i'm lovesick...

i miss harvey terribly this morning... i wonder if he misses me and think of me too.. hmm...

boring... going to hang at azuree's place later in th evening.. hmm... i don't know what else to do to make myself feel better.. i'm lovesick!! haha... sigh~ have to wait after my graduation, which is two years to go, only i can see harvey... i wonder what will it be like when we finally meet after so long... i just hope nothing changes..hmm... okay, i have to stop thinking nonsense now...

i miss harvey a lot...


[music on air]
the voices of my aunts from malacca... hahaha!!!

[current mood]
lovesick...

[quote of the day]
be strong..

[next station]
shower and go out!!!

restless night..

ugh... i thought i can get some rest yesterday and go to work fresh this morning... bummer!!! as i switched off the light, my house phone keep on ringing.. and i ignored it, assuming that the caller knows there's nobody at home.. then, my cellphone rang... it was wei leng.. i had to answer cos it was a return call... just when i thought i can finally sleep peacefully, my house phone rang again... then my cellphone started ringing for the second time.. which, both, i ignored cos i'm too tired to even move my fingers... then i fell asleep... and guess what???? i think i slept for two hours, then i heard my sister calling me from the door... ugh!!! her room was occupied so she had to sleep with me... imagine..single bed, two girls... arghhh!! and she slept like a pig!! how i wish that she's harvey.. =P so, when i finally get to dream, the alarm rang... which, i ignored too.. then the second alarm rang and i finally made up my mind not to go to work...i'm too tired to wake up...wait.. i'm not even asleep.. (i wonder how to wake up when i'm not asleep...) just after few minutes i tried to sleep, my dad woke me up cos he had to send me to work.. and i told him i don't want to go to work.. haha!! then, i have to wake up at 7.30 a.m again to call the manager and inform her that i'll take medical leave... ugh!!! finally.... 7.30 a.m onwards, i can sleep soundly until 12p.m..... hahaha!!! woke up and do nothing.. watched Star Wars episode 5... watched tv.. eat.. cook dinner.. eat again... no life... luckily i'm not working tomorrow.. or i'll go nuts...

i miss harvey... a lot!!! it's not even two months he's away.. i felt like years.. but the memories that i had, every moment that we spent together, almost everything that we did, i remembered clearly... i felt like everything just happened yesterday... everyday, i recall back the most insignificant moments... the things that i don't even think that i'll remember last time.. and every morning, i wished to get his call, telling me that he's already at my door.. every night, i wished that he's right beside me, giving me a goodnight kiss before i go to bed.. hmm... the most simple thing reminds me of him.. anytime, anything, anywhere... and just the thought of him makes me smile now..

i think i'm going nuts... hahahr...



[music on air]
don't cry daddy - elvis and lisa marie presley

[current mood]
missing harvey...

[quote of the day]
love is a serious mental disease - plato

[next station]
star wars episode 6....

me and ayrin.. my partner in crime during highschool... 

hehe... 

~_~ 

11th June 2005 

i like this photo... 

gathering...

well.. i went to my highschool class gathering on the 11th june.. it was great actually.. though some of them can't make it.. it reminds me of the good old days.. haha! well.. none of them has really changed drastically.. well.. still gossip like we used to.. still babble a lot like we used to.. hehe.. it was great.. to meet up again and talk bout stuffs.. i kinda miss highschool though..

i've been daydreaming a lot lately though... and i realised that i totally dislike crowds.. now, i prefer to be alone and it kinda freak me out sometimes.. i mean... i'd never thought that i'll be able to BE alone.. and now, i prefer to hang with myself.. stay at home and just lepak... and when i really need someone to talk to, i'll just write an email to harvey and that's it.. or i'll hang with azuree.. i don't really like hanging with other people anymore.. it's like.. so not me.. and i'm easily annoyed with people around me.. i'm getting very impatient with certain of their behaviours and all... things just boil me up easily nowadays... ugh.. i don't know.. can't really control my temper lately.. and it's just weird to me..

[music on air]
stand by me-oasis

[current mood]
missing harvey a lot..

[quote of the day]
those who restrains his lips are wise

[next station]
csi miami!!!

phew~

finally... i cleaned and rearranged my room... well, i've been talking bout rearranging it since like.. forever... and today, i finally did it.. hehe.. what a relief..

hmphh... i felt different lately.. getting impatient and irritate by those things that i once tolerate with very easily.. hmm.. i wonder if it's my hormones changing.. hahaha!!!

well.. nothing much happened lately.. just the normal routines, wake up almost in the noon, just layan the musics playing from the net, go to work, come back, still layan the musics, blog a while, sleep.. hmm.. ok, i need to take a nap.. i'll write when i have the time..


[music on air]
some chillout...

[quote of the day]
telling the half truth is a whole lie.

[current mood]
feeling great.. ^O^

[next station]
afternoon nap~

haha!

poor baby vey had a toothache.. wisdom tooth i guess... i wish i could help a lil.. but hey.. toothache is something that other people can't help.. not even ourselves.. been there.. it's not good.. headaches for two damn weeks.. well.. luckily i didn't catch a fever when i had my wisdom teeth.. hehe.. hmm... hope he'll be okay soon.. so, this explains why i'm having those weird feelings lately.. hmm.. instincts.. :P alright.. i'll go sleep now.. it's already late and have to work in the morning...


[music on air]
usher-burn

[quote]
absence makes the heart grows fonder.

[current mood]
worried shit bout harvey ballz..

[next station]
sleep!!!!!!

blank..

woke up this morning with a headache.. but it automatically went away when i saw harvey online.. hehe.. didn't really talk much lately.. when he's not online, i really wanted to talk to him.. but when he does, i don't know what to say.. just to know that he's online will make my day.. felt like he's just right beside me.. perhaps that's what made me speechless.. haha!

wanted to clean and rearrange my room.. but ended up sleeping the whole day.. guess i'll do it on sunday then.. :P

i still have those uneasy feelings.. i don't know what is that.. just don't feel right.. i hope nothing bad will happen.. hmm..

my mind keeps on blocking and unblocking whenever it feels like it.. ugh...! felt quite blank tho..

sometimes, i wish that i can sleep for years without waking up.. and when i wake up, everything's just perfect.. everything's just like in my dreams.. sweet and perfect.. :P how dumb was that wish.. -_-:



[music on air]
boyz II men-water runs dry

[quote of the day]
cherish and appreciate what you have today,
do not take anything for granted for it may not last long.

[current mood]
i feel weird..

[next station]
sleep..

finally...!

muahahah!!! finally did the law paper today.... phew~ was fucking nervous yesterday night that i felt like puking and fainting... hahahrr!!! it wasn't so bad afterall.. well, i hope that i'll at least get a pass cos i seriously don't want to retake the paper again!!!

hmm.. today's weather is weird.. very sunny around 1pm.. but half an hour later, it rained so heavily... got myself all wet.. it's been a while i didn't walk in it.. felt so yesterday.. heh.. but i think i'm getting sick.. hahar..

i have this funny feeling the whole day... kinda uneasy feelings.. i don't know.. maybe i'm still nervous bout the exam.. but the feeling is kinda weird... don't know how to describe.. kinda dreamy and a lil paranoid...

i'm gonna rearrange my room tomorrow...! guess will be very busy sorting out what i wanna keep and what i wanna throw.. but always end up keeping everything... haha...

okay.. let's just stop here for today... i think i'm getting a fever... sleep now... *snort*


[music on air]
train-drops of jupiter

[current mood]
dreamy..

[quote of the day]
be confident..!

[next station]
sleep...

ark...

okay... i'm gonna sit for my time constraint assignment on the 2nd june... and i'm not revising yet.. haha.. i'm going crazy...

i'm fucking pissed at my boss and certain people who's working there and i'm sooooo going to kill them and burn down sbux soon...

i wanna get a new job.. but it's so hard to get one.. aih...

life's tough.. but i still have to live no matter what.. aih...

i'm getting sick and tired of everything... i sooooo wanna just sleep everyday.. like the princess in sleeping beauty... aih...

two more years to study and i'm almost strugling to just get a pass.. i'm dying ballz...

and lately, i FELT like i'm writing to an imaginary friend..but i'm sure that he IS real..

i'm seriously going nuts...


[music on air]
breakaway-kelly clarkson

[quote of the day]
sometimes it's good to be off the ground..

[current mood]
fucking pissed off..

[next station]
tv time...

la~ la~ la~ la~

hmm... everything seems to be quite alright this week.. well, at least nothing BIG happened to me.. haha!! pre birthday party was okay.. but i felt that there's something missing tho... heh...

anyway, we planned to throw a pre birthday party for michelle at my house on the 10 june.. planned to cook lotsa things.. and guess what? she's teaching me how to cook cream of mushroom...! hehe... don't have to drink those can ones after i learnt how to make it... hehehehehe.....

well, exams coming... 2nd june and 8th june.. still didn't take the initiative to find a book and revise... -_-: haha..

got to go.. write later~


[music on air]
lonely-akon

[current mood]
great... *winkz*

[quote of the day]
smile-the most beautiful and inexpensive gift..

[next station]
breakfast!!! hehe..

sleepy d....