thoughts.

it rained the whole day.. makes me think a lot.. rain is always depressing.. but it calm me down in a way.. been feeling strange lately.. perhaps it's the process of growing up..

been missing harvey a lot..

finished reading The JoyLuck Club by Amy Tan... it's a good book... gave me a different perspective of decision making, the way people look at life and all...

watched The Perfect Man just now.. uhm... nice movie.. learnt something... but it's just another happy ending love story..

i looked back at my life so far... my life last year until now... lotsa things happened within one year.. too many to learn, too little time to absorb.. there are things that i wished i've done but didn't.. things that made me question myself the reason i did and didn't do something.. i know now, i can only look back and laugh at myself for being a fool at times.. and feel good for being smart sometimes.. looking back at what happened, i think i'm a lil wiser to repeat the same mistake again.. i've learned that sometimes, it's good to be impulsive.. (only sometimes.. not all the time... being too impulsive will lead to more troubles..) just do whatever i fell like it.. whatever thing what i think is right.. i've learned that i must be selfish at times.. learned that i have to stand for myself, be certain of some issues, be strong and not only listen and follow whatever other people asks me to.. in other words, hold on to my principle.. now i know why harvey always tell me, "just do whatever you think is right for you...don't always think of making other people happy.. be happy before making them happy..." now i know what it meant..

i wanna write lotsa things here tonight.. but i'm getting tired and sleepy... i'll continue tomorrow...


[music on air]
jay zhou's jie kou.

[quote of the day]
"even he does cheer her up, he can't be the guy that's afraid of tears"-The Perfect Man

[current mood]
good.

[next station]
sleep.dream.