the fairy tale.

remember the first time we met?
you grined at me
i smiled weakly and said "hi"
and i turned back and walked away
you thought that i was cocky back then
but you were all wrong.

remember the first time we talked?
i told you some of my thoughts
you sat there and listened patiently
never set your eyes off of me
at that moment, i figured that you are "the one" for me.

remember the first time you saw me crying?
you looked so worried and tried to comfort me
you told me jokes to make me happy
you told me that everything will be okay
that i can put it all away.

remember the first time you said you like me?
i told you that i feel the same way too
i can feel you smiling happily over the phone
our heart beats faster than running the marathon.

remember the first time you hold my hand?
you held it so tight, like you will never let it go
like it's so precious and so wonderful
like you found a missing part of yourself.

remember the first time you kissed me?
you watched me dozing off on the bed
and you placed your lips on my forehead
i thought i was dreaming and i made a wish
i wished that i will never wake up and stayed in that dream.

-15th oct 2005-



been not feeling very good lately. i mean.. emotionally. wanted to let it out. but somehow,things just keep on happening and i've got no time to let it out at all. been thinking a lot less lately. but still, it didn't feel right. at all.

i don't want to think so much of those things that i'm thinking. and i want to think about the things that i've not been thinking at all.

i always tell myself that everything will be okay soon. but nothing seems to be okay. i thought i can handle my emotions well. but i realised that i'm not handling it well at all.

everything seems to be so blurry now. i can't see what's ahead of me anymore. i can't see clearly. everything is so uncertain. so fake. just like a fairy tale.