10 Most Hated Question/Statement.

In no particular order…

1. Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?

 – during interviews. I almost always have problems answering this. I just hate this question so much.

2. When are you getting married?

 – why the fuck you wanna know? If nobody wanna marry me, are you going to 扬  me for the rest of my life?

3. You look chubbier/fatter/bigger.

– I know. You don’t have to remind me… and what do you get in return by saying that? You’re not thin oso. Pffft. *in denial*

4. Tell me about yourself

– during interviews again. Gee.. you dunno how to read resume ah? Ask me something else lah.

5. You don’t look like you know how to cook

– speechless. DO YOU KNOW that I start cooking for the whole family since 12? Pfft.(I’m not saying that I’m a pro but I DO KNOW how to cook. Period)

6. You like lah / Anything lah…

- whenever I ask “what you wanna eat”. Cos when I suggest, you say “eee..don’t want lah” for all the suggestions! Wtf! Then why you say “you like lah/ anything lah” for???

7. Why you don’t want to get married?

– again, this is a stupid question. You wanna pay for my wedding ah?

8. I’m SO fat

– when you look like a chopstick and wind can blow you away ANYTIME, you say you are fat!!!  Wtf!! Then I’m so obese I’ll die if I eat one more bite of food.

9. You where got chubby?!?!? (trying to comfort me. Wtf.)

– when CLEARLY my face is bloatedly round, tummy is bulging out, arms looked like a turkey thigh and thigh looked like a pig’s leg! (and i am serious about this.)

10. It’s time to get married

– WHO ARE YOU to tell me that??? (parents are exceptional in this case). And WHY ARE YOU NOT married yet? Pfft.

The last one was the most hated question ever!!!! Okay..  anything related to the word MARRIAGE is really annoying and hated okay!!! Seriously! Who said being together for almost 5 years HAVE to be married? Who said? Who so free got nothing to do go and spread this stupid invisible rule? Who said must get married so early??? Who said I must be married to him??? tiu.

I Love Weekends!

last weekend, as usual, went to Jap class only to know that we have a test on what we've learnt for the past 3 months. but it was just a test on 6 lessons out of the 12. phew. i think i did good.

anyway, went for movie with Vince. watched Iron Man 2, which i think it's not as good as everyone raved about. meh... i like Ip Man 2 better. come to think about it, i think this was the first time i went movie with Vince after 3 years of knowing him! wow!

had dinner at Manhattan Fish Market. omg the mussels with garlic cream thingy is super super shiokalingam that i can go back there just to eat it!



Sunday was spent on the bed the WHOLE day. i missed Ann's text and call cos the phone was on silent mode the night before (was in a movie remember?) only realised in the evening when i finally drag my ass up to shower. wtf. =(  huhu.. *Ann, this Sunday we go out lah ok?*


seriously.. no more sleeping in the whole day on Sunday anymore!! but then ah... damn ironic lah... if i wake up early morning, nobody teman me go breakfast... nothing to do on Sundays cos Sunday is supposed to be rest day... aiyah.. hmm.








ok. i cheated. this is not Monday Loves cos i was too busy yesterday. but i don't care. bleh.

Birthday Present Come In Pairs!

It’s Friday again. Seriously, time passed so fast!!! We’re already in the second quarter of the year! Where did January - April went? Ugh! And the second week of May is ending! Huhuhu… I felt like I haven’t achieved anything besides completing (again) my Japanese beginner one class. Woo hoo! Beginner two starts next weekend! Tho I’m restudying it, I still can’t wait! Another little “achievement” was to create a new label here, which is “Monday Loves” which features random things that I love/like though I reckoned that most of the entries are about my beloved SiKenit aka my niece. And also a label called “Finally Friday” mostly to recap what happened the past week and just to update anything at all. Again, I have to stress that I don’t blog for other people. I blog for myself. I just wanna keep this space updated so that I’m old and demented , I can read it back to I know what I’m like during my younger days, my friends, my family, my emotions… well, that’s IF I still remember how to use the computer and this blog’s address! Wtf.



Anyway, my beloved Shorty bought TWO early birthday presents two days ago! Woot woot!

Guess what’s inside!! Heheh.. love it so much!! (Thanks sis!!!)

And this too! ♥

I Love Mommy!

It’s Mother’s Day yesterday. This year, I kinda overlooked the dates and didn’t have time to get a present for mom. So I just emailed her a virtual card I designed, with a poem (I found on the net cos writer block that day. Eh.. it’s the thought that counts ok..)

So I thought since no present, why not arrange webcam date with mom right? So I asked gramma over to my aunt’s house with Shorty and Eva. BUT… my aunt’s house internet was down for a week! And Celcom’s reception is damn poor in that area so we couldn’t connect to Skype. =(

So we went to a café nearby for lunch so that we can use the wifi there. But the signal is so bad that we can’t connect Skype! Wtf! So many obstacles! (and I found out today that it’s my mon’s connection, not ours!). Anyway, since I’m the only non mother, I treated gramma, my aunt and her mother in law, and Shorty lunch! Hehe.. I’m sure mom is very happy to know that we celebrated with gramma on behalf of her.. ♥

so hard to get her to pose with gramma!!

i seriously need a camera!!!!!

do we look alike? heh...

Blazer Hunting Begins NOW!

ok.. so i've been looking for a blazer since i started working in a new office. i need it for my formal events.. you know.. cos i need to look presentable?

and i'm looking for something less formal... not like the old school blazer that you can find in G2000..

after hunting it online.. there are a few that i like and i guess i know what style i want!!! btw, i went to Topshop 2 months ago and saw one, but didn't get it cos it was like RM350 and i cannot justify the worthiness. -_- in other words, i'm stingy and cheapo. i rather spend on shoes and bags rather than clothes. but lately i think i need to start investing on nicer clothes cos i'm like 25 already. cannot wear jeans and baby-t all the time already! i need a whole new wardrobe man..

back to the blazers... i found some really nice-looking ones.. 

it really changed the whole look with a blazer. so simple. so smart. not too formal. i totally love this look!! it's so so so simple that i think anyone can pull it off! *mental note: diet starts NOW. so that i can get that skinny legs!!!*

this one too.. love the contrast lining on the sleeves. ah.. another similar look! so simple that you can pair it with a skinny pants and loose shirt inside and turn it into a smart casual outfit! *need to get a similar shoe!!!!!*

i like the cutting. but i'll stick to black. i guess by now, you can notice what i like about blazers huh? another similar cutting.

no need to explain anymore. hahah!

in conclusion, i'm loving how you can just roll the sleeves up or just get one with a contrast inner lining to create that look! ♥

gonna go hunt for it this weekend! can't wait!!!

I Love CW - Eva Goes Swimming!

Spent my Sunday with Shorty and Eva. So on the way to lunch, we CW!!! look at her multi expression! memang potential successor!

"eheheheheheh!!!"

"duwan duwan duwan"

smile!!! *her favourite smile*

eva.... look here!!! "duwan duwan duwan"

ok.. one more time!!! "ahahaha!!!" *posing*

smile!!! *default smile again*

smile!! last last (eh.. yi yi ni tak habis habis..) *pout* 

ok last last.. "eheheheeee"

 ok one more one more

ok lah! last lah! *pout*

"let's go swimming!"

"duwan duwan duwan"

eva.. look at the camera... "duwan duwan duwan"

jom! swim! "duwan duwan duwan"

-_- she kept on saying "duwan duwan duwan"  cos she's afraid of the water... so she just sit on the steps, and not move. lol.. so cute.. when we want to leave, she doesn't want to get out of the pool! haha.. why my niece so cute... ♥

Don't Judge Me.

I had a wonderful but sad dream last night. It seems so real. Everything seems perfect.

It was in impromptu trip. I remember clearly in that after I touched down on New York airport, the first thing I did was to text my boss and say “I had an emergency. I’ll be in New York for a few days.” The exact words I typed out. I was panic cos it was a working day and I didn’t remember applying leave. Wtf.

I dreamed that I hopped on the plane, without planning, with dad. We went there to surprise mom. When they met, they hugged. They kissed. Just like teenagers in love. So sweet. So loving.

I remember calling his mom, telling her that I’m in town for a visit and I’ll drop by soon.

I remember trying to call him. But somehow, things were blurry every time I tried calling. So I text him.  “I’m in New York. =)”

Then, the alarm went off. (why does this always have to happen?)

Everything seems so real that it doesn’t feel like a dream at all. It doesn’t occur to me that it was just a dream. Until I woke up. Until reality hits me.

What I dreamed was just the opposite of my reality.

There’s no impromptu trip, especially to New York. I can never afford to have one. Not yet.

There’s no loving mom and dad. They were history. But I’d like to see them happy again. Regardless of who they spend the rest of their lives with. Who knows, maybe miracle will happen?

I felt like a traitor after I woke up.

Tockie was right. It’s about time.

I Love Phone Calls!

was busy the whole day yesterday. totally forgot about Monday Loves..

my Monday is complete with a phone call from my love..



dy : hello?? hello??

♥ : eyo?

dad on the other side : call yi yi....

♥ : yiiiiiii yiiiiiiii!

dy : hi!!!! i love you......

♥ : i wurve you...

dy : Choi Yi guai guai ah... ok? bye!!!!!

♥ : k... bai!!

she's more verbal on the phone now. ♥ ♥ ♥

                      old photo of SiKenit. her trademark. ♥ ♥ ♥

Summary of 2009

I’m turning 25 in exactly a month’s time. *shrug*

Let’s see how last year went…

Switched 3 jobs in last year alone. The current one is the 4^th. So you know you unlucky I was last year. I quitted my comfortable 9-5 PA job with the most awesome boss, to work in a training centre that promised me an event coordinator role but ended up doing telemarketing 95% of the time. Fml. Considered I got conned right? I think I worked for 2 weeks only. And I quitted without getting any pay. Long story lah. Then I goyang kaki for a month cos I planned for a trip to Bangkok so I don’t think it’s appropriate to start work for 2 weeks and then take leave (though actually my awesome boss asked me to go back and work for him but I don’t want to disappoint him so I rejected his offer). Then, I worked in an event company. The whole company only has 3 ppl working including me. That’s also including the boss. After 2 months of working there, I quit. Another long story. To cut it short, I beh tahan the boss.

Then I joined another company as a PR coordinator. Just when I thought I finally found a good company to work in, a pretty good boss in person, a position that I eagerly want to venture in and not forget to mention the attractive salary package, everything went wrong. Nobody liked me in the office ever since the first day I joined, padahal I already try to be nice and keep quiet the whole time. Just because I know the boss because she’s my dad’s friend. Cibai.. I went through interview with the HR before the big boss interview me lor! And then, I got backstabbed by a bitch. Then, found out that the boss is actually so narrow-minded and refusive (is there such word? Why is it underlined red?) towards unconventional AND honest opinions. Why the fuck you set up a new division to focus on PR and A&P for your company when you’re not ready to listen to honest opinions and thought that I’m trying to talk bad about your product? Pfft! So much of a good person. Definitely not a good boss! wtf! AND not to forget the salary that I got is not what we’ve discussed earlier!!! Super wtf and fml that time lor! After a good talk with the boss, I resigned on the spot without any back up plans for myself. At that point, I felt hopeless. Insecured. Scared. Everything seemed to fall apart. I wasn’t prepared to leave the job despite the stupid salary and the boss and the terrible office politics because I’ve never leave a job without having a backup beforehand! Seriously, that was really demotivating and scary.

But I know I cannot stay in that company for a second longer so I hand in the resignation letter and went home feeling mixed up. Happy because I don’t have to be in that kind of working environment anymore. Sad because I realized that being honest can land you in big trouble. But then I know God is not so evil, because when He closes a door, He will open another one for you. Corny, but true. The minute I printed out the resignation letter, I got a call from a contact asking if I can work part time for a few days. That’s when I realized that He won’t let me die. I didn’t take the job in the end even though I needed the money because I had to work in a pub. No, not that kinda job that you’re thinking. It’s just promoting liquor. The reason why I didn’t take up the job is that I used to work part time selling liquors in clubs and cafe before I quit the PA job and I got tired of working at night and dealing with all sorts of people. It’s tiring to put up a phony face all night. The money was good. Almost double of what I got when I was working as PA. Working hours was only 4 hours a day and I only had to work for 4 days a week. It was actually a job that helped me went through my jobless month after I quit the training centre. But I know I don’t want to end up working permanently as a liquor girl just because it pays well. So I stopped after working for 3 months.

Then, I got to know about my current job from a friend. I attended his birthday party and he introduced my current boss to me and the next thing I know, I went for interview with my direct boss after a week and got the job. I think it was fate, because initially, I was thinking of not attending my friend’s party because I was not working, I got no money, no confidence and I just don’t feel like mingling and tell people that “I’m currently taking a break” when they ask me what I’m doing. Pfft. Damn sad okay every time kena ask and had to lie... But I went last minute cos somehow, I felt that maybe it’ll help me build up my confidence by socializing a bit. =)

So, last year has been the most terrible year so far. But I’m still alive and kicking.

This year though.. things are considered quite smooth-sailing. Minus the family drama. I’m blessed to have a job that I quite like. The Smelly boyfriend is although still annoyingly kayu, things with him are also considered okay. I don’t wanna say that we’re not progressing; I guess we’re being comfortable this way, although I've always silently hoped that I'll be surprised one day. Pfft.

Quarter of my life has passed insignificantly. I hope the rest of my life will be fulfilling albeit unimportant to anyone but me.

Wake Up

There are just so many things happening lately. One after another. Seriously. When will it stop? We’re all very tired of all these nonsense and to be honest, I’m starting to feel numb. Call me selfish. But I really don’t feel like caring anymore. It’s really tiring.

Everyone hopes for the best of themselves. But how much effort you put in to make your dreams come true and how much determination to make it happen is all depend on yourself. You can dream big. But do you have the quality to live in a big dream? The most rational answer is no. At least for now, not yet.

Many successful people went through a lot of hardship before they became successful. And in our dictionary of successful, it doesn’t mean you have to be rich or famous. Being able to take care of yourself and not letting your family members worry about you is actually the first step of being successful in your family’s heart. We’re not from a wealthy background and since young, our parents taught us to be grounded. But you don’t seem to understand the equation. There are really no short cuts in life. The only short cut is the way to more troubles and miseries. After all the things that happened, you should already know by now, right?

We only hoped that you will become a more grounded person. Think logically. Do things within your ability. When will you wake up? This is not only your nightmare. It’s ours also.

Sigh.

When you're younger...

Yesterday, Smelly's mom was cleaning up and she took out some old photo albums. so i 8 and tell her i never seen any of Smelly's baby photos. then she took out all of the albums and showed me! heh.. When Smelly was a baby, he's so big, plump, cute and fluffy! 

I think this is him when he's a few months old. so big!! and so many hair! her mom told me that he weighed more than 8pounds when he's born!

i think this is 1 or 2 years old. so cute!! <3

oh.. he's gonna kill me if i post it up in facebook. so just to be safe, i post it here...

hehehe.. cute baby.

now.. lo and behold...

a baby girl!!!

WAKAKAKAKAK!!! his sister dress him up in her clothes and he agrred.. wtf!! hahahaha.. damn cute lo.. his baby face is very different fom now. no resemblance at all! like a totally different person!

i think this is about 6-7 years old. lose his front tooth. =p

can you spot him? oh!!! his bestfriend is in there too!!! heheh... Uncle fatty, can you spot yourself???

and then... teenage era has begun!!! i'm sure you'll laugh til you cry..

wtf!! Aaron Kwok/Beyond hair!!! ok lah.. quite acceptable lah...

and then.. when he grows older.......

i'm speechless when i saw this cos i was laughing non stop!!!!!

wtf weh...HAHAHAHAHHA!

i asked him : "WHY YOU KEEP YOUR HAIR SO LONG!!!!!!??? wtf wtf wtf!!!"

Smelly : "ceh.. you dunno only.. it's 'yeng' okay! Michael Jackson hairstyle you know!!!"

-_-

there's many other unglam photos of him.. but i'll save it for another day.. :P

ok. just in case you guys forgot, this is how he looks like now..

muah!! okay.. besides his baby photos... of course i like this the most!!

I Love My Poser Niece!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 !!!!

You Know You’re Addicted To Internet When…

Smelly asked me “do you think we still can receive the wifi in our toilet?”

wtf!!! hahahaha!!!!

he said he very “gap si”.. then after like 5 or 10 minutes…

guess what’s on his hands when he came out of the toilet????? guessssss guesssssss!!!!!!!

I Love Shorty!

 aww... you're my sis!!

Actually Pointless

Asking a man to be more sensitive is a lot harder than asking him to make a million dollars. I really think that the male species are really slacking in the emotion department. Like they never seem to understand the importance of being emotionally sensitive.

To be honest, the current relationship that I’m in is the longest in my history and I can safely say that it’s definitely the most stable relationship ever. I wrote/talked about it countless times – we never really fought/argue during these 4 years of being together. Simply because both of us seems to have an unspoken agreement that no matter how angry we get, we won’t let it linger overnight. He have this “innocent” baby face that whenever I look at him when I’m angry, I’ll “lose” the battle, and his stupid “pan” cute voice will sent me into bursting laughter if I chose to close my eyes to avoid looking at him. If he’s angry, I’ll “pan” cute and give him my “innocent” face to annoy the hell outta him and he’ll give in. see? How to get angry at each other like that?

So after 4 years of comically annoy and “argue” with each other, I feel that it defeats the purpose of arguing and getting angry. Cos now, he will never know when is the time that I’m honestly really very very very angry because he will think that I’m just joking/playing with him. Fml. Okay, to be fair, maybe he feels the same way too.

Okay, I think I digressed.

The reason that I’m ranting today is that.. er..  ok. I’m kinda not so angry anymore compared to yesterday when a super FML moment happened (see how I easily get diverted?).

The point is.. it’s so difficult to get him to be more sensitive towards me. Sometimes, I really think that I’m too lenient. I mean.. I sensed that he’s taking me for granted cos I’m always so easily pacified. I never demand for impossible things. Even if I did, he’ll reason out with me and result that I get is always way below from what I asked/requested. I think I appeared to be a very lembik person without a clear direction and kinda almost always self-pitying without realizing. He always tells me that I’m too easy-going, that’s why people always step on my head/use me. Not that I mind being “used”… if I’ve got nothing to lose, then why not right? So I guess that’s why he also always bullies me cos he thinks that I won’t realize. But sometimes, I need to be angry too, right? I have to protest once in a while too right? At least respect me a bit lah… RIGHT?

See? I digressed again.

Sigh. Actually, I just wanna rant cos SOMEONE pissed me off last night and my anger didn’t manage to last overnight! Somemore have to heat up the leftover spaghetti porkball for his supper. FML. Someone teach me how to become angry already! I’ll give you lollipop in return!