Thursday, December 15, 2005

the conversation.

i talked to korkor on the phone the other day. was feeling a lil moody. uncertain. sad to be exact. but korkor taught me a lot in the conversation.. i'm so grateful to have him around.. been wanting to talk to harvey lately.. but i couldn't call him up. and like usual, he didn't reply my emails. and seriously, i don't know how he's doing lately. just pray that he's doing alright. i don't really mind him for not replying my emails and returning calls like i used to anymore. maybe he don't have the time to do so.. maybe he's having a hard time over there and he don't want me to worry. i always tell myself to think positive. to believe in him. and to trust my own judgment. but sometimes, it's easier said than done.

i cried myself out last night, thinking about harvey. i still remember how he told me not to cry more than 10 minutes. he don't like seeing me cry. i guess most guys can't stand girls who cries often. guys just don't know how to handle it. egoism.

there are times when i feel like giving up hope. there are times where i wished to lose all of my memories so that i won't be sad, thinking of him. it's not that i want to forget him. i just don't want to feel hopeless everytime i try to remember.

i wish that everything will be alright soon.




[current mood]
bitter.

[current book]
it's 'Kane and Abel'... spelling error in the previous post.

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