boringness.

I AM working now. (sobz..)
I JUST NOW smoked a ciggi.
I WANT more holidays.
I HATE it when the alarmS rings non-stop in the morning.
I MISS my mommy.
I FEAR of heights and lizards.
I HEAR the sound of air cond and my colleagues talking.
I REGRET not going to the airport last year.
I AM NOT born thin.
I SING in the shower.
I CRY everytime i watch A Walk To Remember.
I AM NOT ALWAYS irrational.
I MADE him worry.
I WRITE most of my thoughts here.
I CONFUSE myself most of the time.
I NEED affection.
I SHOULD go jogging whenever i have time.
I START jumping joyfully whenever i meet my long-lost highschool friends.
I FINISH drinking my coffee and i need a refill now.
I TAG nobody.


have you guys realise that my title for the previous post actually have nothing to do with the content? well... actually, like always, i tend to get carried away once i started writing. at first, i wanted to rant about the daily routine that i'm getting so bored of... don't know why suddenly write about something else... heh...

the routine.

i've been having weird dreams lately.

like...

1.) buying a lot, a lot, A LOT of junk foods for no reasons.

2.) looking for diet supplements and programs all around the world. (this also, dreamt of it a few times d...). kinda contradicts with the first dream huh?

3.) being chased by bad guys out of nowhere. (this dream, damn tiring.. have to run until i wake up! ).

4.) being captured by giant lizards...! giant means two size BIGGER than me...! (speechless... must be because of ming who always scares me with it.).

5.) saving my sister from giving a blowjob to an Arab guy who tried to kidnap us. (this is damn funny and felt real!!!). my favourite! hahahaha!!! i actually poured a cup of hot tea onto the guy's penis and ran off! (no, he's not naked. still wearing his pants tho.)


why?

why having this kinda dreams? weird right? especially the Arab guy part.

also, been waking up earlier than usual. 5a.m./6a.m.

automatically woke up. felt very fresh too.. but i usually go back to sleep cos it's too early to do anything. ming suggested me to go jogging if i'm still waking up automatically around that time. he said it's a very good time to have some exercise. ugh... it's been few years since the last time i went jogging. 2 years back i think. i can't jog. i hate jogging. it's very tiring. i prefer swimming. or maybe cycling. have to find time to go swimming again tho. very out of shape. almost very fat.

btw, i still have no idea what to get for ming for xmas. perhaps i'll just treat him dinner. any suggestions? i thought of getting a card holder for him, since he just started this new job and he have so many name cards to keep. but he told me he don't need one. don't like to use... very mah fan. ok... card holder out. what about pen? he's using Faber Castell ballpoint pen now. i know using those penis pens is not a problem, i'm using the same type too, but then... he's always out meeting people, i think he needs a nicer looking penis pen. like Mont Blanc ones? okay.. since i'm halfway to bankruptcy and because certain people who owed me money for more than 1 year still don't want to pay me back, i think i'll just look for a cheaper brand with similar quality. suggestions anyone?? but then again, he told me before that he don't really want to have fancy penis pens. always lose things. so, forget about the penis pens.

i thought of getting him a memory card for his phone. he's been complaining that his current memory card is only 64MB. "only can put 4 full length original quality songs you know...!", that's what he told me when he's trying to delete some of the stuff in his card.

uhm... speaking of phones, shall i get a new handsfree kit for him instead? his headset went MIA for almost a year and he's using mine now. hmm.. good idea?

well, i think i'll just treat him dinner at TEMPTationS @ Renaissance KL. got 50% discount somemore!!


i still need ideas for our 1st year anniversary gift... it's on 1st January... bah!!!!

bah!

i don't believe in true love anymore.

rant.

ok..let's start all over again..

ugh...

okay.. i was saying that i feel very confusing lately.

i used to think that people are very special in different ways. also, they're very different in a special way.

but i think i'm wrong.

they're all the same.

packaging is still more important than the ingredient. no matter how bad or ugly somethings is, as long as the packaging looks nice, presentable and attractive, people will still buy it regardlessly of how bad it looks the inside.

some people loves to suffer just to feel good, look nice and feel confident. like.. they buy an of oh-so-overly expensive pair of shoes but ended up shoving it into the shoe rack after wearing it for 5 minutes. why? you'd ask.. they bought and wear it only to find that the shoe actually didn't fit them perfectly, giving them fugly big monstrous blisters after walking for 5 minutes.

my question is... why not buy a shoe that fits perfectly well and comfortable, that won't give you blisters all over your oh-so-precious sole? instead of wasting money on something that you don't really want, can't really afford; just to look good? why not getting a more comfortable, least expensive one and spending the extra money on something else? like a dress or bag to match the shoe? of course, if you can find a shoe that's both really nice and expensive and comfortable and really fit, then that's plus pont. consider yourself lucky.. how many person in this world actually have that luck? having to find something all in one package? it's like winning lottery... one in a trizillion.

ugh..

some people are just too smart. or should i say, they think that they're smart. they grab things that comes by. they went, they saw, they grab. just because other people have, they want. even when they don't need it. even when it doesn't fit, they grab. never mind, grab first, later only alter. why grab when you knew it won't fit? why take it home when you knew that you'll change it? why? scared other people take everything and left nothing for you?

why not grab something that you're looking for? something that you will like. something that suits you? rather than taking the trouble and time to change it into something else? what's the purpose of creating it of you're going to change it? aren't you erasing it's originality? why take it when you're not ready to accept the whole of it? why not look for something that's already made that way? ever heard of imperfection?

these people just amazed me.



why give hope when you don't mean to fulfill me?
why say things when you're not ready to commit?
why keep me when you know you're letting me go?

stressed

i wrote a bunch of things just now and it's all gone by just one accidential click!


someone humour me.

i got. you got or not?

guess what i've got?



holiday leave!

yay!

got my leave approved the other day. luckily they wanted minimum people working. so, i have replacement PH on the 18 & 19 dec, 25 dec, 1 & 2 jan... but feel so short.. but it's ok... i still have 7 annual leave that can be carry forward to next year!

haha...


anyway, feel like going to somewhere far for holiday..

some place like bali, phuket or redang?

i'll save it for next year then..


i slept the whole day yesterday. whole day really meant whole day.. slept around 11am, forced to wake up at 10pm to have my breakfast+lunch+dinner, which is a bowl of "lou wong gua" soup, went back to sleep and forced to wake up at 9am this morning to come to work. damn.... how i wished all the state's holiday is shared with wilayah persekutuan. ugh...

i supposed to reach office just on time for our daily briefing. but when i reached the car park, only to realise that my wallet is not in the bag... i thought i dropped it somewhere in the car, took me almost 10 minutes to search the entire car. then only i remembered that it's in another bag.. ugh... have to owe the parking guy.

hope that there's no road block on the way back later.. damn..

the list.

christmas is coming...

still no plans yet.. don't know where to go and what to do on that night. can't be away from KL tho.. might not get my leave approved.. damn...

anyway, i got some christmas present ideas for ming from some friends.. think i know what to get him already..


anyway... i have a wishlist tho.. haha!!! ( you know what i mean... *winkz*)


-hugo intense. been longing for it since it launches... -_-

-nose : white pointed heels. i'll get it myself soon anyway... but it's better if someone gets it for me! hehe..

-adidas tennis lifestyle shoes. saw it in cleo mag oct 06 issue. couldn't find it anywhere yet. it's similar to converse.

-a proper wallet. i put everything in a coin pouch now.. i need something more serious.

-this heel. cute huh?

-striped cashmere dress. nice. i like. can get similar one also can already... this is expensive..

-a ring. like this one. very nice hor?

-a pet dog. i'll name it chuzzie.


so if any of you wanna get me something for christmas, valentine's day, birthday, friendship day or any special occasion, even for no reason at all, refer to the list above.. you won't go wrong with that list..



ヾ（＠＾▽＾＠）ノ わはは


i feel SO materialistic now.

muahahaa!

the birthday.

went to mun ling's 21st birthday at Redbox Sg Wang the other day...

well, to be honest, i wasn't really in the mood for parties lately.. very tired. working everyday and no break.. just.. suck and tired shit.

just the week before mun ling's birthday, i ffk-ed quite a lot of ppl's birthday party... felt so bad.... i even forgot my dad's birthday!! damn..

so, i decided to be a nice friend. go to mun ling's party.. heheheee... plus, we've been hanging out lately and it's been a long time i didn't see ann and peik yen...

see? i'm actually nice...

with the birthday baby!!!

charmaine and ann..

charmaine and her parents surprised mun ling that night. she came back from australia a week earlier just to be there for mun ling's big day... so she's the overly nice friend!

with ann babe.



munling: "come, come... we take photo here..."
charmaine: "ha? toilet wor.."
munling: "haiya, never mind la.."

Σ(￣ε￣;･･･

the two person that i don't see often.

she's one of the first friends that i know in primary. geez.. already 14 years!!

best friends.

that's what written on the cake....

who's idea was it anyway??

peik yen: "eat the cake.... it's chocolate cheesecake.... eat..."

after a few rounds of liquor, she's flat on the toilet floor.

damn wasted...

eee.... she sleeps like she's on her own bed...

finally woke up.

thank god charmaine's parent were there to send them home... they're damn sporting you know... and her dad sings too... hehe..

and last but not least, of course, a photo with my signature pose!! ekekeee.....

ekekekeke....

though it's only a few of us, but we had fun tho.. too bad i have to leave early to pick ming up at hartamas...

he had fun too that night, he went to Soda for Miss Hypertune finals.. girls are not bad he said. but he's a lil tipsy... so we went home straight and before i finish cleaning my face, he's asleep like a pig. with terribly loud hiccups... ugh...

(,,#ﾟДﾟ):∴;'･,;`:ｺﾞﾙｧ!! damn ugly can?

ugh... so many things to do... so little time.. i have to get contact lenses, yes, not one but a few.... for a friend, have to do my laundry... one week laundry!! hmm... so many other things to do that i don't even remember what i wanted to do...

okay.. that's all for today...

back to work!

"although you are scurrilous, though i always treat you like a guy, but you're still a girl. and you're still the person whom i can talk to when there's nobody's around for me. you're the best person that i can share with."

that's what he told me over the phone today.

"huh? what talking you?" i replied.

i really don't know what he's talking about. i mean... knowing him for almost 6 years, he's definitely joking..

"i'm serious. every word. it's what i've always wanted to say. but was too shy to say it out." he replied.

?????

"don't joke around la.. what happened? why say like that? you okay or not? i don't understand what you're talking about lor.."

"you don't have to understand. i'm happy enough to have you here to listen.really!"

Σ(￣ε￣;･･･

"okay.. so what you wanna talk about?"


we continued talking for a while and hung up.


me?

the best??

this is SO not him.


the normal him...

-when i did something that doesn't make sense.... he'll say...
"tiu! why you so 7 stupid geh??"

-when i grin, smile or laugh at him.... he'll say...
"niama..... siew lan ar siew??? slap 9 lei gah..."

-when i asked for something that he thinks is ridiculous... he'll say...
"lei soh lan jor ar?"

-when i made a mistake.. like stood him up, forgot to do something, etc... he'll say...
"ngor tiu 9 lei jau gau lor...."


see? he treats me like a guy. that's only part of it.

he'll verbal-abuse me vulgarly.

everytime.

without fail.

like nobody's business.

but today, it's different. it's been a while since we have a heart-to-heart talk.

he's been there everytime i needed help. and i've always thought that i'm the one who's dependant on him. i've always thought that i'm the one who needed him.

but i'm wrong.

i've never thought that he also need me to be there.

i've never thought that my presence brings comfort to him.

we don't really see each other so often anymore. we don't hang out like we used to anymore. we don't even TALK as much anymore.

but i'm glad.

i'm glad that we still have each other in our hearts.

i'll always remember how he replied me when i once asked him long time ago, "where am i in your heart?"

he drew heart shape on the table and pointed right in the middle of the heart.

"right there," he replied with a smile.


"there? isn't that is where your girlfriend supposed to be?"

he pointed everywhere in the heart. "she's here."

-_-:

"ceh..... make me happy a while... tiu.." i pouted.

"yes. my girlfriend is everywhere. though she's all over my heart, i don't know where to start finding for her. cos she's always moving. but you're right in the middle. you're only at one place. the place where i know i can definitely find you there. the place where nobody could ever replace.."

the meme.

Very boring.

So i decided to bore you guys with this.....





Four jobs I would stink at:

1. Accountant (I assumed that all accountants tends to become very calculative due to the influence of their job's nature) .

2. Model (I can't live without food. And to become a model, I have to have a strict diet to maintain my body figure because I'm not born thin).

3. Lawyer (Lawyers always thought that they're right. Even when they're wrong, they will argue until you give up and agree with them even though you're not willing to).

4. Full time Blogger (I only can write when I'm emotional. on normal days, I lose all my ability to write).

Four pretend nicknames I'm making up for myself:
1. Suzie
2. Dum Dum
3. Denquerida
4. Dy

Four movies I have watched over and over (and did not fall asleep):
1. The Dead Poet's Society (it's so touching...)
2. The Green Mile (sad..)
3. The Sound of Music

Can't think of any other at this moment.

Four things I love to do on weekends:
1. Sleep in.
2. Watch CSI re-runs on AXN.
3. Hanging out with friends.
4. Continue sleeping and pigging out.

Four alcoholic beverages I've enjoyed:
1. Bailey's.
2. Bailey's.
3. Bailey's.
4. And more Bailey's.

Four celebrities I would go on a Big Date with:
I don't have any celebrity crushes.

Four things I could not live without (excluding the essentials):
1. Money.
2. Our stinky pillow.
3. Our stinky comforter.
4. Jeans.

Four of my favourite foods, whom I'd like to bon appetite with:
1. Tom Yam @ Gombak (with bB).
2. Seafood @ Bagan Lalang (with my colleagues).
3. Dim Sum @ Ipoh (with my family).
4. French-something Chicken Chop @ MoMo (with bB).

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. New York.
2. Japan.
3. Bali.
4. Home.

Four people I'm mercilessly tagging:
1. weileng
2. choo
3. debb
4. jesse

my orbituary.

Guess who will miss me when i die??? ekekekeeee....

Paris Hilton!

Terribly missed?

Σ(￣ε￣;･･･

the out-of-boredom routine.

i was browsing the net at work today and i stumbled upon this website that tells you which celebrity you looked like...

so being extremely bored like usual, and i can't doze of at work like yesterday.. ( my boss caught me and a colleague sleeping during work time and he's quite furious about it...), i uploaded a photo of me and ming... and the result?????

guess who i look like??

♪♪＼(^ω^＼)( /^ω^)/♪♪

hahahaaa!! i looked like kyoko fukada?? ming is gonna laugh his ass out when he sees this!!!!!



and ming...? he looked like this...

ming looks like a lot of female celebrities!!!! hahahahaaa!!!!

dumdum!

the gathering.

so they held a gathering for their highschool friends few weeks ago at MBar, Philleo Damansara. well.. it's the boy's second gathering that i'm attending... they're crazy.... they're nice... they're just fabs people...!

MBar is just another so-so bar (dodgy, i'd say..). we went there on a saturday night and it's so quiet.. only few tables are occupied and perhaps they're regulars there. their ambassador is plump and we saw her dancing right in front of the bar, which is facing the main entrance. no wonder the bar is so quiet..

（￣へ￣）

the music they played??

ugh.... rnb...

they even played chinese and indonesian songs!! kinda..... er..... weird, right?? and most of the songs they played is very old school....

but the party is not as bad as it sounds tho..

at least everybody enjoyed drinking and talking and cam whoring..


o(^^o)(o^^)o わくわく

with the girls...

my pillow..

this is siew ling

see? wei leng and her boyfriend were there too!!

miss ya gurlie.. gurl...

this is pek yee & kenny

drunk? not yet!! haha... with joyce..

sapphire.

if any of you who're single and reading this, you can stop reading here... cos there'll be lotsa eyesoring photos that'll make you puke... even worse, you'll start to feel very lonely and started blaming yourself for dumping your ex partner.

now i've warn you, don't blame me if you started to feel bad.

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sean & moon

told ya!!

ヘ(^_^ヘ)(ノ^_^)ノ

joyce & gary

lovingly loving..

（　´∀｀）

donald & joanne

(* ＾)(＾ *)チュウチュウ♪

kenny & pek yee

凸(　▼▼）===C<*_+ )ギュー！

the couple who always "sa fa cheong"..

dy & ming

(;-""-);'◇') ﾌﾞｩε=( ￣(●●)￣)ﾊﾞｶﾊﾐﾙｰ!ﾌﾞﾀﾉｹﾂｰ♪

fen & malau

getting married next year..!

おめでとう~♪(ﾉ⌒∇)ﾉ*：・'ﾟ☆｡.:*:･'ﾟ★ﾟ'･:*:.｡.:*:･'ﾟ:*:･'ﾟ☆｡


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the boys.

g i r l f r i e n d s

beer are girl's bestfriend?

t h i s i s f r i e n d s h i p

they may not get to see each other so often, but their friendship is strong.

this is friendship.

the groceries.

i went groceries shopping the other day with ming. splurged almost a hundred bucks for that one hour visit to carrefour. damn...

actual plan was to get shampoo and nail polish remover. end up buying what??

walked into the supermarket and search for a basket..

ming : what are you looking for?

dy : basket-la...! easier ma.. no need carry so many things.. *grin sheepishly*

ming : *threw an evil look* so lazy..

found the basket under one of the counters.... started walking towards the dairy product aisle.. saw cheese.... (ming got one 8-days diet plan.. eat only green apples for first two days, then cheese for two days, vege two days and chicken breast for last two days.. i started eating green apples for few days.)

dy : b ar.. buy cheese lor...
ming : *another 'you-really-want-to-start-diet??' look*

took a pack of cheddar cheese stick and a pack of mozarella cheese..

continue walking..... walked past the ice-cream aisle... saw Wall's Sandwich Cookies ice-cream... (neh... the cow one...)

dy : eh... this one... heheheeee.... the one we saw on tv-leh.... (slowly open the freezer cover, hoping that he didn't notice)

ming : yalor... (looking at the package)

dy : you say wanna try right?? (took one packet out and chuck it in the basket and quickly close the cover. pretend nothing happened and walked away..)

ヾ（＠＾▽＾＠）ノ わはは

ming : *yet another you-fatty-bum-no-hope-d-lar look*

（ ｀´）===C<*_+ )

dy : buy vege....

took some lantern pepper and celeries...

walked pass bakery section...

dy : wanna eat bread?? very nice one...

ming : duwan.

dy : smells nice... just came out from the oven some more.... *looking at the breads*

ming : what bread??

dy : potato bread... very nice one........

walked towards the counter... took one packet of bread and shove it in the basket...

walked happily hand-in-hand...

ming : eh.. buy coffee...

dy : owh...

ming : sugar and milk also....

took coffee and milk... then looked for shampoo...

dy : *walked along the shampoo aisle, looked each and every brand, couldn't decide which one to buy*turns to ming and ask for opinion*

ming : haiya... anything la... as long as can wash hair ok lor....

dy : but this one smell nice.... that one also not bad.... which one better???

ming : you like la..... i don't mind the smell wan...... *turns and look at other toiletries*

dy finally decided which shampoo to get.. turned and about to walk away...

ming : *chucked a deodorant stick in the basket* let's go look for sugar...

dy : *took a packet of fine sugar and walked pass biscuits snacks section.... stopped by and have a look... automatically took a packet of Meiji Panda chocolate filled biscuits and shoved it into the basket* come.. let's go..

ming : you....!!!!?...... (ugh... no hope) m(_ _)m



that was how the bill goes to almost a hundred bucks!!

*forgot to buy nail polish remover*


another incident...

i went to the bank to bank in some money for daddy the other day and walked pass Guardian on the way back to office... remembered the day before daddy said his arms itchy cos of allergies or something... so thought of getting some pills for him... they said Zyrtec is good, so i walked into the pharmacy...

remembered nail polish remover... walked and took one bottle.. automatically took one emery board... then also just remembered i need to get some sanitary pads... walked up and looked for almost 10 minutes... saw cotton buds (ming's place no more cotton buds), took one packet.... saw dental floss..(ming's place no floss), took one.... saw 3-in-1 coffee.. (remembered ming always drink coffee but lazy go make, suitable for him...) took one packet... on the way down... almost forgot no more tampon, took one.... walked straight to the counter and paid.... *another 60 bucks gone....*

walked happily back to the office..


*forgot to buy the most important thing.... pills for daddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Σ(￣ε￣;･･･

21st October 2006. the wedding.

it's Deepavali day and we have to wake up extra early to attend Kelvin and Nikko's wedding. the guys have to become "heng dai' and we girls have to become "ji mui".

on the way to the groom's house in the morning.

as i reached nikko's house, almost everybody's there. waiting for the groom to pick her up.. she looked beautiful with the wedding gown..

i reckon that every girl look pretty in wedding gown regardlessly of how fat or ugly they are on normal days. every bride is made to be stunning no matter how unattractive they were.

but nikko's already pretty without the gown.. but that day, extra beautiful.

*winkz*

waiting for her knight in shining armour.

nikko's parents putting on the veil.

and the knight came..

wedding dinner was held at a chinese restaurant in Ampang. food was okay.. didn't drink tho..

with pekyee.

he gained a lot of weight.

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been doing a lot of thinking lately..

i get emotional attack very often lately too..

i think i think too much.