the sleepless nights.

i can't sleep. it's been a few nights that i can't sleep when i want to. been sick for few days. and everytime when i'm about to sleep, my throat itches and i started sneezing and coughing non stop. sigh~ i seriously wanna sleep NOW... but been tossing and turning on my bed for an hour.. still can't sleep. i wonder what's happening.. i don't want to be late to class tomorrow morning.. there'll be a test.. fuck ballz.... talking bout test... reminds me of my assignments.. i don't even know what is it all about!! i have NO IDEA what to do... shit ballz... i'm in a big trouble this time... i don't wanna fuck things up again..

seriously.. i really really wanna sleep...

been thinking about harvey lately.. i wonder how is he doing. i think about him a lot.. but then again... i think i've been thinking bout love a lot less lately. no, not that i love him less.. i just think less bout love now. now, for me, love is like... it's just a word.. like any other words.. meaningful when you're really into it.. meaningless when it turns out ugly..

i don't want to think about it so much though. perhaps i'm afraid of it.. afraid of the outcome at the end of the day.. afraid of losing it.. so, might as well think less and worry less bout it, right?

i'm going to try sleeping now..


[music on air]
qing tian by jay zhou.

[current mood]
lovesick.

[quote of the day]
it's just the way we look at it.