I Love Lanterns!

It was Mid Autumn Festival yesterday. brought back some childhood memories where we will play with candles and lanterns at our old house car porch. We would fill up the main gate with candles and play with those transparent colorful plastic animal shaped lanterns.. don't know if they still selling those lanterns now.. now most of them are those electric ones, with Angry Birds, Hello Kitty or some super heroes characters. not so original anymore..

we would light up the candles on the car porch, making heart-shapes, flower-shapes, and our names on it.. we would play with the candles once it's burned out, waxing our fingers.. so much fun. those years when fire crackers are still widely available, we would play with our neighbours. we loved running around with sparkles sticks.. ah.. what a wonderful memory.

I Love Oldschool Things!

wah i’m so puny.. heheh..

i found a new exercise book in my pile of junks while cleaning my room last weekend (moving house, remember?) i don’t even remember i kept this! whoa… this one.. at least 10 years old. the last edition of this book was in year 2000 or was it 1999? can’t remember. hmm.. feels good walking down the memory lane while clearing junks. i found some old photos and cheesy poems that i wrote. hahahahha… even I don’t believe that i wrote it.. lol! will post it up here when i have the time though.
anyway, there’s so much to do.. so many things happened. shitty things. nothing new though. just normal shitty things ie: work and insensitive boyfriend but both have been resolved. anyway… will update about my room once i’m done arranging and cleaning. (if you follow me on twitter, you’ll know how frustrated i was with my dad for rearranging MY ROOM after i planned it the way i want. ugh!)

hopeful.

I woke up this morning with the sun shining brightly through the window. It was warm, but perfect temperature. I smelt freshly brewed coffee aroma lingering in the room all the way from the kitchen counter. “Such a lovely day today,” I thought. 

I went outside and saw you, preparing the breakfast. Toasted chicken sandwich, my favorite. I still couldn’t believe that I woke up seeing you the first thing in the morning. It felt so warm, so nice. So familiar. You came to me, held my hand and playfully twisted me close to your body. We hugged tightly, I studied your face for a very long time, looking confused. Not letting go yet, you told me, “Don’t worry okay? Everything will be alright now”, you hugged me firmly. It’s like you knew what’s in my mind. You knew exactly what I wanted to hear. It’s comforting. 

My heart beats faster. Just like the first time I received your text saying you love me. Like the first time you hold my hand. It felt so familiar. So comfortable. So happy. So in love.

We hugged for a little longer. We’re in no rush. We’re both reluctant to let go… Then, the alarm went off….

And I woke up AGAIN.

It was only a dream??!?

How can I wake up in a dream and I had to wake up AGAIN?!??

How can it be ONLY A DREAM!!??!

It felt SO REAL!

I can remember every little detail CLEARLY! I can smell the coffee, I can feel the warmth, I can feel the tightest hug, and I can smell YOUR smell! HOW CAN IT BE ONLY A DREAM!

Ugh. I felt cheated by my own dream.

Time to face the reality. Ouch!

that can of tomato juice

today, i realised that it’s gone.

today, i realised that no matter how hard you try to preserve it, it will expire no matter what.

today, i realised that i’m so stupid, for not drinking that can of tomato juice 5 years ago.

now it’s expired.

how to drink liddat???