30DPC : Day 12

30DPC Day 12 - "A photo of me"

July 2011. One of my fav recent photo ♥ . Courtesy of DC.



I Love CW-ing : Poser Potraits

Let's start the Monday with some shameless CW potraits taken last weekend!

My PEN battery died just before we started CW-ing. Photos taken with Kenny's Canon 60D. awesome lens. too awesome that my face looked like Malaysian roads. fml. thank god for photoshop. haha.

I Love CW - Girls Edition!

we went to Janda Baik, Bentong to celebrate 7Suk, Kenny and Deric's birthdays.

the place is okay (not as nice as we imagined), weather was perfect as it's up the hill so it's kinda chilly. yet, IMHO, the place is totally not recommended. food sucks maximum, very little variety AND small portion for the price we paid. totally not worth it.

anyway, here's some of the CW photos with the girls...

Chilling at the pondok upon arrival

changed and the CW starts!

playing with LomoLomo 

ready....

jump!!

splash!!

super regret. SO COLD!!!!!!!!!

what else? hehe..



Blazer Hunting Begins NOW!

ok.. so i've been looking for a blazer since i started working in a new office. i need it for my formal events.. you know.. cos i need to look presentable?

and i'm looking for something less formal... not like the old school blazer that you can find in G2000..

after hunting it online.. there are a few that i like and i guess i know what style i want!!! btw, i went to Topshop 2 months ago and saw one, but didn't get it cos it was like RM350 and i cannot justify the worthiness. -_- in other words, i'm stingy and cheapo. i rather spend on shoes and bags rather than clothes. but lately i think i need to start investing on nicer clothes cos i'm like 25 already. cannot wear jeans and baby-t all the time already! i need a whole new wardrobe man..

back to the blazers... i found some really nice-looking ones.. 

it really changed the whole look with a blazer. so simple. so smart. not too formal. i totally love this look!! it's so so so simple that i think anyone can pull it off! *mental note: diet starts NOW. so that i can get that skinny legs!!!*

this one too.. love the contrast lining on the sleeves. ah.. another similar look! so simple that you can pair it with a skinny pants and loose shirt inside and turn it into a smart casual outfit! *need to get a similar shoe!!!!!*

i like the cutting. but i'll stick to black. i guess by now, you can notice what i like about blazers huh? another similar cutting.

no need to explain anymore. hahah!

in conclusion, i'm loving how you can just roll the sleeves up or just get one with a contrast inner lining to create that look! ♥

gonna go hunt for it this weekend! can't wait!!!

Once Upon A Time... Well.. Not Long Ago.....

i was cleaning up my photos folder and i found a photo of me taken last year in December.

ok fine.

this will be the motivation to go gym.

was it the angle or was i THAT thin? i don't remember being THAT thin!!!

PerspireX

For those of you who know me long enough, definitely you’re aware that I have sweaty palms. I don’t know how normal it is to have sweaty palms but for my case, it’s definitely excessive perspiration, something that I can’t control cos I had sweaty palms for as long as I can remember (and I think it’s genetic cos my mom have the same problem but not as serious as mine). I remember during school days, my books are normally soaked with the sweat while I write and I normally had to use tissue or handkerchief as a base on top of the book to absorb the sweat so that it won’t get wet. Most of the time, when I was on the phone for too long, I’ll see sweat dripping from my hand. Really DRIP one.. No kidding! It’s quite serious if you ask me. Usually, my hands will sweat when I’m nervous, excited, worried, or whatever that can trigger my heartbeat faster. Very inconvenient sometimes. Especially when I hand to shake someone’s hand. It’s embarrassing la…

Another thing that most people don’t know is I have sweaty feet as well. Though not most of the time, but it’ll sweat if I’m very nervous or hot. This one is definitely VERY embarrassing, especially when I had to take off my shoes cos sweaty feet causes bad odor. I remember there’s one time, I had to take off my shoes when I went for an interview (their office everyone take off shoes one…) and I had to immediately ask where’s the toilet so that I can wash my smelly feet. (Wtf, why am I telling this? -_-) Ming always teases me whenever I got back from work or if I went out wearing covered shoes and he’ll shoo me out of the room cos my feet is very smelly. And sometimes, my feet sweat even when I’m wearing flip-flops! Wtf. Damn tragic lor.

I cannot apply lotion on my hands even if it’s very dry cos after few minutes of applying lotion, it’ll start sweating. And worse and weird part is, after I apply lotion on my hands and start sweating, my feet automatically sweat also! Wtf.. I cannot comprehend why it’s like that. Is there even a scientific reason to that?

Apart from sweaty palms and hands, underarms are the most common part of the body to sweat. Though I sweat excessively on hands and feet, I was lucky that my underarm doesn’t sweat as much. But there are times that it sweats for no reasons, just like my hands! I sweat even in cold indoor without sunlight places, and even when I’m wearing sleeveless! It’s very annoying lor… especially when I’m wearing something light like gray or blue. That’s why ever since secondary school, I try to avoid buying those colors though I really like to wear them. So my wardrobe contains mostly black, other really dark colors and red. White is another choice that I can wear cos cannot see much sweat stain but white makes me look fat so I try to avoid that color also. Wtf… double tragic cos I used to like colorful things but my sweat problems stopped me from being colorful and happy. T_T

Ming was telling me to exercise more to regulate the sweat cos he says maybe because I don’t exercise, so no sweat so the pore clogged and sweat during unnecessary times. (Again, any scientific reasons supporting his theory? Cos I think he’s just making it up to make me exercise!) and he asked me to eat Zinc cos apparently it helps a bit especially to cure smelly feet. Ugh.. I told him I wanna go do operation one day to stop all the sweat. Wtf.. I rather not sweat my entire life than to sweat excessively. =(  whoever having  the same problem as mine will know what I’m going trough.

But…

I went window shopping yesterday at Guardian just to see what else I need at home and something caught my attention. It’s called PerspireX apparently it helps to stop excessive perspiration and unpleasant odor.

 

They have two types of anti-perspirant, PerspireX Roll-on, which is for underarm, and PerspireX Lotion, for hand and feet (can be used at other areas please refer to their website). I was skeptical cos I never heard of the brand before and I never really know that there are products that can help to cure sweat problems (if not cure, I think it can make it better). so I I thought I can give it a try since I’ve been thinking about the problem for so long… I bought the PerspireX Lotion, just to try if it really works. If it does, I’ll get the roll-on as well. It’s not cheap lor… RM55.90 for a bottle (same price for the roll-on as well). I forgot to see how many ml it contains but it says it can last for 2-3 months. Use is every day for 3 days, then 2-3 times a week after that. Last night was the first night I tried it. It is alcohol based and apparently contains no water (please visit their website for more info) so the smell is like alcohol but very mild. It’s not lotion like the normal lotion like we use, it’s like… alcohol. Not like the one we drink la.. It’s watery and evaporates almost instantly after application. Today is the first day after trying it yesterday. But my hands still sweat but only after I apply lotion cos it’s very dry. My feet on the other hand… also still sweat but not as heavy as usual, also because I applied lotion on my hands that’s why it triggers it. I hope this really works. Ming seems to be interested in the roll-on as well. He doesn’t really have sweat problems or should I say, sweat stain problem, but I think he don’t like the sweaty feeling. Hmm… I wonder if he has to shave his armpit hair to use the product… if not, the hair will absorb the lotion, not the skin lor.. right, right? Hahahaha!!! (imagining bald-armpit Ming) hahahahahhahahaha!

S.A.F.S (Save A Fat Soul) wtf.

I’m worried.

I looked fat lately. Really fat. I feel fat. But strange thing is… I didn’t put on any weight and all my clothes still fits me like it used to.

How come leh?

Maybe because I feel ugly so I naturally feel fat too.

Damn.

I think it’s either because of my hair, or I’m already used to seeing myself in make-up.

And lately.. I think my nose is too big.. HUGE.

*Gasp! Horror!*

Am I becoming vainer?

Please.tell.me.i’m.not.

Thank you very much.

p/s- seriously.. I think my nose is very big.


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I don’t know about this anymore.

Hmm.

It’s a mixed feeling of irony, indecisiveness, heavy heart and curiosity.

Part of me wants it so badly. But another part of me doesn’t because I’ve fallen into the comfort zone. Not that I cannot adapt to changes. But then… I’m more than happy to live in comfort than to live in surprises. Seriously. But I don’t mind surprises since it’ll bring excitement.

I seriously need a professional advice.

Anyone care to help a lost fat soul?

should i cut my hair?

OMG!!! bad-brows day!

or keep it long???

i don't know... i looked back all my short-haired photos.. i looked slimmer in it. really!! see??

so.. should i cut my hair short again???

huh? huh? huh? should i???????

why? kenapa? 为什么? どうして?

why sad news and good news always come together...?

:(

grrr...

ok.. lemme tell the sad news first.

sad news= dy have to put down weight to FORTY NINE/49/EMPAT PULUH SEMBILAN/四十九/よんじゅうきゅう KG by SEPTEMBER!!!

THAT is almost 10 kgs!!!

how how how?

how to put 10 kgs away within 3 months?

i'm so sad now.

because the good news relates to the sad news, i have to be determine this time.

good news= an all-expense-paid trip to Hong Kong with the condition above.

ALL EXPENSE PAID wor!

which includes air tix, stay and SHOP!

SHOP! can you believe it?

SHOP!!

well... i kinda doubt that i can do it lah... it's 10/TEN/SEPULUH/十/ じゅう KGs weh!

i asked, "if i can only managed to go 50~53 kgs only, how?"

"oh... then we go Bangkok only lah..."

=.=




i don't want Bangkok! i want Hong Kong!

:(


i shall starve to thin from now. or starve to death so that i can travel around the world by teleporting.. (all ghost/angels/devils travel by teleporting right?)

shed off 10 kgs for Hong Kong... worth or not?

tell me lah... worth it or not?

TruDtox Vs Clenx

it's been a few weeks i drink detox tea.

first, it was TruDtox. i only tried it for 5 days. cos it's kinda expensive.. RM 28 or 29 something for a packet of 5 sachets. it tastes just like normal green tea.. just a bit stronger. well, previously, i did wrote about the tea, stating that it didn't make me go toilet as often as i thought it would be.

well, because i already have a habit of going to toilet every morning after breakfast, i didn't really feel the difference. but thinking back, it DID made some difference.

i still go to toilet in the morning, but i realised that after i drank it in the evening, my stomach gets very uncomfortable in the MIDDLE of the night. usually it'll be around 3 or 4 a.m. for 3 days in a row, i woke up feeling very painful. like you HAVE to go toilet and let it out. but when i went, nothing happened. only that i farted few times. =P but then i realised that the shit is very watery compared to the normal ones. and it's very smelly. in that 5 days of drinking it, 4 days in a row besides going in the morning, visiting toilet after dinner is a must too. and all that came out of me is water. yes... i didn't shit out shit. i shit out water and fart. day 3 or 4 of drinking this, the fart and shit got less smell. almost no smell. i think it should be working la.. cos when Dad did his detox last year, he told me that the first few time he go toilet, it's damn smelly cos of the toxic. after few days it's become normal or less smell. oh, and he told me the shit is supposed to be black... (why mine is not black one? does it means that i don't have toxic?)

ok, that's about the toilet part.. about body, i do feel less bloated in the stomach. feels flatter than usual. (maybe it's due to after menstrual) but then it works a little bit if not a lot.

after finishing TruDtox, i tried Clenx Tea . another type of detox tea from NH Detoxlim. it's definitely cheaper than TruDtox. RM 28.80 for a packet of 20 sachets of teabags.

after finishing TruDtox, i waited 2 days after only i started drinking Clenx. the taste of this tea is not as nice as TruDtox. is has more herbs smell and taste.. don't really like it cos it tastes weird. but then still acceptable lah..

this tea made my stomach uncomfortable like TruDtox too. but not at night... normally right after i gulped my first glass of water in the morning. which is quite rare for me la.. cos normally, have to eat first before going to shit.

this tea make me go toilet at least twice a day. morning and after lunch or dinner. the shit is better than TruDtox ones la.. at least i know something came out instead of and fart. and not only it flush out the shit, it also regulate the pee.

a bit troublesome lah i think.. cos have to walk to toilet so many times in a day.. but then it's a good thin la... shows that my kidney is functioning. the shit... also very smelly..

stomach still the same.. but then after the tea, i feel that i'm not bloated easily anymore. =)

i think both of the tea is the same for me. maybe i should try TruDtox one more time for 2 weeks.. see got any obvious difference with Clenx or not since i drank Clenx more.

i think everyone should try detoxing once in a while.. well, at least now i don't have to sit (or in my case, squat) in the toilet for hours trying to flush things out.

Detox.

finally...

one week after drinking TruDtox..

i still haven't see any difference yet.

well, except for the first day i drank it, i went to toilet IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT! damn tiring ok! i slept around 1am that night and i woke up around 3am cos my stomach ached like there's a twister in it.. but to my disappointment, NOTHING came out. nothing but pain.. gah!!! but luckily it's just for a while.

i think detox tea doesn't work for me cos everytime i try drinking detox tea, nothing out of ordinary will happen. nothing like what other people claimed- going to toilet many times and A LOT OF THINGS came out kinda routine. for me.. it's still normal. going to toilet every morning is normal for me.. even after i drink detox tea, i still go every morning.. nothing also...

i think detox tea is either not suitable for me or i have no toxic!! gah!!


btw, i just bought ClenX tea.. another brand of detox tea... will try it tomorrow and see what happens..

TruDtox?

i'm sure many of you heard of TruDtox tea... which obviously, is a detox tea for those who's very toxic.

gah!

after reading the newpaper about detox few weeks back, i finally bought this TruDtox tea to flush out all the toxic and shit that sticks on the wall of my intestines.

boyfriend always complain that i have an ugly huge bulging tummy and i'm tired of telling him that i'm easily bloated so i thought of detoxing. it's not cheap ok... rm29++ for only FIVE sachets of teabags! so so SO expensive!

i just started drinking it today, in fact, i'm drinking it now while i'm writing this... so far nothing happened yet. (i read that this tea will make my tummy slimmer!)

hopefully will see results after one week.

if not, then i think it's really the water retention. or maybe it's really the fats.. tsk tsk..

the transformation.

i'm bored.

i got nothing to do.

staying at home.

it's boring.

i wanna walk.

in the rain.

i feel like swimming.

stopped for two weeks.

i wanna shop.

get something for ming.

also get something for mother's day.

get a shoe.

that's for myself.



this is how i look like now..

the haircut.

i felt like i'm the saddest person alive lately..

too many things happened at once.. haih....

sometimes, i felt that i'm not being fair to him...

sometimes, it's hard to explain what's in my mind..

sometimes, i just wonder if all this happens for a reason..

sometimes, i'm afraid that i'll bore him to death..

oh.. btw, i planned to have my hair cut.. but ming doesn't agree with me... he said i won't look nice with short hair.. =(

but i wanna have it cut like this.......see? she looked sad too... like me.. maybe because her boyfriend doesn't like her haircut.

sometimes, i just feel like running away to a place where nobody knows me.

sometimes, i feel like a useless person..

sometimes, i wished to be heard.

sometimes, i wonder when it's gonna end..