the memories.

where have those days gone?
when we used to stop by the playground,
sitting on the swings, talking and laughing,
lying on the bench without a word,
staring at each other without a thought?

those days...
when we sit in the car,
listening to the radio,
holding each other's hand,
gazing the moon, which seems so near...

those days...
when we used to drive around town at night,
riding on the highway with tons of street lights,
trying to count the stars up the sky,
going to places that we never went,
wondering what our conversation meant.

those days...
when we have each other's shoulder,
when we don't mind lending our ears,
when we don't feel ugly if we shed a tear,
when we don't feel shy letting out our fears.

those days...
even a lil whisper of care meant a lot,
even a weak smile felt so warm,
when a simple gesture of hug was familiarity,
when a gentle kiss on the forehead was a sign of appreciation.

those days...
when we're there for each other,
sharing our ups and downs,
when we're growing separately without growing apart..

those were the days that i miss most..
days that i will never forget,
memories that will stay in my heart always,
memories that nothing can replace.

Thoughts.

Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most.

i don't understand why people just HAVE to think negatively. being so pessimistic. it really amazed me.. the way they can think of something which is totally the opposite way.. which is totally different from the reasons behind everything.. and it's annoying, knowing that they got all emotional and started thinking nonsense when all they need to do is to understand the situation by reasoning out with their right state of mind.

i don't fucking understand why certain people can be so fucking sensitive over another person, who's not in a right state of mind and taking everything they said and done so personal. what the fuck ballz? it's totally unfair and it's fucking childish to get all emotional over whatever fuck a person said or done while they're drunk or tripping. they should and they CAN think better than a crack-head. what really surprised me is that they don't fucking use their brains to think properly even though they are the sane ones.. what the hell is their problem man..?? seriously, it's fucking AMAZING how they think and response to certain situations.

i don't fucking understand ballz..


[music on air]
breathing by lifehouse.

[current mood]
clueless.

[quote of the day]
ANGELS EXIST but some times, since they don't all have wings, we call them FRIENDS.

[next station]
knit.

friends.

so i actually made it to jerome's birthday party.. (Happy Birthday dude!!) but i didn't know that it will turn out to be a disaster.. well, not exactly a disaster, but it just didn't turn out the way that i wanted.. but i'm glad that jenn hoel is there for me. once more.

and i hurted jerome's feeling without realising.. well.. i was just saying what exactly on my mind that time.. which is.. "i ONLY trust jenn hoel.." honestly, he's the only one whom i trusted among everybody else present yesterday night. ok.. i was a lil tipsy.. a lil emo.. and i cried.. i finally told jenn that i actually missed him a lot.. it's been few months since we talked. i told him that he don't seem to care anymore.. but i was wrong. i know he still care for me.. and i know why he don't want to talk to me for the past months.. because i did something that he doesn't like me doing. because i did something that everybody was against me doing.. well, almost everybody..

and i accidently injured myself last night. i didn't even know what happened.. i didn't even know how it happened.. i only realised that my hand was bleeding heavily.. blood all over my wrist.. (no, i did not cut my wrist.. it's the joint..) they said that i fell and cut myself with those broken glasses on the floor.. some said i broke the glass myself.. i have no idea which one is the truth.. fucking painful this morning.. another lesson to learn.. NEVER get drunk and try to walk fast. -_-:

not so happy lately.. i wonder where is everybody when i needed someone to listen to my silence.

i felt like talking to harvey now. but i couldn't call him... i don't know how to get him..



[music on air]
some chinese song.

[current mood]
depressed.

[quote of the day]
be strong. everything will be fine soon.

[next station]
talk and smoke with michelle.

The Rain.

it's funny how fast feelings changes. how serious a person can think.

i met Lisa, a friend back in Stamford's foundation. she's working there as a receptionist now. studying part time at Systematic. it's been a while since we see each other. so we had lunch together and talked bout our recent life. without knowing, i learned something new from the conversation today.

it rained the other day... and it reminds me of how much i miss the rain.. it's been a while since i sat down at one corner and watch the raindrops. i've always liked the rain.. i've always liked watching the rain and walking in it..

i kept wondering how certain things would turn out if certain things were to be done in a different way. how a person would feel if different words were to be used in a same situation. how strong a word can be in different situation.

i wonder why people tend to say things when they don't mean it. do things when they don't want to. make promises when they know they can't keep.



[music on air]
hed kandi's.

[current mood]
down.

[quote of the day]
win yourself before thinking of winning others.

[next station]
sleep.

the wedding..

the photos.

the bride. 

the hooi siblings and the newlyweds. 

on the way.. 

smiles~ 

she's my mommy's younger sister.. hehe.. 

that's my mommy's daddy.. 

i'm wearing debb's dress. 

and she's wearing my dress.. 

two piggies. 

heeee...