yesterday was my birthday.
it didn't felt like a birthday.
it was a very dull and boring day, just like any other days. i spent the whole afternoon sleeping, cleaning the room and washing all the dirty clothes that's been piled up since God knows when..
Ming brought me out for dinner at Roadhouse Grill with Gary, Joyce and Mun. dinner was ok.
my colleagues actually asked me to go for karaoke last night but then i turned them down. was quite late after dinner so i thought no point going la.. i know... quite "sou hing"cos Vincent texted me and told me everyone was there.. only waiting for me to appear la.. but then.. sorry Vincent.. was too tired for karaoke...
so i'm officially 23 years old now.
i didn't know what to expect, turning 23 is like... nothing.
nothing out of the ordinary happened. nothing changed. nothing extra memorable. well, i think i can see a few wrinkles started to form on the edge of my eyes and mouth.. or was it just an illusion? was it just me? or it was already there ever since?
a year older.
i still don't feel any wiser. or perhaps i DID get a lil wiser unknowingly. but i still felt like a little girl, crying for the same attention i thought i needed, hoping to get love that i thought was not enough, trying to fit in knowing that it was just a courtesy, wishing for the simplest miracle to happen. i still felt like a little girl.. too easy to trust. too easy to give in. too easy to be satisfied. still a lil naive.
giving this much does not mean that you'll get that much in return. sometimes, you wouldn't get anything at all.. but you'll still give this much. why? perhaps you thought there might be still a lil hope there.
this is what always happen to me. hoping to much when too much is never there.
oh.. btw, no cake and candle blowing this year... does that mean that i'm still 22? 22 sounds nicer.. younger.. :P
i should start spending on facial products!
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