"although you are scurrilous, though i always treat you like a guy, but you're still a girl. and you're still the person whom i can talk to when there's nobody's around for me. you're the best person that i can share with."

that's what he told me over the phone today.

"huh? what talking you?" i replied.

i really don't know what he's talking about. i mean... knowing him for almost 6 years, he's definitely joking..

"i'm serious. every word. it's what i've always wanted to say. but was too shy to say it out." he replied.

?????

"don't joke around la.. what happened? why say like that? you okay or not? i don't understand what you're talking about lor.."

"you don't have to understand. i'm happy enough to have you here to listen.really!"

Σ(￣ε￣;･･･

"okay.. so what you wanna talk about?"


we continued talking for a while and hung up.


me?

the best??

this is SO not him.


the normal him...

-when i did something that doesn't make sense.... he'll say...
"tiu! why you so 7 stupid geh??"

-when i grin, smile or laugh at him.... he'll say...
"niama..... siew lan ar siew??? slap 9 lei gah..."

-when i asked for something that he thinks is ridiculous... he'll say...
"lei soh lan jor ar?"

-when i made a mistake.. like stood him up, forgot to do something, etc... he'll say...
"ngor tiu 9 lei jau gau lor...."


see? he treats me like a guy. that's only part of it.

he'll verbal-abuse me vulgarly.

everytime.

without fail.

like nobody's business.

but today, it's different. it's been a while since we have a heart-to-heart talk.

he's been there everytime i needed help. and i've always thought that i'm the one who's dependant on him. i've always thought that i'm the one who needed him.

but i'm wrong.

i've never thought that he also need me to be there.

i've never thought that my presence brings comfort to him.

we don't really see each other so often anymore. we don't hang out like we used to anymore. we don't even TALK as much anymore.

but i'm glad.

i'm glad that we still have each other in our hearts.

i'll always remember how he replied me when i once asked him long time ago, "where am i in your heart?"

he drew heart shape on the table and pointed right in the middle of the heart.

"right there," he replied with a smile.


"there? isn't that is where your girlfriend supposed to be?"

he pointed everywhere in the heart. "she's here."

-_-:

"ceh..... make me happy a while... tiu.." i pouted.

"yes. my girlfriend is everywhere. though she's all over my heart, i don't know where to start finding for her. cos she's always moving. but you're right in the middle. you're only at one place. the place where i know i can definitely find you there. the place where nobody could ever replace.."