*uh-hum*

life is funny... when i thought everything isn't going the way it should be, there's always something happened to make me realised that actually everything's okay..

i know there are things i did when i shouldn't do it... there are also things that i'm doing when i'm not supposed to do.. well.. it's true that i still can't pull myself together.. i still can't think the way i should be thinking.. something just pulled me back from the reality... i admit that i'm still confused with myself.. i'm not confident.. i've always thought that things aren't getting right for myself.. things aren't getting alright at all... i don't dare to be confident.. i don't even dare to be myself anymore..

perhaps i tried too hard to make other people happy.. and at the end of the day, it started to hurt..someone asked me.. "what's the point of making other people happy when you have to be sad??" well.. my question to myself will always be this.... "what's the point of being happy when everybody's going to be sad??" hmm..

sometimes, things happens without a warning... and i'm learning to face it.. i've always believed that things happens for a reason.. and we'll know the reason after we face the problem, not running away from it..

but there are times that we can't do anything bout what happened.. things just HAPPEN.. it's just the matter of how you would want to deal with it..

well.. there are too many things happened to myself lately that i can barely breath.. too many things happened that i really feel like running away from everything... or maybe stop everything from moving on further...



[music on air]
Vanessa Carlton- A Thousand Miles

[current mood]
"mood-less" *wink*

[phrase of the day]
BE FIRM

[next station]
work... ugh...! -_-: