i love my sister.... 

he loves us... 

the fun of being a busybody.. 

with ninie...

chilling in the crowd.

all cracked.

denise and debb.. 

after party.. 

camera freak.. 

me and korkor.. 

me and man after party.. 

disappointed..

wonderful weekend at PD Recharge Relevation 3.... well.. the day started slow though... had to wake up at 8 am, rushed to college to take my exam.. then wait for my brother in law to pick me up and go PD together... started work at 6pm that day.. (i sell tix for the party that night..) finish selling tix around 12, went in and joined my sister... it was a wonderful night... despite a few fights and going in late.. and yeah.. i get to ride on the Ferris Wheel..!!!!! (and i don't know why i keep on saying that it's a Merry-Go-Round... haha!! ) it's really REALLY nice!!!! i never rode a Ferris Wheel at 3 o'clock in the morning..!! haha!! wonderful... extremely wonderful night.... better than zoukfest.... but it's a lil hot and humid tho...


life's not so bored.. yet not so colorful.. i started to hate people now.. i don't know why... disappointed with people whom is once important.. once close... once cared...

ugh... i don't feel like talking so much now... better take some rest...



[music on air]
some trance.

[current nood]
swinging.

[quote of the day]
friends can chew you up and spit you out.

[next station]
sleep.

what is it?

so here i am, writing this again..

again, i wonder where my life is leading me.. too much happened lately.. no time to sit down and think about everything..

there ARE some things that happened and i felt sorry that it happened. and i felt sorry that it ended so soon.. now when i think of it, i wished it never happened.

i've been falling all my life (well, that's what i think most of the time..) and it never really hurts.. (now, i'm talking about falling literally, not physically.. like falling for something, someone..etc..) this time, i fell hard.. and i never thought falling is so hurtful until recently. i didn't even realise that i fell until something happened. and just when i thought that i can toss away those old-precious-not-so-sure-if-there-is-still-hope memories and promises, i fucked things up.. with just a few simple questions and a few simple thoughts. now, i wished i never asked those questions and thought of those thoughts. perhaps things will be different.. but then again... i was relieved and thankful that i speaked up. and that i've questioned my doubts. at least i'm the only one who's hurt. can't be too selfish sometimes, right? now, i felt sorry that things aren't going to be the same anymore.. and if i can just turn back time, i would keep myself from falling.

things are much more different now (despite my swollen ankle.. -_-") i wonder how long will i take to climb back to the top once again..



[music on air]
drifting by yellowcard.

[current mood]
better than worse.

[quote of the day]
The worst form of inequality is to try to make unequal things equal.

[next station]
sleep.

this is how my ankle looks like.... just look at the difference between left and right foot.. damn.. 

trippin' and fallin' all over everywhere..

i think august is a jinx/falling month for me.. sigh~ last week, i tripped and fell in front of the toilet at zouk mainroom. yesterday, i went to Yee Meng's bday dinner, at first at Anson's house, there's a glass door at the tv room, i was holding the door cos i'm talking to my friend, was about to go out from the room, i slipped my hand and the door closed and the edge of the glass door hit my toes. ugh! that is okay since it's not painful.. then at the restaurant, there's stairs going up, i NEARLY feel, but i managed to hold onto the handle. and that is not it.. went to velvet with ann later on. the whole night, when i walk, i nearly tripped.. then after that i sent ann home and went back to zouk to pass some stuff to my sis cos she went there late. i went to the office to make a phone call, and when i'm on my way down, just right at the turning point of the stairs, i don't know how, i misplaced my left foot , tripped and fell... this time, not flat on my face. i managed to hold onto the walls beside me. luckily, miza was just about to go up and she saw me tripped. it was not so painful that time, she massaged my ankle a while and gave me some ice to rub over.. after a while, i can walk.. i can even run to my sister's car!! i went home after that. and this morning.... whoa!!! never felt so painful after tripping.. i've been tripping and falling all the time, but it never really hurt. but this time, i got a shock of my life when i saw my ankle. it's HUGE. i mean.. it's swollen.. and it hurts terribly... i can't even walk. my!! and i thought i'm fine last night.. today, i can barely move my feet, afraid of the pain.. -_-: a lesson to learn.. must look at the floor while walking in dark places..

been quite emotional lately.. not so happy.. but the heck.. nobody cares anymore.. well... guess i'll stop writing for now. getting tired of thinking..


[music on air]
i try by macy gray

[current mood]
emo

[quote of the day]
safety first!!!!!

[next station]
try to study..