the pot of gold.

It’s been more than a year I’ve been away from the corporate-style office, which is to require me to be at work on time. I’ve been going to work well, not very on time I’d say, for the past year. But hey, it doesn’t mean that I’m lazy.. It’s just that, it’s kind of a culture in the previous office. People come to work not on time, but they work more than 10 hours a day. Some even go back home after midnight. So it’s natural not to be at work on time. But then, it’s also because the company is not a corporate company. It’s because the company is just a small and comfortable one.

So anyway, I’ve finally had the courage to step out and learn something new. Well, not exactly new la.. but more to change of environment and also to challenge myself in a different industry. It was kinda difficult for me to leave everything and everyone behind. Especially Sam. He’s the first boss that treated his subordinate like friends. And I treated him like my older brother cos he’s very young too. Only 6 years older than me. Perhaps that’s why I felt happy working there at the first place. Even though the salary wasn’t as good as I got before, I felt happy and didn’t mind working there. Come to think about it, he hardly gives me any pressure during my service there. It’s very comfortable working with him (I can always walk in his room without even knocking and chat with him like a friend). Very informal and very easy.. I wonder if I have any chance to have a boss like him again..

The next thing that I missed most is the colleague there. Even though sometimes when we’re busy with work, especially during events, and sometimes there will be some misunderstanding and disagreements, everyone were very close. It’s like a small family growing in the company. We talk, we laugh, we got angry, we scolded each other, and we made up, we’re just like a family. A typical one.

It’s kinda sad knowing that I had to leave but seriously, if it wasn’t about the company’s restructuring plan that went terribly wrong and stupid (my opinion lah), I wouldn’t have resigned. But then.. oh well… let’s just make that a history.

Being in a new company, a different industry, a new boss, whole new colleagues and different environment kind of made me feel like it’s a new ME. It’s like I’m newborn. There’s so much to learn.. So many things to catch up and because this industry is new to me, there are so many emotions running in me now. I have a mixed up feeling the moment I got to know they accepted me in. I felt very happy but at the same time, scared. I was really nervous that I couldn’t really sleep well and had nightmares for almost two weeks. Yes… it really affects me. I don’t know what I’m going to face. I don’t know how my future boss will treat me. is he the kind who have a black face all day long? Will he scold me for something puny? Or will he treat me like my previous boss? Is he strict? Is he lenient? I don’t know..

I don’t know how my new colleagues will be. Will I mix with the wrong crowd? Will there be any crowd? How will they think of me? Will they think that I’m a bad girl by judging my looks?

I’m so nervous yet very excited at the same time. Can I wake up on time every morning? Will I be late to work? I can’t afford to go late to work… must be disciplined. It’s unlike my previous company where latecomers aren’t warned at all..

So.. the first day of work….

Miraculously, I managed to drag my lazy ass and heavy body up and finally forced myself to open my eyes and face the reality – which is to wake up early to work like almost everyone else. I find it quite challenging to wake up early in the morning, as I’m really actually very superbly definitely NOT a morning person at all. But I managed to be at the office 10 minutes earlier than the scheduled time (praise self).

I went to HR dept to get my tags and do some quick introductions of some of the policies and stuffs and went to my workstation. My boss was in a meeting and the CEO’s PA, Carmen, showed me around the building. Which is quite a number of floors we need to go (regretted wearing high heels— hurt and blistered like hell now). Got to know some important people that I will liaise with in the future, which are secretaries, head of divisions and some other people that I will work very closely with. To be honest, I can’t really remember who is who yet and I totally forgot their names right now but I will definitely try my best to remember who is who and what is what.

Well, I can’t judge my boss now cos it’s only one day and so far I think he’s okay. But I got to know from Carmen that he’s a very morning person! He reaches the office around 7-8 every morning… -_-!

So this week is more like a 'getting-used-to' period.. hopefully everything will be fine la. Oh.. Have I mentioned that lunch is provided too?? Hehehe… this way, I can save up for my Hong Kong trip!

Yesterday was a very nervous and blur day.. to be honest, I felt very scared because I really don’t know what’s ahead of me. I felt lifeless. I felt dull. But then just before I went home yesterday, I went in my boss room and I saw a full rainbow. Yes… FULL RAINBOW in KL.. and it instantly lighten up my mood. I instantly felt much better and funny though… the rainbow is like a hope. A very good one..

Perhaps God wants me to know that there are still hopes and the world is still colorful.

Perhaps there are really pots of gold at the end of the rainbow… :)