the crying day..

so, it's the first day of helping daddy out at the dried pork meat shop... bored like i've expected.. almost fell asleep few times... even Amy Tan's book cannot keep me from falling asleep... -_-: but it's okay... it's just the beginning... i'll get an mp3 player soon.. so that i won't get so bored... or perhaps a radio to keep me awake.. haha.. finished work at 9.30.. went for dinner/supper with jenn hoel at cheras after that.. drove on the way back.. stopped at the hill near my house for some refreshments... then i burst out into tears... cried for few minutes.. jenn, like usual, just sat there and let me wallow.. he's the best buddy... the best person to wallow with, cos he won't say a single thing when i cry.. i felt like an idiot after crying... but a lot better... though i still can't get enough of crying, i felt better now... i'm not sure myself why i cried... i just feel like letting it out.. and i'm glad that i did.. i remembered harvey told me not to cry when i miss him (i told him it's impossible and he agreed.. but he's got his point there.. i'm just not sure what's the reason yet...). but he said it's okay to cry for a few minutes.. not too long... and i did as i promised... but that's not the whole reason that i cried... i just feel like crying and somehow, i know it'll make me feel a lot better... and honestly, i really feel better...



[music on air]
cafe del mar vol2 cd2

[current mood]
bluek!

[quote of the day]
bluek!!!!

[next station]
wallow.sleep.dream.