so i actually made it to jerome's birthday party.. (Happy Birthday dude!!) but i didn't know that it will turn out to be a disaster.. well, not exactly a disaster, but it just didn't turn out the way that i wanted.. but i'm glad that jenn hoel is there for me. once more.
and i hurted jerome's feeling without realising.. well.. i was just saying what exactly on my mind that time.. which is.. "i ONLY trust jenn hoel.." honestly, he's the only one whom i trusted among everybody else present yesterday night. ok.. i was a lil tipsy.. a lil emo.. and i cried.. i finally told jenn that i actually missed him a lot.. it's been few months since we talked. i told him that he don't seem to care anymore.. but i was wrong. i know he still care for me.. and i know why he don't want to talk to me for the past months.. because i did something that he doesn't like me doing. because i did something that everybody was against me doing.. well, almost everybody..
and i accidently injured myself last night. i didn't even know what happened.. i didn't even know how it happened.. i only realised that my hand was bleeding heavily.. blood all over my wrist.. (no, i did not cut my wrist.. it's the joint..) they said that i fell and cut myself with those broken glasses on the floor.. some said i broke the glass myself.. i have no idea which one is the truth.. fucking painful this morning.. another lesson to learn.. NEVER get drunk and try to walk fast. -_-:
not so happy lately.. i wonder where is everybody when i needed someone to listen to my silence.
i felt like talking to harvey now. but i couldn't call him... i don't know how to get him..
[music on air]
some chinese song.
[current mood]
depressed.
[quote of the day]
be strong. everything will be fine soon.
[next station]
talk and smoke with michelle.
Friday, September 30, 2005
friends.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
The Rain.
it's funny how fast feelings changes. how serious a person can think.
i met Lisa, a friend back in Stamford's foundation. she's working there as a receptionist now. studying part time at Systematic. it's been a while since we see each other. so we had lunch together and talked bout our recent life. without knowing, i learned something new from the conversation today.
it rained the other day... and it reminds me of how much i miss the rain.. it's been a while since i sat down at one corner and watch the raindrops. i've always liked the rain.. i've always liked watching the rain and walking in it..
i kept wondering how certain things would turn out if certain things were to be done in a different way. how a person would feel if different words were to be used in a same situation. how strong a word can be in different situation.
i wonder why people tend to say things when they don't mean it. do things when they don't want to. make promises when they know they can't keep.
[music on air]
hed kandi's.
[current mood]
down.
[quote of the day]
win yourself before thinking of winning others.
[next station]
sleep.
