos off him.





it was very hot and humid though there's no sun.. probably because Alfie was running once i put him on the ground and i had to keep up with him.



there's a lot of people jogging there.. and a lot of kids and teenagers running around, kicking football and all.. so healthy.. unlike me, go to the park just for photo session.. :P

btw, i'm thinking of getting a bike.. so that i can go to places nearby, like going back home from ming's place, go mamak, or just cycle around.. (petrol price go up, must cut down driving.. lol! plus, can cut down my calories also) *lame*






this part is the part where Alfie likes the most... got treats!



see? if not, he won't stay still.


i love Alfie so much that i can't imagine leaving him alone one day.



poser me.


when Alfie had enough and got tired...

你在那里？

你曾经说过你会一直在我身边。

看着我。

保护着我。

好像守护星一样。

但好像星星一样，你和我的距离却是越来越远了。

现在， 我只能从远处看着那颗星星。我只能对这那颗星星许愿。

我只能希望那颗星星永远都会那么明亮。永远都不会灭。

永远都会在那里照着我。

可是最近我再看不到那颗闪亮的星星了。

我再找不到那颗属于我的星星了。

也许。。。它已经掉下去了。

也许。。。它已经不在那一个位置了。

也许。。。是我已经看不见那么远了。我想。。。是我自己不想再找那颗在我心里已经灭掉的星星了。