the regret.

grampa died yesterday.

it was really unexpected. it feels like a dream.

mom's wish will never come true. she planned to catch the flight back on the 30th march and my grandparents (her parents) will meet her up at singapore and come back to malaysia a week after that. but grampa didn't wait for her. it's only few more days and mommy can meet them for the first time after five years. but it's not gonna happen anymore. she can't make it back to see her daddy for the last time. not even one more look at him. she's the only child who's not gonna be at the service. it's not fair. totally not fair.

it's sad.

debb promised grampa that she'll treat him dinner on his birthday last year. but she's too busy to do so. and this year when he met her, he asked debb, "when are you gonna buy me dinner??" he grinned mischieviously. debb told him that she'll buy him dinner when she's free. she's never free. and she'll never have another chance to do so now.

it's a regret.

i'll never got the chance to hear him asking me, "how's business today?" when i help out at the shop every sunday anymore. that's his routine everytime he goes to the shop... bring some mah jong paper, walk one round in the shop, sit down and ask the same question. everytime without fail. he'll do the same thing. ask the same question.

i'm gonna miss all that. i'll never hear those words from him every week again.