disappointment.

i don't know how to feel anymore.

he don't see me the way he used to see me anymore. and i wonder why. no, i'm not talking bout harvey.. i'm talking bout my best friend. yes.. my best friend.. a friend who knows EVERYTHING. a friend who used to be there each and everytime. a friend who once cared. i don't know what i did wrong. i don't know what triggered the silent treatment. what i know is, i woke up one fine morning and found that he treated me differently already. no more silly jokes.. no more care.. no more love in this friendship.. perhaps he can't accept the way i am now. or perhaps he found another companion to replace me. or maybe he woke up one fine morning and found that i'm not his best friend anymore.. maybe we never were...

he told me once.. "friends comes and goes.. it's just the way they come and the way they go.. the time they come and the time they will go.." and i'm certain that i don't want to lose him like the way we're losing each other now. it's unfair. totally unfair. no sign, no warning.. not fair at all. he know me very well.. and he should know what's in my mind.. like the way he used to know everything just by looking at me without a word coming out from my mouth. sigh~ perhaps we're losing it already.. we used to listen to each other's silence.. now.. not anymore.. i wonder why.. and i wish i know the answer..


[music on air]
ai, hen jian dan by david tao (it's our song..at least it used to be..)

[current mood]
not any better.

[quote of the day]
"In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends." Martin Luther King

[next station]
maple-ing~