what is it?

so here i am, writing this again..

again, i wonder where my life is leading me.. too much happened lately.. no time to sit down and think about everything..

there ARE some things that happened and i felt sorry that it happened. and i felt sorry that it ended so soon.. now when i think of it, i wished it never happened.

i've been falling all my life (well, that's what i think most of the time..) and it never really hurts.. (now, i'm talking about falling literally, not physically.. like falling for something, someone..etc..) this time, i fell hard.. and i never thought falling is so hurtful until recently. i didn't even realise that i fell until something happened. and just when i thought that i can toss away those old-precious-not-so-sure-if-there-is-still-hope memories and promises, i fucked things up.. with just a few simple questions and a few simple thoughts. now, i wished i never asked those questions and thought of those thoughts. perhaps things will be different.. but then again... i was relieved and thankful that i speaked up. and that i've questioned my doubts. at least i'm the only one who's hurt. can't be too selfish sometimes, right? now, i felt sorry that things aren't going to be the same anymore.. and if i can just turn back time, i would keep myself from falling.

things are much more different now (despite my swollen ankle.. -_-") i wonder how long will i take to climb back to the top once again..



[music on air]
drifting by yellowcard.

[current mood]
better than worse.

[quote of the day]
The worst form of inequality is to try to make unequal things equal.

[next station]
sleep.