When To Keep Quiet

“Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces." -Matthew 7:6 NIV

Not everyone will like to hear your opinion or advise.

Not everyone will like to hear the truth.

Not everyone wants to be helped.

So why waste time and energy to force them to listen and agree with you when they are not ready to accept it?

Everything is about time. The right time to say the right thing so you will get better result. 

When someone is not ready to accept it, you're just going to waste your time and effort. It will backfire and come back to bite you.

Why risk it if you know it won't work?

Why bother being the goodhearted person?

Why put yourself in a situation that is not beneficial to you?

Sometimes, it's really better to just keep quiet. Stay put. Don't look back. Don't care.

Just Random

on a random blabbering mode. need to let it out. heh.

Messed EQ

I don’t know.. but it really irks me when people tend to contradict themselves. I am, sometimes, contradicting myself too, but then at least I listen to other suggestions and see what are the next best steps to take. But no.. certain people just like to complain to you and when you give a few possibly great suggestions, they SURELY have negative things to say about it and in the end, whatever suggestions you made are just a bunch of rubbish that got thrown outside the window without being considered at all.


Wtf right? Ergh.

And then, there are those people who reject whatever ideas you have whenever possible cos they think your ideas are rubbish and their ideas are the best. Or, even worse, whatever decisions you made are deemed stupid to them and they just gotta stab you right in your heart by saying negative things. Sigh. Sometimes, telling people things/stories/problems/etc, doesn’t mean that I want your agreement. I just want your moral support. If you don’t have anything nice to say, just don’t make me feel bad by adding salt to my wounds lah right? At least wait until my mood gets better before you start telling me how great your life is and how terrible my situation was.

Aih.. I don’t know lah..

Anyway, I gotta start thinking for myself. It gets really tiring for being the tough one and in the end, I neglect myself. Over the weekend, I kinda broke down. It just came to a point where everything seems not right. EVERYTHING. And it’s really scary at one point.

Sometimes, it’s sad knowing that even the person who sleeps next to me for 5 years might not really know what’s in my mind. Am I giving the wrong impression all this while or it’s just how he sees things? I’m afraid of a lot of things, yes. I do like to dream about a lot of possibilities that could happen to me, yet I’m not showing any good initiative that I’m up for the challenge. Deep down inside, I’m just scared. At one point, I just felt that I couldn’t hold on to it anymore. Everything suddenly turned pitch black and there I was… lost and scared. And in case anyone wondered, no, I’m not talking about relationship problems. I’m talking about my problems.

But everything has a solution. Most powerful solution is tears. Shed some of it and immediately, you’ll see a light *tink*. Then everything seems to be a little clearer. Of course, with some rational advice from your partner who thinks that you went nuts a few minutes ago and with some pinching on your cheeks which leads you back to reality. And then, suddenly, you’ll feel that the person who sleeps next to you for 5 years now, actually might just be the best person you should turn to even though he might appeared to be an asshole for not showing that he cared. Suddenly, he turned out to be the person who kinda understands you the most.

I guess this monthly bleeding thingy really messed up my EQ this time around.

Pfft.

I Love Jumbling.

1. Tiny pimples growing all over my face. I blame it on the weather. It’s SO HOT I don’t feel like doing anything at all.


2. Caught up with a few friends that I haven’t met for quite some time and they said I looked thinner. ❤❤ ❤

3. I have to complete this special mission... and I’m so stressed up that I feel like giving up already. Ergh. Super hate this feeling.

4. Have I mentioned that I’m officially a qualified insurance agent now? *reason of above stress* blergh.

5. Sometimes, I just sit there and wonder… “What the heck am I doing?” or “Why do I keep forgoing my dreams and stayed grounded?” or “WHY?”

6. Growing old is not fun at this stage.

7. I think I deserve a nice birthday treat. Thinking of fine dining. Sage or iL Lido? Decisions…

8. Another decision – to earn extra income and stop Japanese class for 6 weeks or let go that extra income and concentrate on classes? Exam is in July yo! Decisions decisions….

9. I wanna spend a girly day out with my bestie… but she so busy duwanna layan me. *stares at Ann* boo!

10. I have a mission when I turn 26… I wanna quit smoking. But then I’d have to quit coffee too cos every time I took coffee, I just HAD to light a stick. How? I cannot ditch my coffee.

because i love my hair.

Verbal Diarrhea.

1. Took a few days off last week to solve some family matters. FTS. Nothing’s gonna change and I’m tired of all this crap. It’s sickening. It’s all nonsense.


2. I’ve learned that you have to be strong-willed, be calm and think straight when everybody else around you is nervous.

3. Going back to work after a week off is the worst thing ever at the moment. I wish today is a weekend.

4. My office just subscribed to UNIFI and it doesn’t make any difference. Still. Damn. Slow.

5. I need to work harder to earn more money. Aih. A never ending problem of mine.

6. I finally found the discountinued perfume that I was looking for the longest time. The feeling is perhaps like discovering a hidden treasure.

7. Yea. This is actually a ranting emo dunno-what post.

8. I’m on a shopping ban now, perhaps until the third quarter. Haha. I bought 3 shoes (fml 2 pairs are damn uncomfortable not human wear wan..), few tops and dresses, a bag, a pants… ok lah.. most of them can wear to work wan… *can you hear excuses? Meh.*

9. Too many things happening. Actually one major one is enough for me to grow plenty of white hair and permanent wrinkled forehead.

10. Nobody can help you if you’re not willing to help yourself.

11. Sudden crave for Japanese food again.

12. My laptop is going bonkers.

13. Dear John movie is super disappointed. I hope the book is better.. gonna start reading it soon.

14. That reminds me of the 30+ books that I have not touch since I bought it… cos I haven’t wrap it lah..

15. Random habit of mine.. I cannot read books that I haven’t wrapped. Just feels weird.

16. I’m watching this TVB drama, “Yes Sir, Sorry Sir” and I super HATE the main actor’s uncle and his family. Damn stupid I tell you! Where got such people wan!! Feel like slapping them. Super HATE.

17. I really wanna go holiday somewhere.

18. Ohhh… Kenny proposed to Peks! Congrats you two!

19. I finally permed my hair. This time, dad got it right. Super <3 !!! But I need to at least wear a bit of make up to match my hair. Boo!

20. Went to Hennessy Artistry party at Sunway Opera last weekend.

21. Can’t wait for the dress that I bought from ASOS!!!

22. Actually I’m damn emo, angry, frust, and negative aura all around me now.

23. I told you this is a dunno-what post.

24. Need to wait for at least 2 months before I can get the keys of the house. Nervous weh!

25. I passed 2 insurance exams. Officially can sell insurance plan now. Ahem. Wait for my call ok? Haha.

26. I’m turning 26 this month! Kthxbai!

nah my new hair.

compare to this in 2008... omg KILL ME PLEASE. i don't even know what i was thinking back then.

of enemies and troubles.

I came back from Beijing with mild sore throat and nose blocked for about a week. Not exactly the best feeling, especially when I couldn’t really taste what I ate. But not as bad as Shorty though.. she had a terribly flu and her taste bud went absolute bonkers. Actually the weather lately is super crazy. One minute it was mad hot and stuffy, another minute it gets all gloomy and rain heavily. Almost half of my colleagues are sick. Not sure if it’s because of the Beijing trip or KL weather is just nuts.


Okay. I’m gonna stop talking about the boring weather.

I was gonna rant about a lot of things that happened lately. But I’m too tired to even care anymore. It’s just major waste of time. I know some of you are waiting for my classic “jahdou” and ranty posts (hikhik) but since I told you guys d, no need lah… wait til the time bomb explode again then I’ll write a long one. heh.

Okay.. I changed my mind.

You see.. this year, there are so many shitty things happened to me (luckily not major ones lah). Work wise, it was considered good if not great, BUT… (see? There’s always a BUT) .. there’s ALWAYS a bitch who just like to ruin your good life. Pfft. First, there’s a colleague who like to make my life miserable by making things difficult. But me being me, I use all my energy to accommodate him and try to understand the reason behind his attitude/character and of course, for me, work is just work. So I don’t take it personal and most of the time, I just don’t care if he is going to be annoyed or angry, as long as I get my work done and I don’t mind being scolded at, because again, it’s just work. So after a while, I learned that he was not a bad person after all. Just that a lot of people cannot stand the way he does things and found him unbearable and hard to get along. After half a year working together, we’re kinda good friends/colleagues. Until today, a lot of them still don’t understand how I can get along and work with him. I’ll always remember how mom always says, “if someone treated you badly, you don’t have to treat them bad too. In contrast, you have to treat them better than you already did. One day, they will understand.” And yes, I believe in karma too.

But that was not only it… one enemy down and a new enemy turn up! Wtf.. nonstop cycle! This one is a major bitch if you ask me. I have never met or known any colleagues like this in my 7 years of working experience! Omg.. I don’t even know where and how to start describing her… she is super spoilt as a daughter, girlfriend AND colleague. Seriously.. if she work somewhere else, I think she can’t even stand a day. She is also super whiny and likes to complain every single thing to my boss. Long story. But to cut it, my boss is also another lembik one. I’m not even sure if I want to respect him after what he portrayed himself to be. But I guess I respect him as just my boss, nothing more than that. Cos he seems to be biased and I super hate favoritism between bosses and staffs. I mean.. I’m aware that favoritism is normal, but not to that extend lah… another thing is.. I super hate it when we (all the other colleagues) talk to him, he never really pay attention and ALWAYS have his eyes laying on her direction. Grrr!!! Wtf! my things are not urgent meh! He ALWAYS go to her direction when I’m halfway talking to him!! Damn cibai one I tell you…

If I were to go on and talk about her, I think 3 days 3 nights also not enough. Pfft. I’m damn pissed.

Not only colleagues that are giving me problems… friends-turned-enemy also giving me so much trouble. Luckily I have nothing to hide and things just died after ignoring it. Seriously. Ignorance is bliss. No point arguing with bimbo who act godly and strong when inside, she’s just another vulnerable psycho.

Oh.. and BFFs who are damn stubborn. I wonder if they’re worth my precious time… (no lah.. I still love my BFFs. I’m just annoyed at them for being so clueless sometimes).

And Smelly… he is number one in irritating me. grrr!!!! I cannot be mad at him no matter how hard I tried cos he got a joker face that will make me laugh whenever I look at him when I’m angry. Wtf. he STILL calls me fat and it’s mad annoying lor!!!! sidenote: kena nag for spending so much and owing still a lot. Pfft. But he just bought GT5 for like 300bucks and he have not gotten a console yet! Wtf. who is spendthrift now eh?

10 Most Hated Question/Statement.

In no particular order…

1. Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?

 – during interviews. I almost always have problems answering this. I just hate this question so much.

2. When are you getting married?

 – why the fuck you wanna know? If nobody wanna marry me, are you going to 扬  me for the rest of my life?

3. You look chubbier/fatter/bigger.

– I know. You don’t have to remind me… and what do you get in return by saying that? You’re not thin oso. Pffft. *in denial*

4. Tell me about yourself

– during interviews again. Gee.. you dunno how to read resume ah? Ask me something else lah.

5. You don’t look like you know how to cook

– speechless. DO YOU KNOW that I start cooking for the whole family since 12? Pfft.(I’m not saying that I’m a pro but I DO KNOW how to cook. Period)

6. You like lah / Anything lah…

- whenever I ask “what you wanna eat”. Cos when I suggest, you say “eee..don’t want lah” for all the suggestions! Wtf! Then why you say “you like lah/ anything lah” for???

7. Why you don’t want to get married?

– again, this is a stupid question. You wanna pay for my wedding ah?

8. I’m SO fat

– when you look like a chopstick and wind can blow you away ANYTIME, you say you are fat!!!  Wtf!! Then I’m so obese I’ll die if I eat one more bite of food.

9. You where got chubby?!?!? (trying to comfort me. Wtf.)

– when CLEARLY my face is bloatedly round, tummy is bulging out, arms looked like a turkey thigh and thigh looked like a pig’s leg! (and i am serious about this.)

10. It’s time to get married

– WHO ARE YOU to tell me that??? (parents are exceptional in this case). And WHY ARE YOU NOT married yet? Pfft.

The last one was the most hated question ever!!!! Okay..  anything related to the word MARRIAGE is really annoying and hated okay!!! Seriously! Who said being together for almost 5 years HAVE to be married? Who said? Who so free got nothing to do go and spread this stupid invisible rule? Who said must get married so early??? Who said I must be married to him??? tiu.

Actually Pointless

Asking a man to be more sensitive is a lot harder than asking him to make a million dollars. I really think that the male species are really slacking in the emotion department. Like they never seem to understand the importance of being emotionally sensitive.

To be honest, the current relationship that I’m in is the longest in my history and I can safely say that it’s definitely the most stable relationship ever. I wrote/talked about it countless times – we never really fought/argue during these 4 years of being together. Simply because both of us seems to have an unspoken agreement that no matter how angry we get, we won’t let it linger overnight. He have this “innocent” baby face that whenever I look at him when I’m angry, I’ll “lose” the battle, and his stupid “pan” cute voice will sent me into bursting laughter if I chose to close my eyes to avoid looking at him. If he’s angry, I’ll “pan” cute and give him my “innocent” face to annoy the hell outta him and he’ll give in. see? How to get angry at each other like that?

So after 4 years of comically annoy and “argue” with each other, I feel that it defeats the purpose of arguing and getting angry. Cos now, he will never know when is the time that I’m honestly really very very very angry because he will think that I’m just joking/playing with him. Fml. Okay, to be fair, maybe he feels the same way too.

Okay, I think I digressed.

The reason that I’m ranting today is that.. er..  ok. I’m kinda not so angry anymore compared to yesterday when a super FML moment happened (see how I easily get diverted?).

The point is.. it’s so difficult to get him to be more sensitive towards me. Sometimes, I really think that I’m too lenient. I mean.. I sensed that he’s taking me for granted cos I’m always so easily pacified. I never demand for impossible things. Even if I did, he’ll reason out with me and result that I get is always way below from what I asked/requested. I think I appeared to be a very lembik person without a clear direction and kinda almost always self-pitying without realizing. He always tells me that I’m too easy-going, that’s why people always step on my head/use me. Not that I mind being “used”… if I’ve got nothing to lose, then why not right? So I guess that’s why he also always bullies me cos he thinks that I won’t realize. But sometimes, I need to be angry too, right? I have to protest once in a while too right? At least respect me a bit lah… RIGHT?

See? I digressed again.

Sigh. Actually, I just wanna rant cos SOMEONE pissed me off last night and my anger didn’t manage to last overnight! Somemore have to heat up the leftover spaghetti porkball for his supper. FML. Someone teach me how to become angry already! I’ll give you lollipop in return!