the conversation.

ok. it's getting weirder. first, a rat was in my house. yesterday morning, i was sitting in the living room, watching tv and having my hot and steamy porridge. and i placed a peice of cake (it's in the plastic bag) on the coffee table. so while i was happily watching the show, i felt something came in from the closed grill. a MONKEY. yes. i turned and saw it. it quickily walked in and took the cake and ran out. and it made a pit stop at the flower pot and gave me that evil "hehehe-i-got-your-cake" look and climbed up the roof. so, first the rat. now the monkey. i wonder what will come into the house later.


so, today is harvey's birthday. and i tried to call his house just now.. to try my luck. maybe he's at home. or maybe i can leave a message telling him to go home at certain time to wait for my call. and his mother answered the phone. i talked to his mom for a while. and she told me something that's sad to hear.

the answering machine : hi, noone is available to answer your call. please leave a message after the tone. *toot*

denise : hi, it's denise here. anybody home???????

*paused*

denise : hello.............................

*another long pause*
someone picked up..

vey's mommy : hi denise... how are you?

denise : good auntie... how are you? *smile happily* (at that moment, i thought i won a lottery!)

vey's mommy : i'm fine here.. you want to talk to harvey?

denise : *before she could finish her sentence, i interupted* yea.. is he around?

vey's mommy : no, he's not around. he's got classes until 4p.m. but he'll be back around 7p.m and i'll take him out for dinner at 9p.m. gonna bring him out after his classes.

denise : so he's going back home tonight right? i can call him at this number right? (just to make sure..)

vey's mommy : yes. you can call him here around 8p.m. our time? oh it's already 13-hour difference now, you know that right?

denise : yea. i knew that. mommy told me.

then we continued talking about my studies and here's a the part that i'm sad of..

vey's mommy : so did harvey replied your emails? he told me that you're working at zouk as a clerk..

denise : yea, i'm working there part time. no, he didn't reply my emails. i gave up emailing him. *nervous laugh*

vey's mommy : huh?? he never reply ah? sigh~ maybe he's too tired with his work here. he's been studying very hard lately. nelly told me that she's worried bout his brother a lot. first, she's worried that he'll score better than her. hahaha! second, she's afraid that he'll collapse one day. he wake up early in the morning and study. he hardly sleep.

denise : yea. i heard from him too. study only. he's like that in malaysia also. never sleep and go work.

vey's mommy : i'm worried of his health. and one more thing. he never smile. i don't know whether he's happy or not here. he keeps everything to himself. he looks unhappy. i don't know. he's always tired and moody.

denise : *surprised*speechless*let out another nervous laugh* oh.. is it? hmm..

we continued talking bout other stuff for a while and hung up.

"he never smile. i don't know whether he's happy or not here". this phrase kept playing on my mind from the moment i heard it till now. and his mom sounded so worried.

knowing that broke my heart.

it really broke my heart.

why is he unhappy? why he never say it out?

and all this while, i thought he's having a great time kicking some new york ass.



[music on air]
new slang by the shins.

[current mood]
not good at all. i wish i could give him a big hug. a tight one.

[quote of the day]
never assume things. be sure of it.

[next station]
sleep!