"Ask And You Shall Receive"

it's a quote that i read from my personal astrological feng shui overview for the month of July. coincidence or what? hehe.

awesome durian pancake

i dreamed about durian and been craving for it since i woke up not having to eat it in my dreams. though it's not real durian, i'm still a happily satisfied having the pancake instead. hehe.

Don't Judge Me.

I had a wonderful but sad dream last night. It seems so real. Everything seems perfect.

It was in impromptu trip. I remember clearly in that after I touched down on New York airport, the first thing I did was to text my boss and say “I had an emergency. I’ll be in New York for a few days.” The exact words I typed out. I was panic cos it was a working day and I didn’t remember applying leave. Wtf.

I dreamed that I hopped on the plane, without planning, with dad. We went there to surprise mom. When they met, they hugged. They kissed. Just like teenagers in love. So sweet. So loving.

I remember calling his mom, telling her that I’m in town for a visit and I’ll drop by soon.

I remember trying to call him. But somehow, things were blurry every time I tried calling. So I text him.  “I’m in New York. =)”

Then, the alarm went off. (why does this always have to happen?)

Everything seems so real that it doesn’t feel like a dream at all. It doesn’t occur to me that it was just a dream. Until I woke up. Until reality hits me.

What I dreamed was just the opposite of my reality.

There’s no impromptu trip, especially to New York. I can never afford to have one. Not yet.

There’s no loving mom and dad. They were history. But I’d like to see them happy again. Regardless of who they spend the rest of their lives with. Who knows, maybe miracle will happen?

I felt like a traitor after I woke up.

Tockie was right. It’s about time.

Dreams, House Hunting And CNY!

Okay. I woke up today feeling like shit again. Those dreams that I’ve been having lately really cracks me up. It’s so vivid that for a moment, I really thought that it’s real. But then.. Every single time, the stupid alarm proves me wrong. Damn it. Ok, I admit the reason I love sleeping is because of the dreams. Really! It’s like watching movies. I dream every single day. I can’t remember the last time I didn’t. I dream even when I’m napping.. so.. back to the main point.. I’ve been having really nice dreams lately but when I wake up, I feel damn shitty lor!! it’s like.. “wtf?? It’s only a dream ah?? Cibai..” like that..

Actually, it’s really tiring to dream every night. I’ll feel restless the whole day. Especially like now.. (4.30pm) I’ll feel damn sleepy even though I’m busy working. It’s like going into an auto-sleep mode. But too bad cannot power nap at my cubicle cos the place is damn not strategic. Ugh. I wonder if I’m the only one with this problem.

Hmm. House hunting just begun. Going to view 2 units this Friday!! Hopefully the price still can nego.. cos I realy really like it!!! I mean.. I have not seen the inside but the area is my no.1 choice and it’s not located at busy roads. Just nice lah.. let’s see what will happen after viewing on Friday. Pray can nego at least 10% lesser though most likely maybe less than 5%. =( anyway, if everything turn out well *fingers crossed* it’ll be my first ever house!! Woohoo! Okay, I better stop thinking/talking so much about it.. Scared later jinxed like my Macbook Pro. Pffftt.

Oh.. Happy CNY!!! This year’s CNY feels just like any other public holiday… stayed at home most of the time cos really no mood to go out due to the horrible weather. I swear I could almost feel what it’s like to be a roasted pig!!  and oh… gambled a lil and won some money.. I sense good luck coming this year!! Hopefully better than last year, I’m not greedy.. just better than last year will make me a happy happy girl!

Okay, stop asking already!! I’m not going to get married anytime soon!!

Bai!!