the subjective.

love... it's very subjective... you can try to forget it.. you can stop thinking about it.. you can stop caring for it. but you can't perish it. no matter how hard you try to get rid of it, it's still there. want it or not.. you can't get rid of it. it'll linger around you with or without your desire.

hmm.. daddy's sick today. sigh~ and i got scolded for nothing. ok.. not scoldings but nags... i asked him yesterday night whether he went to see the doctor or not.. he said no. so i thought, maybe he's getting better, so he doesn't want to go. but this morning, when he got back from i-don't-know-where, he just nagged non stop.. saying something like.. "i'm sick and i have to cook breakfast for you guys... bla bla... i went to the clinic MYSELF and the doctor said i should've asked someone to drive me.. bla bla...i'm so weak that i couldn't walk.. bla bla.." i'm like.. "what the fuck man??" ugh!!! i just kept quiet the whole time he nagged... i've asked him before, he said he's not going to the clinic.. fine.. i told him not to prepare the breakfast the night before, he said no.. and this morning, he nagged.. so tell me, what the heoul?

hmm...

life's been bumpy lately. went through tough shits. learned a lot. more than what i thought that i've learned. getting by now..

i've done things that i'm not so proud of.. i've done things that made people around me worried sick about me.. i've done things to make other people's day.. i've done things that a best friend doesn't do.. i've done things to fit in.. i've done things that made other people think.. i've done things that annoyed people.. i've done things that makes me feel good.. i've done things that makes me feel terrible..

even so, there are still a LOT of things that i haven't tried to do.. lol! well.. i begin to feel "old" now.. tired of doing things that used to make me feel great.. tired of trying hard to make things happen.. so i guess i'll just let it be..

i miss my sister and her friends... and i seriously miss talking to harvey.. hmm...


[music on air]
fantasy by mariah carey.

[current mood]
i'm in a wear-skimpy-clothes mood... haha!

[quote of the day]
never judge a book by its cover.