If I Have A Chance.

I woke up today feeling a pang in my heart.

There's a sense of familarity in what I felt.

A feeling that words can't describe clearly.

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I felt like I went back to a few years back. When everything seemed to be so nice. Those days, I used to feel things differently. Coming back to think about what happened, it felt so fake. But it's an unforgetable memory of my life. A wonderful story.

I miss those days when waking up in the morning for college is not a trouble. When going for work at Starbucks is a happy routine. When eating lotsa meals in a day is a must. When being accompanied before I dozed off is a special treatment.

I felt lost when everything was taken away from me all in one day.

I felt miserable.

I felt empty all at once.

Nothing seems to be alright then.

Everything seems like a dream.

Until now, I don't feel right. Not always. Sometimes, when I'm alone and started thinking a bit, I felt regretful of what happened. I felt hurtful and betrayed. Not by anyone. By myself.

If I have another chance to do things differently..

If I have a chance to say things clearly..

If I have a chance..