the owl.

i can't sleep. must be the two cups of coffee the i had just now...

went for a movie. it's been a while since i been to the cinema. and i watched a sad ending comedy. ugh.

life's been unexpectedly great lately. at least i wake up everyday with a smile. but there are still a lot of things in my mind now though. some things that i can't help thinking. some things that is still bothering me despite the happiness that came to my life. it's still there. and i know it won't go away so soon.

i want to be the 'old' denise once again. the one who smile all day. laugh all night. the one who think less and enjoy the moment. the one who make everyone around her smile by just one look. the one who doesn't care about what other people think. the carefree denise. it's not the same anymore. i know it's never gonna be the same anymore.

i laughed too much lately. and i'm worried bout it. i laughed too much that i'm afraid that one day i'll cry hard. it always been that way. and i'm hardly wrong with my instinct.

i miss talking to jennhoel. he's too busy for me now that he's already have a girlfriend. i miss his companion. i miss his lectures. i miss those silent moments..

i miss my sister. i miss her attitude. i miss her sarcasm.

i miss hanging out with ann. i miss waiting for her to find the perfect word in our converstaion.

i miss all my stamford friends. especially keesin. i miss the way he crack jokes spontaneously. i miss eating breads in his car on the way back from college.

i miss my dog. [i'm still mad at dad, giving him away without moticing me..]

i miss tripping. [lol!!!] ok.. only a lil bit. i miss the way everything looked so nice and beautiful.

i miss being a teenager. i miss highschool, when everything is so simple and everyone is so naive. i miss bitching with my girlies. i miss pissing off the teachers who teaches the subjects that i don't like.

now, i seriously i miss sleeping and having sweet dreams.