the wrong thoughts.

"let's see each other once a week instead of everyday".

that's what he said when we're watching tv the other day...

instead of giving him my normal,"why? why duwan see me?" and "bB dun love me d ar?" and "bB boring see me meh? i know.... you wanna see other girlfriend!!! *evil grin*", reaction, i just nodded and replied, "okay" without looking away from the tv.

i wasn't in the mood for jokes. i'm tired working the whole day and was stucked in the non-moving bus due to the ever-popular traffic jam in KL for more than an hour. Plus, i've been thinking lately that we spent too much time together. we see each other everyday. yes.. everyday. i started to wonder if he'll get bored one day.

i've been talking to Celeste about this... she asked me, "you see each other everyday, not bored ar?"

i told her no. i'm not bored at all.

i still have those butterlies-in-my-stomach feeling whenever i'm going to see him..

i still look forward to seeing him every single day...

i still find that making funny faces is not boring..

i still like to "force" him to kiss my back of hand whenever i said or did something stupid, even though he always say, "eeee... smelly hand...." or "why always force me kiss you??" *bluek*

i still like to multi-kiss him on the shoulder everytime i hop in his car knowing that he'll say, "yer... dirty ar..." and i'll ask, "your shirt?"... he'll never fail to say, "yalor.. you make my shirt dirty... hyuckk..." *smack his lap and throw him an evil look*

yes. i still feel that way.

then we talked that night.. i told him i know that i'm becoming a burden to him. and that's the last thing i ever wanted to happen.

i once said, "he who makes her cry doesn't deserve to be with her. and i believe that he'll only make me smile. i also believe that he'll never make me drop a single tear of sorrow."

i was so wrong.



*to be continued.