When a person lives in fear...

A lot of times when a person is in fear, they react in a way that results them to do stupid things.

Things that hurt themselves. Things that hurt someone else. Things that doesn't makes sense. Things that don't benefit the majority. 

For example, when someone is fear of losing their job, they started to think of ways to earn their bosses' favors. They started to go "extra mile" to prove to their bosses that they are capable, that they are relevant, that they are better than others.

Well, it's not wrong to prove yourself, don't get me wrong. But seriously, there are better ways to achieve it. 

Stepping on others while doing so? I think it's a bit too stupid.

How long you can maintain this?

How many of your colleagues will be able to stand your behaviour?

You need others help to work too. You're not a one-man-show.

By the time you climbed up, you lose everyone else. 

There will be a time where others give up just because they don't see the benefit of staying in such toxic environment. 

What will happen then?

You lose help. You have to spend more time training new people. Wasting precious time. 

So what if you gain 1 person's favor but lose 10 person's trust?

Nothing wrong with climbing the ladder. 

But so what if you're up there alone? 

Nobody is genuinely liking you. 

Nobody is agreeing with you. 

Nobody even want to work with you if they have a choice. 

Why be that person? 

Do you think by doing little things behind your superior's back is beneficial to you?

Do you think you can simply earn respect by forcing your way in, in your "subtle" way, will gain everyone's respect and favors? 

If you really think so, I can only say good luck to you. Wish you all the best. 

Anyway,  I think this whole bad economy situation is making employees live in fear. They forget that THERE IS A STANDARD WORKING HOURS. 

They forget that we are not robots. We need time to rest. 

Not everyone is like you, working 16 hours. Replying emails and texts after 8pm. Expecting others to do the same. 

Come on.. If it's not urgent until life and death situation, please don't make others life miserable too. 

Please stop spoiling your clients, bosses and colleagues. 

Spoiling it for other colleagues who needs their proper rest. 

Verbal Diarrhea.

1. Took a few days off last week to solve some family matters. FTS. Nothing’s gonna change and I’m tired of all this crap. It’s sickening. It’s all nonsense.


2. I’ve learned that you have to be strong-willed, be calm and think straight when everybody else around you is nervous.

3. Going back to work after a week off is the worst thing ever at the moment. I wish today is a weekend.

4. My office just subscribed to UNIFI and it doesn’t make any difference. Still. Damn. Slow.

5. I need to work harder to earn more money. Aih. A never ending problem of mine.

6. I finally found the discountinued perfume that I was looking for the longest time. The feeling is perhaps like discovering a hidden treasure.

7. Yea. This is actually a ranting emo dunno-what post.

8. I’m on a shopping ban now, perhaps until the third quarter. Haha. I bought 3 shoes (fml 2 pairs are damn uncomfortable not human wear wan..), few tops and dresses, a bag, a pants… ok lah.. most of them can wear to work wan… *can you hear excuses? Meh.*

9. Too many things happening. Actually one major one is enough for me to grow plenty of white hair and permanent wrinkled forehead.

10. Nobody can help you if you’re not willing to help yourself.

11. Sudden crave for Japanese food again.

12. My laptop is going bonkers.

13. Dear John movie is super disappointed. I hope the book is better.. gonna start reading it soon.

14. That reminds me of the 30+ books that I have not touch since I bought it… cos I haven’t wrap it lah..

15. Random habit of mine.. I cannot read books that I haven’t wrapped. Just feels weird.

16. I’m watching this TVB drama, “Yes Sir, Sorry Sir” and I super HATE the main actor’s uncle and his family. Damn stupid I tell you! Where got such people wan!! Feel like slapping them. Super HATE.

17. I really wanna go holiday somewhere.

18. Ohhh… Kenny proposed to Peks! Congrats you two!

19. I finally permed my hair. This time, dad got it right. Super <3 !!! But I need to at least wear a bit of make up to match my hair. Boo!

20. Went to Hennessy Artistry party at Sunway Opera last weekend.

21. Can’t wait for the dress that I bought from ASOS!!!

22. Actually I’m damn emo, angry, frust, and negative aura all around me now.

23. I told you this is a dunno-what post.

24. Need to wait for at least 2 months before I can get the keys of the house. Nervous weh!

25. I passed 2 insurance exams. Officially can sell insurance plan now. Ahem. Wait for my call ok? Haha.

26. I’m turning 26 this month! Kthxbai!

nah my new hair.

compare to this in 2008... omg KILL ME PLEASE. i don't even know what i was thinking back then.

FUCK TRUE FITNESS

some lady just called me from this number 03-92353600 saying "hello miss denise, i'm calling from True Fitness and we have a free trial for one month, are you interested?"  i told her nicely "it's okay, i'm already joining a gym" and guess what she did??? SHE FUCKING HUNG UP after i said that without replying me!!! mgch this is fucking RUDE!!!!!!! this is the first time i got such a rude sales call!!! i know you wanted sales but with this kind of attitude, i guess you will forever be doing sales calls without getting a sales FOREVER!

can't believe True Fitness hired such sales team.

of enemies and troubles.

I came back from Beijing with mild sore throat and nose blocked for about a week. Not exactly the best feeling, especially when I couldn’t really taste what I ate. But not as bad as Shorty though.. she had a terribly flu and her taste bud went absolute bonkers. Actually the weather lately is super crazy. One minute it was mad hot and stuffy, another minute it gets all gloomy and rain heavily. Almost half of my colleagues are sick. Not sure if it’s because of the Beijing trip or KL weather is just nuts.


Okay. I’m gonna stop talking about the boring weather.

I was gonna rant about a lot of things that happened lately. But I’m too tired to even care anymore. It’s just major waste of time. I know some of you are waiting for my classic “jahdou” and ranty posts (hikhik) but since I told you guys d, no need lah… wait til the time bomb explode again then I’ll write a long one. heh.

Okay.. I changed my mind.

You see.. this year, there are so many shitty things happened to me (luckily not major ones lah). Work wise, it was considered good if not great, BUT… (see? There’s always a BUT) .. there’s ALWAYS a bitch who just like to ruin your good life. Pfft. First, there’s a colleague who like to make my life miserable by making things difficult. But me being me, I use all my energy to accommodate him and try to understand the reason behind his attitude/character and of course, for me, work is just work. So I don’t take it personal and most of the time, I just don’t care if he is going to be annoyed or angry, as long as I get my work done and I don’t mind being scolded at, because again, it’s just work. So after a while, I learned that he was not a bad person after all. Just that a lot of people cannot stand the way he does things and found him unbearable and hard to get along. After half a year working together, we’re kinda good friends/colleagues. Until today, a lot of them still don’t understand how I can get along and work with him. I’ll always remember how mom always says, “if someone treated you badly, you don’t have to treat them bad too. In contrast, you have to treat them better than you already did. One day, they will understand.” And yes, I believe in karma too.

But that was not only it… one enemy down and a new enemy turn up! Wtf.. nonstop cycle! This one is a major bitch if you ask me. I have never met or known any colleagues like this in my 7 years of working experience! Omg.. I don’t even know where and how to start describing her… she is super spoilt as a daughter, girlfriend AND colleague. Seriously.. if she work somewhere else, I think she can’t even stand a day. She is also super whiny and likes to complain every single thing to my boss. Long story. But to cut it, my boss is also another lembik one. I’m not even sure if I want to respect him after what he portrayed himself to be. But I guess I respect him as just my boss, nothing more than that. Cos he seems to be biased and I super hate favoritism between bosses and staffs. I mean.. I’m aware that favoritism is normal, but not to that extend lah… another thing is.. I super hate it when we (all the other colleagues) talk to him, he never really pay attention and ALWAYS have his eyes laying on her direction. Grrr!!! Wtf! my things are not urgent meh! He ALWAYS go to her direction when I’m halfway talking to him!! Damn cibai one I tell you…

If I were to go on and talk about her, I think 3 days 3 nights also not enough. Pfft. I’m damn pissed.

Not only colleagues that are giving me problems… friends-turned-enemy also giving me so much trouble. Luckily I have nothing to hide and things just died after ignoring it. Seriously. Ignorance is bliss. No point arguing with bimbo who act godly and strong when inside, she’s just another vulnerable psycho.

Oh.. and BFFs who are damn stubborn. I wonder if they’re worth my precious time… (no lah.. I still love my BFFs. I’m just annoyed at them for being so clueless sometimes).

And Smelly… he is number one in irritating me. grrr!!!! I cannot be mad at him no matter how hard I tried cos he got a joker face that will make me laugh whenever I look at him when I’m angry. Wtf. he STILL calls me fat and it’s mad annoying lor!!!! sidenote: kena nag for spending so much and owing still a lot. Pfft. But he just bought GT5 for like 300bucks and he have not gotten a console yet! Wtf. who is spendthrift now eh?

I Love Nachos!

mashed potatoes and nachos at Chili's. my favorite!!!

went for a lunch date with Jeremy yesterday at Chili's Mid Valley after "planning" forever. we end up chatting for 3 hours. okay.. more like ranting and bitching.

i actually have a lot more to bitch about. 

wtf. i seriously don't deserve it lor... i swear when i have time, i will write all about it. fts lah. 

Fuck Off.

Seriously, I do think that some people are really psycho when it comes certain things. Not that I cannot take sarcasm, but just don’t fucking two-face me when you prefer not to like me. Just don’t pretend as if nothing happened and act cool about it when the fact is you really mind it. How hard is it to tell me to my face that you hate me and want me out of your life? I have no problems shutting you out of mine because for one, you definitely don’t have a significant status in my life at all. I just cannot accept the fact that you said you have nothing against me but behind my back, you say things differently. What’s your problem? Can’t you just tell it to my face? You don’t have to waste your time and effort to do/say so many things behind me indirectly when all you have to do is just come right up to me and tell it straight to me.




Fucking two face.



I do not owe you anything and I’m definitely NOT trying to be nice to you. Or anyone close to you for that matter. And for the record, I am NOT felling any guilt because I have done NOTHING wrong. It’s all your own assumptions and I am not responsible for it. The reason why I am so pissed is that you are a fucking two-face.



Try all you want. I am not going to defend myself or anyone. Definitely not going to retaliate because I know by doing that, you will get the satisfaction, which I am definitely NOT going to let you get. Period.

FUCK AEON CREDIT SERVICES!

Ok. Today is the most ridiculous day ever! If you follow me on twitter, I’ve tweeted this morning, “niamah Aeon credit service's customer service rep is fucking rude!! hah! eat my complain letter!!! knn! damn angry!” and after half an hour, “complain letter and cancellation form emailed! feels so good to possibly destroying a CS good day!”.

The whole story is liddis…

Last month, I went to Aeon credit centre in Mid Valley to make a full settlement and cancel both of my cards with them. But the guy suggested that I cancel one card first because there’s still unbilled outstanding balance in my other card and he did not know how much is the whole amount would come up to, so he told me to wait for the statement before proceeding to cancel it cos they cannot cancel an account with outstanding balance (a bit ridiculous to me but it’s okay cos different banks have different procedures right). So as expected, I still have some outstanding balance on the card when the statement came. However, for the card that I’ve cancelled, there’s a credit balance due to the earlier credit adjustments that they made (waive of annual fee & replacement card fee). Now, the credit amount is RM70.02, and the outstanding balance on the other card is RM56.63. So I tried calling the customer service number to find out and nobody ever pick up the damn phone every time I called. So after a few days of trying, this morning, my called was finally answered. By a fucking rude rep.

So I asked if I can just transfer the credit balance to the outstanding account, and I asked what is my outstanding balance (at that time, I wasn’t sure how much) so that I can make the necessary arrangement if there’s still outstanding after the transfer. She did not answer my question, gave me an irrelevant answer and sounded as if I owed her a million dollars and killed her family. (actually when she answered my call and verifying me with 7,SEVEN,TUJUH,CHAT,SHICHI questions (wtf right!), she already sounded damn “mm loi farn” but I just kept quiet.

So I got agitated and said, “CAN YOU PLEASE WATCH YOUR TONE?” and she was like, “What? MY TONE?????????” damn wtf right! “YES, YOUR TONE. You sounded like you don’t want to serve me. CAN I PLEASE SPEAK TO YOUR MANAGER OR ANYONE WHO’S IN CHARGE?” she paused for a while and before she blurted something else, I asked again, “Can you transfer me to someone else? I WANT TO SPEAK TO SOMEONE ELSE. Btw, what is your name?” she replied, “MY NAME MAL.”  Wtf!! “Ok, can you please transfer now? THANK YOU” and she said “YOU’RE WELCOME” with a heavy tone. Super pissed lor!

Then someone named Lily answered and resolved my questions BUT NEVER APOLOGISE for whatever crap behavior I receive from stupid Mal.

So I wrote in a complain letter regarding the terrible service that I’ve received and attached with my cancellation form of the other card.

I received a reply within an hour stating that they received my email and asked me to fill in the cancellation form they attached. Sigh! I had to reply “My cancellation form was attached with the previous mail. Please check.” Wtf. I think they are very careless especially dealing with a mad customer.

Then after few hours, which is just a few minutes ago, I received a call from a rep, saying that they received my cancellation form and they will proceed with the cancellation. In that email, I asked them to send over the refund to my mailing address (it was told by the rep over the counter when I asked earlier how they will refund, he said by cheque). But this girl told me that now, they only can transfer directly to my bank account. Cheque was old procedure. -_- so I thought okay, at least I can get my RM13.39 back (I know it’s not a lot but hey, it’s still my money! Can buy a grande frap ok!)

But LO AND BEHOLD! She said, “But Ms Denise, for the transfer to your account, we will charge RM5 for the refund fee.” SUPER WHAT THE FUCK lor! “Look, when I called this morning, your rep Lily, NEVER TOLD ME anything about the refund fee.” I was damn pissed off! Isn’t it supposed to be a standard procedure to tell customers???? But I didn’t raise my voice cos I think she sounded quite nice and it’s not her fault. It’s Lily’s fault for not informing me. Then I told her might as well don’t cancel the card first, I’ll charge the card for the approximate amount, if there’s outstanding, I’ll pay the balance. That’s the most logical thing to do right? Then she said they already blocked and cancel the card. What they can do is reissue a new card for me (for free) and I can use the balance. I was like -______________________-|||

I told her, “Look… why so troublesome to reissue the card for a mere RM13.39? Just cancel my card and leave it. SIGH. I don’t want the transfer. What’s the point? After you deduct RM5, I’ll only get back RM8.39. NO POINT RIGHT? Just leave it.” (by this time, I felt defeated…)

SIGH!!!!!!!!!!

Actually on a split second, I thought of troubling them to reissue the card. But then.. AIH!!!!!!! Just treat it as charity lah.

So now you know how banks/credit centres cheat their customers. I FELT SUPER CHEATED!

hopeful.

I woke up this morning with the sun shining brightly through the window. It was warm, but perfect temperature. I smelt freshly brewed coffee aroma lingering in the room all the way from the kitchen counter. “Such a lovely day today,” I thought. 

I went outside and saw you, preparing the breakfast. Toasted chicken sandwich, my favorite. I still couldn’t believe that I woke up seeing you the first thing in the morning. It felt so warm, so nice. So familiar. You came to me, held my hand and playfully twisted me close to your body. We hugged tightly, I studied your face for a very long time, looking confused. Not letting go yet, you told me, “Don’t worry okay? Everything will be alright now”, you hugged me firmly. It’s like you knew what’s in my mind. You knew exactly what I wanted to hear. It’s comforting. 

My heart beats faster. Just like the first time I received your text saying you love me. Like the first time you hold my hand. It felt so familiar. So comfortable. So happy. So in love.

We hugged for a little longer. We’re in no rush. We’re both reluctant to let go… Then, the alarm went off….

And I woke up AGAIN.

It was only a dream??!?

How can I wake up in a dream and I had to wake up AGAIN?!??

How can it be ONLY A DREAM!!??!

It felt SO REAL!

I can remember every little detail CLEARLY! I can smell the coffee, I can feel the warmth, I can feel the tightest hug, and I can smell YOUR smell! HOW CAN IT BE ONLY A DREAM!

Ugh. I felt cheated by my own dream.

Time to face the reality. Ouch!

Alliance Bank Customer Service - BAD

Customer service : *monotone* Good morning, i'm XXXX.

dy: hi, i'm about to make a payment for my ABC loan, just wanna check with you the account number.

CS : *monotone* ok. before that can i  make a verification?

dy : ok.

CS : IC number?

dy : XXX (i wonder what's the point of me keying in my IC number before she answered the phone and still got asked for verification. damn redundant)

CS : billing address?

dy : XXX

CS : loan approved amount?

dy: XXX  (i still don't understand why you want to verify me with hundreds of questions!!!! usually, max 2 important questions is sufficient)

CS : last 4 digit of your loan account number?

dy : (WTF???) i don't know the account number THAT'S WHY I CALLED.

CS : oh.. it's XXXXXX

dy : thank you.

*proceed to make payment but found out she gave me the other loan account number. wtf! i mentioned clearly which loan i want to pay! ugh.. luckily i noticed it before i confirm payment!

customer service people nowadays.. sigh! i can understand that it's a boring job cos i've been there, done it, but hey.. at least you can sound more cheerful? it's only 10am! and at least you listen carefully before verifying me with stupid questions.

I'm not sure if it's worth it anymore.

I don't get young people nowadays. Don't they have a certain level of responsibilities? Well at least to prove to their family that they're actually capable of doing something meaningful and less hurtful? When they made mistakes, any mistakes, for sure as family members, we will nag/lecture/scold/advise/whatever, cos that's the way it should be, right? I was a teenager and I obviously know what's happening and what the stage of growing up and soul searching was (not that I'm very old and very much experienced in that, but at least I went through it). Well, to say that a girl matures faster than a boy is an overstatement imho. I've seen boys who mature at a very young age. I don't understand why certain young people like to blame the people around them for their own mistakes. Can't you just admit it? We forgave you for whatever crap and shits you created but you never learn from it! You create new mess for us after we clean the previous ones. Why do you have to play with our tender love and care? We all know that you're taking us for granted because every time we said we will never care anymore, we fail to keep our promise. Have you had any idea how many tears of disappointment and worries we shed because of you? Yes.. it's our fault for spoiling you. It's our fault that you became the way you are now. It's our fault that you can't find a part time job to earn extra allowance for your entertainments. It's our fault caring too much.

I seriously don't know what to say anymore.

We are all very disappointed. We did not let you fall. Our hands were there all along for you to grab it and climb back up. But you chose not to even look at it. You chose to fall deeper. You chose to shut us down.

We just want you to know that we're all always here to keep you back as long as you're ready to change for better. Now, it's your choice to make. After all, we're just a guidance... we're not you.

I am not your ATM machine.

If you don’t have money, then DON’T USE them. At the end of the day, don’t come back to us and demand us to give money to you (note: GIVE cos we all know that you’re not gonna pay us back after all that promises cos the same thing will happen every fucking month and the cycle continues).

If we can learn from the hard way, I’m sure you can too. And I’m still not fucking sure why she still want to help you out and giving all sorts of excuses to blind herself, and trying to blind us too, just to make everyone feels that it’s okay to help you out. Ughh! You’re working now and I am too. The only person that I ask money from is my boss, just because he is obligated to pay my salary and everyone else’s.

Of course, to say that I don’t ask others for cash is a total lie, cos I do admit I’m human too, I ask money from Smelly when I’m extremely out of cash BUT I do pay him back when I have money. Whereas you? You didn’t even say thank you when we gave you money! And the attitude after you get the money is totally NOT acceptable by normal social standard! Plus, WE DO NOT WORK OUR ASSES OFF TO GIVE YOU MONEY! And you in return, gave the money to illegal gambling arcade AND your girlfriend’s shoes! Wtf! And now you’re saying as if I am obligated to give you money as present for your birthday. Niamah!

I repeat… I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE CASH TO YOU ANYMORE. If you’re really hungry, I’ll buy you food. That’s because I’m still human.

Grr.

 

 

fuck you!

i've resigned.

yes. you read it correctly.

I'VE RESIGNED from the new job that i've worked just for 5 days. 

that fucking arrogant piece of shit director just made me realised that i've made a WISE decision to leave that company.

no wonder you don't have a long-term staff.

now i know why.

about money. sigh!

dy: bie.. you owe me money.

him: ?

dy: *explain explain*

him: ohh.. *pulls out 2 RM50 bills* nah..

dy: yay! *open drawer, take out the "Bangkok savings ang pau" and put money in*

him: why you so happy?

dy: can save ma.. hehehe...

him: -_-: *paused* i want........

dy: what?

him: i want you to give me all your bank statements. credit cards, car loan, personal loan...

dy: wtf? why wor.. *defensive*

him: i want to know how much you spent lah.. btw, take the money and pay your bills lah.. tsk.

dy: i paid d lah! yesterday paid all. sobz.

him: how much you owe?

dy: you saw ALL my statements d right that day? why you ask again wor.. bluek!

him: *evil grin* i now zero d..

dy: so fast??!? *jealous*

him: =P

dy: ok lah! you can have my card now. next month you pay for my car too k? thank you!!!

*hiak hiak*!!!

*********************************

you know.. Smelly is damn bad lor..

him: your daddy got call you or not today?

dy: no wor. why ar?

him: no meh?

dy: why??????

him: i told him d..

dy: told him what?

him: i told him how much you owe the banks for credit card and loans.

dy: WTF????????????????????!!!!!!!?? you so NO MANNERS weh!! *hide in the blanket*

him: yalah.. who ask you to spend so much... i tell him lor..

dy: why you so bad one..! it's privacy weh!! why you go and tell daddy! bad attitude weh!! YOU LACK OF TOILET TRAINING!! ARGHHH!! *scream lungs out, continue to hide in blanket*

him: *hugs* very scared meh?? hahaha!! i lied lah! no tell your daddy lah!

dy: very funny meh?? herh!

lol! lack of toilet training... hahahaha!! i can't believe i just said that when i'm angry+panic!

seriously, if my dad knows the figure, sure i'll kena lecture non stop d..

Pet Peeves.

1) Have you ever driven to a place where there are a few color lines on the road due to construction? Which color should we follow? The yellow line or the white line? The yellow dotted line or the yellow normal line? Or we don’t have to follow at all?

2) I won’t give way to people who cut queue without using signals. I won’t give way to those lansi ngau hai drivers who die die also wanna cut your lane even though no more space to go through.

3) There’s a reason why 2 signals are created for cars. One for left. One for right. If you want to go left, please don’t put right signal and vice versa. And if you are not going to turn anywhere, please don’t turn on your signal at all la.. Make people (especially ME!) confuse only. Cis!

4) If you cannot aim properly, you can sit on the toilet bowl and pee. Why must you (guys) let your sisa-sisa urine drip all over the toilet bowl? And if you really “accidently” dripped on it, just fucking rinse it away lah.. Damn disgusting okay!

5) If you like to squat when you pee, just fucking use the squatting-cubicle lah… why must you (girls) squat ON the toilet bowl? So that other people will get your shoe print on their butt when they sit on it? grr!

6) Is it hard to check before you leave? Why are there drops of blood around the toilet bowl/on the floor? Very disgusting lor… how can you leave the toilet with your blood drip and stain the surrounding AND let other people see it? UGH!

7) I don’t fucking get it.. How can you leave your used sanitary pad lying around in the toilet, unwrapped? Is it so fucking hard to wrap it and throw it in the sanitary bin/dustbin? This is a disgrace to the female species.

8) If you really need to get the phlegm out from your throat, please do it in the toilet. How can you do it so publicly, especially when the person sitting next to your table is having her dinner! Another thing is spitting publicly. And also blowing out your mucous too! Eww… I don’t fucking understand how some people blow it directly to the FLOOR (looked like an arrow come out from the nose some more! ish!!) Cannot use tissue or go to the toilet meh? It’s very disgusting okay! Yer!! I just couldn’t stand it when people blow their nose while I’m eating. Cis!!!

9) I don’t understand why some people don’t give way when we’re in the elevator. There’s so much more space inside, can’t you let other people come in? There are still spaces to fit like… 4-5 people but you chose to stand in front of the door so that people from outside will think that it’s full. Tsk tsk. Selfish people.

10) Busy body that likes to peek at other people’s text message when riding the elevator or the lrt/bus. Don’t you know it’s rude to read other people’s text? You know what I’m texting about meh? Busy body!

11) Blogs with so many similar-pose photos. You get what I mean? Arghh.

12) Those customer service representatives who don’t sound cheerful and doesn’t say “Please hold the line while I transfer your call” when are transferring my call! ARGHH! *pulls hair* NO MANNERS! Some more straightaway transfer my calls without saying ANYTHING and with me haven’t finished saying MY THING! Arghhh…

13) I totally cannot understand why some road signs are placed right BEHIND a tree or worse case; rows of trees, with their branches covered more than HALF of the signboard. What’s the point of putting a sign there if it’s gonna be covered all the time?

emo.angry.emo.ANGRY.

Am I really THAT immature in your eyes?

Do I look THAT inconsiderate to you?

Have you always thought that I do not understand at all?

You told me that you’re very disappointed hearing what I’ve said.

Does it EVER cross your mind that I’m also VERY disappointed that you felt that way?

You got it all wrong!

I did not mean what you thought I meant.

Can you stop using my weakness against me and make me feel bad?

And next time, don’t ever tell me to find another guy. It shows how unimportant I am to you. If you think that I will never do it, you’re totally wrong. You can never predict what I can do and what I WILL do out of rebellion.


Don’t forget that I have a very strong evil twin.

What will you do if…

You asked your friends’ opinion on planning a party and most of them agreed on the plan and first of all, nobody seems to be keen to become the “organizer” at the first place so you decide to be a good person and get the plan moving. When everything is planned and you confirmed with everyone and everyone seems to agree with your plan and you’re just few steps away from successfully throwing a party, out of a blue, you got to know that one of your friend have another plan and dragged few of the other friends with her without even informing you at the first place that she’s not interested with your plan and go ahead confirming it with the others…

NIAMAH!

At least have a courtesy to tell the person who is planning the event that you’re not interested so that we won’t include you in the list lah..! Plus, don’t sneakily go around and drag other people with you like you ARE the organizer, only for a different event, and made it like OUR PLAN don’t exists at the first place lor… niamapuki.

Grrrr… it’s been such a long time I didn’t curse here. Today is your lucky day.

Tiuniasing… damn frust when I heard this okay!

I don’t care if you happen to read this lor.. as a friend, (heck, are we even friends???) I don’t think this is appropriate lor.

When people plan, you never suggest or make the initiative to be part of the “committee”, you just kept quiet. When people suggest, nobody seems to disagree and so people mah plan nicely lor… suddenly out of a blue, you send sms to everyone to revert back to YOUR PLAN… and when I replied you asking, “I thought we planned THIS instead?” you never reply. Cipet..

Today, I got to know that you already made a reservation confirming 6 people to YOUR PLAN.

What about OUR PLAN?

Niamahcibaipukiayam.

I hate people like that lor..

Fucking no manners at all.

Okay. End of angry rant.

So we’re changing our Christmas Party plan to a better plan. We’re still going to do it over at Kenny’s. Just this time, it’s not buffet like we initially planned, we’re gonna do Western. (hint: turkey!). And since Peks is as kiasu as me, we’re gonna make sure this event is going to be very very happening and memorable. Peks suggested RED CARPET + poolside theme. Oh well… the red carpet is just for the sake of photograph.

We’re thinking of lotsa candles… and white theme for deco. Oh… rose petals spread on the walkway? I feel like we’re on a holiday already! (that’s what Christmas is all about right?? Holiday!)

Hmm… now what shall I wear?

emo.

Have you ever take some time and think about what I really want and need?

Do you know what’s in my mind if I never take the initiative to tell you EVERY SINGLE THING?

Can you at least pretend that you’re sorry? Or at least admit what I said about you was right?

Why do you always get away with it by smiling?

You know it doesn’t take a lot of effort to persuade me, right? You know I’m THAT easy to give in, right? That’s why you bully me.

You know I can’t be angry for long.

You’re a selfish person.

You only think about yourself.

Have you thought at least a lil bit of me?

Have you prioritize me at least ONCE in any situation?

Have you at least cared for a bit?

Is it me or is it because I’m too sensitive to think that you never care?

Does it hurt when I say you didn’t care, right to your face?

Does it hurt when I told you you’re selfish, right to your face?

Does it hurt when I say you don’t love me as much, right to your face?



Cos it hurts me when I said all that.