How To Differentiate An Optimist And A Pessimist.

I was browsing through my friend’s photo album of his friend’s wedding the other day and I saw the plate number of the wedding car. The plate number is CCC something. So I told Smelly…

Dy: Eh bie, see see… the plate number quite nice right.. CCC. “Cash Cash Cash”, “Cash, Career, Condo” .. haha..

 

Smelly: Where got nice.. not nice at all lo… “Sei Sei Sei” nice meh? Stupid one this fella. (“Si Si Si *in Hokkien meaning Die* )

 

Dy: Yawor.. I never thought of that! Hmm.

 

This is what we call different perspective.

 

Funny how minds work.

Ideal Guy

I’m sure every girl has an Ideal Guy in their mind. But somehow, we’re living in reality, so mostly likely, we’ll settle for the Closest-To-Our-Ideal guy. Just like my case, Smelly is not exactly ideal, but somewhat ideal. Let me share why I say so and tell how/what is MY Ideal Guy (in no particular order). [note why I say “somewhat” in the brackets / or maybe it’s just some excuses for me to say he’s ideal cos I’m living in denial. Wtf.]

A guy who reads. Because I like reading and I like to have someone to share my thoughts and views on books that I read. Unfortunately, Smelly doesn’t read. So we can’t really share thoughts on books that I like and he doesn’t know why I like it. (though he doesn’t read books, he reads a lot of articles about cars on the internet. Still counts as READ right?).

A romantic guy (which girl doesn’t like??). I’m not talking about extreme romantics here (like renting out the whole hotel’s swimming pool area just for dinner for two) cos I still prefers practical. I’m talking about simple romantic thoughts or gestures like star gazing or cuddling? Another trait that Smelly doesn’t have. He falls on Totally Very Practical category, so don’t expect any candlelight dinner or a bouquet of flowers from him. (although he’s practical, he still surprise me with some offhanded sweet-nothings once is a blue moon. Which is very rare. But at least he unknowingly made me feel romantic at that moment. Wtf.)

A guy who can hang out with MY friends. Because I want my close friends to know him and vice versa. Just like how I’d always tag along when he’s out with his friends (now became my friends too). Smelly is totally NOT interested to hang out with ANY of my friends if he has a choice. Which is why until now, even my best friends never really met him. (But this, I can understand, cos generation gap. Wtf. And he tried hanging out with one of my friends that I hang out with very often that time, and he had a very bad experience. At least he tried.)

A guy who cares. About my whereabouts, at least. Smelly definitely don’t ace in this area. He never call to check on me whenever I’m out, even if it’s 4a.m. Most of my friends said it’s good cos their boyfriends calls every 5 minutes to check on them. Of course I don’t like my boyfriend to call every minute, but at least check on me if it’s too late? Isn’t he worried? (but it’s because he trust me and usually, I’ll let him know before I go out so he doesn’t call. Wtf. He trust me ma.. ok next time I don’t let him know.. see he will call or not!)

A sensitive guy. By sensitive, I meant sensitive towards my emotions. Don’t get me started on being sensitive towards my feelings… ugh.. sometimes, I really think that he’s a wood. Wtf. Cos most of the time, he doesn’t know if I’m angry or sad. He thought I’m being funny. Fml. (this one really no comment cos obviously he failed. It’s either he purposely pretend dunno or he really thought I’m being funny!)

A guy who remembers important days. Like anniversaries and birthdays. Because I think these type of special days are important for all girls. It shows how romantic, sensitive and caring a guy is! Well this, so far I cannot say anything for it cos I’ll take initiative to plan something out and he’ll automatically remember. Hahah. Next year must stop planning, see he remembers or not!

So.. we will search for high and low for our ideal partner. But most likely, we’ll end up with someone least expected. But if you look at the person with your heart, they’ll become somewhat ideal to you. At the end of the day, it’s how you accept the person beside you and learn to turn their flaws to perfection. Just like how I accepted Smelly.

M.A.C.C 1st EGM - Second Visit & Fruitful Weekend

went to watch M.A.C.C 1st EGM for the second time yesterday. i dragged Tockie to go with me this time. Chi Ho wasn't performing due to chicken pox fever so it was just Douglas and Jenhan. a lil bit disappointed cos i like Chi Ho's jokes! hmm. anyhow, the show was a success, i'd say.

  sempat took a photo with Douglas Lim

and Jenhan. oh oh.. he left a comment on my post the other day! Chi Ho also.. hehehe.. looks like they really care about the show huh! *thumbs up*! hope to see them more often!

a bit shy la..hehehe.. first time taking photo with celebrity is like that one.. HAHAHA. anyway, i’m quite happy that i found out Douglas will be performing at my company’s annual dinner this Friday! *jump around in joy*

we’re still early after the show so we went for dinner. we drove to Puchong to have bak kut teh that was TOTALLY recommended by Vincent. but we reached there at 5.30pm and it was not open yet. =( it says open at 6pm but we're too hungry to wait so i suggested to go shabu-shabu at Bandar Puteri. it's buffet style but we don't have to walk to take our food. it's served on a kaiten belt with our individual pot. it's really for lazy people. heh! for RM26.50 per pax, it's considered worth the money.

their food are mostly veges, meat balls, fish balls and all sorts of balls, they also have fresh prawns, sea cucumber (Vince ate like.. 4 plates), fish, beef and lamb cubes.

and the star dish was pork slices.

they have a special sauce and chili for us to dip on. very tasty as it has a hint of lemon in the sauce. they also have Lemon Slush and Orange Slush to wash down the hot food. it's very refreshing cos it's sourish and we could eat more after drinking a few sips. =) teas and plain water also available. all self service. downside of that place that it's no smoking, we had to go out to do so. otherwise, it's quite nice.

  clear soup. i think they only have one type of soup since they didn’t ask us what we prefer.

 

  electronic cooker. i think it’s safer to use this instead of gas.

my pot of boiling dinner. which looks quite yummy cos of the color. i do love my vege…

 

Vince

Tockie who keep on taking and dumping stuff into his pot. (notice his left hand?)

  what else? twitting!!! he’s so busy that night.

 

after dinner, i follow Tockie to Taman Tun to meet his friends for a short meeting cos i didn’t drive and he was nice to drive me to Mont Kiara after that to meet my other bestie, Ann, for our supposedly girls night out. but you can take Tockie as a girl la.. (pls hop on his FB and look at his profile.) Tockie was craving for sisha (cos he’s pregnant. pls take a look at his FB photo again), so we went to Hartamas. we settled at Joe’s Burger. ahh.. finally got to try the infamous burger.

Joe Burger. Homemade beef patty. actually take a lil bit better than Ramlee burger. and definitely way bigger. but for RM7, i rather eat my usual Ramlee burger daging special cheese bawang goreng tak mau sayur, which only costs me RM4.50.

 

 

ann trying sisha for the first time. Tockie giving her a tutorial.

 

although it’s the first time they met each other, i’m glad that they clicked. at least there were no dead silence la.. hopefully we’ll get to hang out more!

 

p/s- Annie, i know i owe you a girls’ night out. we’ll plan it out ok? hehe… let’s get drunk!

My Top 5 Treat List

Talking about shopping in the previous post, I do think that it’s normal for a girl to shop once a month. It will lessen the shock like I just had after counting the number of things that I bought and calculating the money that’s gone. And even after buying so many things, I still have a list of things that I have in my Treat List (actually more to a wish list that is long forgotten):-

 

1.    I do really want to go to New York to visit mommy. It’s been my dream and in my wish list for SO LONG that I almost thought it’s not possible anymore (no money ma…). Even though we call each other at least 3 times a week and webcam at least twice a month, it’s really not the same as seeing her in person. To date, it’s almost 4 years since the last time I hugged her.

2.    Another treat that I would really like to give myself is to finish my (another long forgotten) Japanese class. I’ve actually signed up in March this year to continue the lesson where I’ve left 6 years ago but due to work, I abandoned the class yet again. To get a cert in that language will be a real treat to me, which I’m sure most likely will happen before the New York trip. =)

not exactly this but similar.

3.    What’s a treat if it’s without a material thing right? Recently, I’m eyeing on a Chanel bag. I think I don’t have to elaborate more on this! It’ll really complete any girls’ wardrobe! Really!!

4.    Another real treat for me will be a house. I think being 24, it’s time to get my own place and start planning for future. Besides, having my own place means more privacy and I love the idea of decorating a new place!! (without being restrained from doing this or that. LOL).

5.    Lastly of course, I’d really love to have the Dell Inspiron 13! Since I don’t have my own laptop yet (and waiting for Mom to send me one will take me forever), this is the perfect thing to have! Small enough for me to carry around and it has RED or PINK color to choose from! heheh.. and the specs are quite suitable for my normal usage. View the specs here.

I’ve been creating wish list so many times and almost all of it never happens. Wtf.. wish ma.. lol.. so hopefully by saying that it’s a TREAT list instead of WISH list, it will really going to come true this time! Gahh… and now,

Dell is giving away special coupon code 7ZQVQF2RLZRKW3  would allow anyone who makes purchase of a Dell Inspiron 13 (S510701MY) with RM100 Instant Cash Redemption!!. This promotion is only available online or by calling Dell at 1800-88-0301. This coupon code expires on 10th Nov 2009.

Faster go get one!

Please Rain Money.

 the last time i went for my major shopping spree was before Chinese New Year this year. after that, i only bought like one or two tops and a pair of shoes. until 2 months ago. within these 50 days, i bought myself..

- 6 dresses.

- 5 tops.

- 1 kebaya.

- 5 shoes.

- 3 necklaces.

- 1 bag

- 2 clutches

- 1 belt.

- 11 bra set (it was warehouse sale okay...)

- 3 nighties

- 1 make-up palette

- 1 foundation (long waited Chanel!!! still with Siew Ling tho..)

ok.. counting the things that i bought is a nightmare already. i can't believe that i bought so many things within such a short time! fml. but i got reasons one!! i never shop for so long d.. it's time, right? plus, i got so many dinners to attend, cannot be wearing the same thing ma.. right? and.. everything i bought is totally not overpriced. ok la.. except for some shoes and dresses. but still within the medium price range.

now, tell me where can i sell my unused & preloved clothes & bags? 

arghh!!! my toner and moisturizer is going empty!! fml. no wonder the numbers in my bank account never multiply. wtf.

Card Reader Failed. AGAIN!

i've written a whole long post about how 'happening' it was last weekend (i managed to go for a comedy, dinner, yamcha and meet my bestie. how unusual of me) and then i realised that my memory card reader failed. arghhhh! i've had it for only what.. 3 months? and rarely use it somemore.. aih. so no photos until dunno when. okay lah.. actually my laptop can read one.. but lazy to turn it on cos it's troublesome. i still prefer desktop. of course unless it's a Macbook Pro la!  bleh!

la la la.

Lack of Vitamin

recently, mu gums are bleeding. only at one particular spot in between my teeth. i'm not sure what causes it. sometimes it just bleed out of nothing. so i was quite worried and googled the reason of gum bleeding.

Bleeding gums are mainly due to inadequate plaque removal from the teeth at the gum line. This will lead to a condition called gingivitis, or inflamed gums.

If plaque is not removed through regular brushing and dental appointments, it will harden into what is known as tartar. Ultimately, this will lead to increased bleeding and a more advanced form of gum and jawbone disease known as periodontitis.

Other causes of bleeding gums include:

• Any bleeding disorder
• Brushing too hard
• Hormonal changes during pregnancy
• Idiopathic thrombocytopenic purpura
• Ill-fitting dentures
• Improper flossing
• Infection, which can be either tooth- or gum-related
• Leukemia
• Scurvy
• Use of blood thinners
• Vitamin K deficiency

source: 

http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/003062.htm

a bit scary huh.

Vitamin K deficiency? hmm.....................

Do You Have One Too?

In every relationship, surely there is some special something between 2 people that we can categorise it as “Our *noun*”. For example, Our Song, Our Place, Our Movie, etc., you get the drift. I can safely say that most people who are in a relationship have that “special something”. Or at least it occurs in my case(s).

 

I was trying hard to remember what was my first “Our Song”.. to my surprise, my first “Our Song” does not belong to any of my ex boyfriends… it belongs to me and my best friend. The song was “Ai, Hen Jian Dan” by David Tao. I don’t know how it became “Our Song” and why it was that song. It’s just… Our Song. Now, every time I listen to that song, it’ll remind me of those bittersweet memories that we went through (sorry to disappoint anyone, but we’re really just best friends if you’re wondering now, so no juicy stories okay).

 

With one of my ex, we have “Our Path”. Which is the road that we used to automatically walked every time, when we wandered aimlessly. It’s from KL Plaza towards Low Yat Plaza via BB Plaza sidewalk. We used to end up walking towards that direction unknowingly and walk back to the starting point. Thinking about it now makes me feel like an idiot… no direction, just walk and make a U-turn. Damn waste time. Wtf.

 

With another ex of mine, we have “Our Language”. We used to turn the first letter of a word to “W” in our conversation for example, “I miss you” became “I wiss you” and “I love you” became “I wurve you”, and we would make up some gibberish words that only we would understand and ended up competing who “invented” the most complicated word and we had fun guessing the meaning of those words we created for each other. (sigh… bitter-ing)

 

When most people will have some normal type of “Our *something*”, me and my Smelly have most of “Our *something*” quite differently. For example, Our Song. When most people have romantic Pop, R&B, Soul or Classical songs, Our Song is a Trance song.  A bit wtf right? Lol. Damn un-romantic. But the title is ok la… It’s “Angel Falls” by Ayla. I forgot when or how we declare it Our Song, but I had fun teasing him when I know he used it as his ringtone for my number when we first dated..

 

“Why you use this ringtone for my number geh?”

 

“Dunno.. I like la..”

 

“Oh.. I know… Angel Falls.. like, I Fall, like that la??”

 

Geddit? Geddit?? Ok. Might be lame. But it works every time, to make him feel jah dou. So every time we heard that song, I will say, “Bie!! I Fall!!  *slump on him*” wtf!

 

Our Song is weird enough.. and to add more weirdness (weird to me lah), we have “Our Phrase”. Which is “stupid dum dum”. We’ll call each other “stupid dum dum” whenever there’s a chance. No miss one! I ask you la.. where got people call their girlfriend/boyfriend stupid (and still get away with it) one?? Ish..  

 

There’s still a list of “Our *something*”  but I shall not disclose too much here. Wtf.. later you all say we stupid dum dum.

 

Bleh!

 

What’s your “Our *insert special something*”??

Every Time You Need Me

All-time favourite! Never get bored with this type of tunes..  so happy..

Everytime you need me
You know I'll be there
You know I really care
Say you will
Say you dare

And when a feeling comes around
Let it sparkle and let it shine
Let it lift you off the ground
Make it last, baby make it mine

You are the sun that rises
You are the moon that lights the night
You are what paralyses me
Everytime you need me
You know I will be there
You know I really care
Say you will
Say you dare
Everytime you need me
You know I will be there
A love beyond compare
Say you will
Say you care

Write my name into the sky
And keep the memories in your heart
Let the hours pass us by
I guess that this is a way to start

You are full of surprises
You are a fire burning bright
You are what mesmerises me

Everytime you need me
You know I will be there
You know I really care
Say you will
Say you dare
Everytime you need me
You know I will be there
A love beyond compare
Say you will
Say you care

Say you dare...
Say you dare....
Say you dare.....
No no, no no

Everytime you need me
You know I will be there
You know I really care
Say you will
Say you dare
Everytime you need me
You know I will be there
A love beyond compare
Say you will
Say you care

i just read this news and i thought... "if i ever have to choose, i won't choose to be a Malaysian cos have to wait until i die only can get citizenship!"

Sentiments.

It’s raining outside. It reminds me of 5 years ago, how I used to love watching the rain, like tiny little crystals drop from the sky. I used to sit at the “patio” at KL Plaza’s Starbucks, the first job that I loved, and watch those crystals crush on the pavement of the sidewalk. The sidewalk is always busy with people. People who worked nearby. Tourists who lived next door. Girls who loves shopping. Beggars who begs for living. Child labour who sells gums and tissues. I could sit there whole day smelling the rain and watch people pass by. I loved listening to the sound of water splashing when they stepped unwillingly on the bumpy street, filled with puddles of water, running away from the rain to get some shelter. It reminds me of how I loved walking in the rain, looking up the sky and feel the raindrop on my face. It reminds me of how emotional and how predictable my mind was back then.

 

It reminds me of how easy it was to find happiness in the simplest things. How easy it was to compose a conversation without the fear of being judged. How everyone was a friend. How easy it was to fall in and out of love. How simple everything seems. It doesn’t feel the same anymore now. Perhaps maturity has restricted those emotions. Perhaps it was just an imagination that I chose to believe in. Perhaps it wasn’t simple at the first place. Or maybe it was the greed that is changing it all and making it all difficult.

 

Perhaps it was the rain that brought back those lost emotions.

Wedding Is The New Black

These few weeks have been uneventful. Except for attending a secondary school friend’s wedding, where I met a lot of secondary school friends that lost contact after SPM. Not forgetting a few teachers who taught us in Form 4 and 5 (Cik Rahimah, now Puan Rahimah, who taught us Accounting, and Puan Rosham who taught us Bahasa). Lol. It’s weird seeing them when I’m not in school uniform. Surprisingly, Puan Rahimah remembered me. I guess of course not because I’m a top student.. because it’s either I always sleep or skip her classes. Hahah! It’s good to see familiar faces again. As always, the best and sweetest memories are during secondary school days. Remembering how young we all once were. How naïve our thinking was. How mischievous and ill-behaved I was towards the teachers. Ahh.. bittersweet memories.

 

There’ll be two weddings on the 1^st of November. An uncle from a different grandmother, another one is my close friend in college. I’m wondering which one I should attend. Hmm.. Most probably my friend’s wedding cos he invited since last year and I assured him 2 weeks ago when we’re out for dinner that I’ll definitely attend it.

 

Another wedding in December 6^th. My beloved ex-boss. This one, die die also must go. He helped me a lot, in a way, even after I’m not working with him anymore. He’s like a friend rather than boss.

 

Yet another wedding in January 23^rd. another close friends’ wedding.

 

Ahh…

 

So many weddings to attend. It’s the “in” thing right now. I wonder when it will get out of fashion. Gah!

A Tiny Space In Our Hearts

Yesterday morning, I have a feeling that I HAVE to see my bestie (haven’t seen him in a while), so I texted him, “Let’s hang out. Free after working hours today?” I rarely text him cos usually, I prefer calling (texting is mah fan, don’t you think?) but ever since 3 years ago, our phone calls from once a day became once in every 3 months. Wtf.  Okay, let’s not go to that topic. Ugh.

 

He replied almost instantly, which kinda surprised me cos he NEVER reply instantly (sometimes never reply at all.. wtf… and NEVER answer my calls unless he feels that it’s urgent… fml… and usually his instinct are right. A habit that I loathe!) so anyway, he replied, “Meh si oh? Why suddenly sound so serious? What happen?”

 

-_-    do I look like a problematic child? Wtf.

 

After gazillion of smses, we agreed to have dinner. Turns out that he’s the emo one this time. Hahah.. our instincts for each other are still quite accurate huh. After venting out throughout dinner, he finally felt better. We spent 4 hours catching up and talking mostly about how time flies, especially the things we’ve been through together, silly things that teenagers do… come to think about it, we were both so protective towards each other.. Well, unknowingly. We talked about possibilities. Possibilities of a lot of things that almost happen but never did. Possibilities of our future (individually, okay). Those “what-if” questions that we asked.. Those “maybe” answers that we replied. How things changed throughout these 8 years we've known each other.

 

“Where’s my birthday present that you promised?” 

“at home….”

“tiu.. cheat one…”

“Really one!! Uhm… ok lah.. What you want? Faster say!! I give.. Anything also can!”

“I only want things to be like what it used to be”

Silence.

 

I knew it was impossible.

But I want him to know that he’s still very important to me.

 

“Remember how I’ve always wondered how life would be without you? I’m still wondering now..”

“Well.. You can safely say that your life is already without me now. No difference, right? Just that now, once in a while, we complement each other during emotional breakdowns. At least we both know where to find each other.”

 

Well… at least there are still a minute of space in our hearts for each other to retreat to.

 

 

 

M.A.C.C 1st EGM

Went to PJ Live Art Centre to watch M.A.C.C 1^st EGM with Shorty and Ah Kor. It’s actually our first time watching live stand-up comedy. It’s fantastic! Douglas Lim was awesomely hilarious! Not forgetting Phoon Chi Ho and Kuah Jenhan. I personally like Chi Ho the best.. cos the moment he went on the stage,  haven’t say a word already got people laughing! LOL.. Overall, it’s a good show and good experience for me. I don’t mind watching it again.  You guys should go with me again!!!!!!!!! Let's!

 

Nyeh..

 

Monday blues again….

 

Ugh.. Shopping is definitely killing my wallet! Please rain some money tonight! Bai!

 

Pre Fourthniversary Thoughts

It’s October again, which marks the 4^th year since the first time we met. For the past two years, around this time, I wrote some thoughts. And I shouldn’t make it an exception this year and the years after. It feels like just yesterday I wrote this and this. How time flies.

January 2010 will be our Fourthniversary. Just like the previous years, I didn’t feel any major changes (yet). They said the 3^rd, 5^th and 7^th year is a very crucial year in a relationship. And most people tend to break up in the 3^rd, 5^th or 7^th year. However, I don’t really believe it cos it hasn’t happen to me (yet). (I guess the reason why most people breaks up within that duration is because:- 3 years is enough to learn what type of person your partner is, try to sort thing out for another 2 years after knowing them inside-out, then to be patient for another 2 years after trying hard to hold on and if it doesn’t work, means it will never work. So why waste another 4 years of playing the patient one when you’re not? and holding on to something that you know is hard to keep? Why waste that precious 4 years when you can use those 4 years to know someone better? Ok, I digress.)

Honestly, these 3 years of being with him are definitely a breeze, compared to most relationships that I’ve heard of (from friends, family and previous experience). No doubt, there are times that we annoy each other, got angry for petty things, sick of each others’ bad habits, bore each other to death, etc. but that’s what makes us stronger, right? All these while, I have to give some credit to him for keeping this relationship so well, he’s been patient enough to layan my childishness. He stayed around to keep me sane. Humorous enough to keep up with my silliness and his hands are always there to wipe away my tears.

Last year, I remember I wasn’t sure how can our relationship be so simple? So many questions. So many doubts. So many worries. So paranoid. But it’s all good now. Cos I believe it’s just a phase.

Ahh.. how I wish I can plan for an anniversary getaway! Hmm…