Fuck Off.

Seriously, I do think that some people are really psycho when it comes certain things. Not that I cannot take sarcasm, but just don’t fucking two-face me when you prefer not to like me. Just don’t pretend as if nothing happened and act cool about it when the fact is you really mind it. How hard is it to tell me to my face that you hate me and want me out of your life? I have no problems shutting you out of mine because for one, you definitely don’t have a significant status in my life at all. I just cannot accept the fact that you said you have nothing against me but behind my back, you say things differently. What’s your problem? Can’t you just tell it to my face? You don’t have to waste your time and effort to do/say so many things behind me indirectly when all you have to do is just come right up to me and tell it straight to me.




Fucking two face.



I do not owe you anything and I’m definitely NOT trying to be nice to you. Or anyone close to you for that matter. And for the record, I am NOT felling any guilt because I have done NOTHING wrong. It’s all your own assumptions and I am not responsible for it. The reason why I am so pissed is that you are a fucking two-face.



Try all you want. I am not going to defend myself or anyone. Definitely not going to retaliate because I know by doing that, you will get the satisfaction, which I am definitely NOT going to let you get. Period.

For The Parents of My God-Daughter!

another mou liu video!

My First!

first video log (taken yesterday)!! it's my second video, not posting up the first one cos it's stupid. lol.. the reason why i'm doing this is because the internet connection in Heritage Hotel, Ipoh is REALLY REALLY bad. i had to go to the door to get the connection!!! like this!!

see? erghh..

i'm back in KL now. checked out and came straight to office to do some work and a meeting at 3.30pm later.


okay.. this video is actually quite pointless. gah.. go away!

i believe that practice makes perfect! more to come!! bleh..

I Hereby Declare...

Month of June & July a problematic month!
Like seriously… what did I do to deserve such treatment?
Isn’t there enough of troubles/problems coming my way?
At the rate of this, I think I’ll go crazy before everyone else.
Seriously! What did I do?
I’m not the one who causes your miseries.
It’s you yourself who makes things worse. Being emotional is not the way to make me feel guilty or anything okay. It’ll only pushes me further away. I’m an emotional bitch also. Just don’t test my patience lah. Being nice to you doesn’t mean that I have to do things your way all the time. I have to stand for my own rights too. Being nice to you doesn’t mean that you can treat me like a dog.
Have you wondered why people are nice to you?
Have you wondered why I’m being nice?
I’m not being hypocrite. I’ve told you many times that I’m all about the heart. I’ve hinted you so many times that you have to change some part of yourself to make things easier for everyone. You scratch my back, I scratch yours.
Yes, I’m a wuss when it comes to certain things. Yes, I only know how to complain and not take action. Because I’m a WUSS! But seriously… I just want a healthy peaceful environment. I don’t want stupid unnecessary things mess up my emotional wellbeing, especially when it doesn’t worth my time.
But no, you’re a selfish person.
You’re all about talking “positive” and making yourself seems forgiving and all that. But in fact, you are the most selfish and emotional person ever!
Yes, sometimes, shit happens. When it happens, we try not to repeat the mistakes. And we try to improvise certain things when there’s a need. But no, you don’t accept changes; you don’t accept honest opinions, cos when we’re honest, you make us sound stupid. Sigh.
I opened my heart to be your friend. I defended you in a lot of situation when others are negative towards you. I turned certain things positively and make it sounds good.
Did you know that?
Nope.
And you do this to me.
I think I deserve more than this.

I Love Movie Night! - Inception

went to watch Inception with SuperFriends last night. it was an okay movie, I still think that it's a lil overrated tho. maybe because i guessed the ending right. meh. but still, it's a mindfuck movie. with a lot of possibilites of who was real, who was just a projection of mind, who was actually dreaming, etc. the more you think, the more confused you'll get. another mind fuck movie. i like it, but not as much as i like Shutter Island tho..

Should I?

Today is just like the many Fridays that I was looking forward to. Weekend is always exciting tho I know my Saturdays routine would be staying at home and go to Japanese class and spend the whole Sundays at home surfing, lazing or just lepaking at some café with the usual faces, updating each other about things that happened around us.


But today will also be a Friday that I’d say, significant to me.

It’s a day where I got to know that my dad is going through a depression. I’m not sure how serious it is in actual fact, but from what I see, it’s quite serious.

To be honest, I’ve prepared myself for this day, confirming that he is depressed. Because these few years was a tough one. A lot of things happened and I kinda know that he will be going through a nervous breakdown any time.

Now, even though I’m prepared for it, I still feel terrible. In a lot of ways.

For a second, I couldn’t find the answer to all the questions in my head. I couldn’t comprehend what just happened and why this is happening to him. To me. To us.

For a second, I don’t know what to do. I don’t know that to say to make him feel better. I don’t know how to make him feel optimistic. I don’t know how to make it go away.

I know that this sickness is purely psychological and nobody but himself could cure it. What we/people around him can do is to support him morally. But even so, we can’t make the things in his head go away in a split second no matter how desperately we want it to.

Depression is not an uncommon sickness. It is in everybody’s mind. It’s the way that person handles it.

I guess, dad finally lose it. He chose to let it take over his mind.

For a moment, I felt so afraid. So many uncertainties floated in my head.

It’s a feeling that I never had before. I almost don’t know what to do. Not that I know what to do now, but all I know is, I need to stay strong. For him.

I know this sounds silly, but a thought crossed my mind few days ago, before we confirmed that he’s depressed, I thought of turning into a vegetarian. Yes. You heard me right. I don’t know why but all I thought was, “if it will make things right, why not?” perhaps it’ll help? Maybe I can try pledging to become a vegetarian for a hundred days? See if it helps?

Shrug.

I don’t know.

Should I?

I Love Marshmallow Sky!

taken during the trip to Johor Bahru last week.

looks delicious huh?

anyway.. been busy with work lately. it's so stressful to deal with difficult people at work. some people just like to make your life miserable. they like to get in your way and do things their way and condemn other people's way. another word to describe this kind of people is selfish. damn selfish and egoistic that i've lost hope in  dealing with them. my strategy is just do whatever they asked to do, do it their way and call it a day. no point arguing or defending myself because at the end of the day, they will make it like it's my mistake and they are right, other people is wrong.

sigh.

worse thing is, i cannot burst my temper and throw words back at this person cos i'll have to deal with him until end of the year. not good lah right.. SIGH.

I Love Being Bullied.

by a 2-year-old that is!

so last Saturday was an impromptu Niece-Babysitting-Day. fetched Eva from Kepong and went to salon to dye my hair while she played with her "goom goom" (gung gung/grampa). brought her back while her mother aka Shorty went to work. while i was trying to tuck her in for afternoon nap, she's fighting to be awake! so we CW™ a bit...

smile!!!!*pose*

"one more"

"again..." *block* -_-

then the bullying starts!

eeeeekkkk!

"nah!!"

see how mischievious she is!!! lol!!! surrender!

Series Of Unfortunate Events in Kuantan

So i was away for an event in Kuantan last week. we stayed in Hyatt Regency Kuantan for 2 nights. a series of unfortunate events happened throughout the 3 days we were there. first, they fucked up my room category, they gavce me a 2-bedded room. -_- it's very scary to sleep in a room a lone with TWO beds!

then, because some last minute group booking from the US embassy, they are quite full and can't give me the same type with my collegue, so terpaksa take one with this view from my balcony....

direct view from balcony.

this is the view from my collegue's room. see the HUGE difference?

the beach.

so after our event, we went for a stroll at the beach in the evening.

it's my first time in Kuantan and to be honest, the hotel is comfy, staff are nice (except for the reception desk, they don't smile. ugh) their banquet staffs are very accommodative,and they have very nice sea view!

ohai Kuantan!!!

they have 2 pools, this is one of them. too bad we don't have time to lepak here.

they also have a very wide spread of buffet breakfast, which consists of western, indian, malay and chinese style. and of course, i opted for the western for both days, because others are just too heavy. this is just nice.

the view from my breakfast table, overlooking the beach. cannot believe that there are 2 people swimming at the sea at 7.30am in the morning!!!

so the second unfortunate event is on the second day, right before i get ready for my event before breakfast, the power supply just went off! luckily i'm not in the shower when it happened!!!! if not, i'll really die cos i'm alone in the room and it's TOTAL darkness! the first thing i did was to open the door and peep out to see if there's anyone out there, then open my balcony door to let the sun light in. phew~

then i went back to my room after my event ends at 4pm, and guess what..... i'm locked out of my room!

stupid door just won't open!!

ugh. first, they gave me the wrong category, then gave me a staircase view, then the power tripped and then my door cannot open!! wtf!!! so bad luck meh!!

then during check out, the front desk screwed up again. some minor mistake. -_- seriously, their front desk people really have no smiles on their face!! don't deserve to be in front desk. can't believe that a 5 start hotel will have this kind of quality.

but luckily the event went well so it kinda compensate on my bad lucks lah...

How Relationship Lasts VIII

so i was chatting with Smelly on FB just now...


dy : bB... today i very good girl. i no eat lunch! good girl mou????

Smelly :   =)

dy : so now very hungry. what are you going to feed me later?

Smelly : the biscuit you bought yesterday.

dy : oi!!!!!!!!!!!


wtf. where got such boyfriend one!!!


the biscuit i bought yesterday is for Alfie!!!!

Hello Butterworth!

been here at Seberang Prai, Butterworth since Wednesday for work.. finally our event ended this afternoon and me and a colleague, Edi, stayed for another night to rest before heading back to KL again tomorrow. we'll be stopping by Ipoh tomorrow for site visit then only home. hopefully will be back in KL before 3pm!! i miss home already!!

our series of event officially started on Monday in KL, then here. supposed we have a total of 15 locations but on Tuesday during the post mortem, our chairman added one more location so we have another 14 more to go!! it'll stretch across entire Malaysia. we'll have an event every fortnight so this will go on until December before i can really rest! phew~

2 down, 14 more to go!! and in between this series, we have 2 more major event in July and August! gee... we'll be superman and supergirl after this!

so im in the room alone, got nothing to do so what else!!

webcamchore!!!

   

 bai!!!!

next stop - Kuantan in 24th June!!!

I Love Oldschool Things!

wah i’m so puny.. heheh..

i found a new exercise book in my pile of junks while cleaning my room last weekend (moving house, remember?) i don’t even remember i kept this! whoa… this one.. at least 10 years old. the last edition of this book was in year 2000 or was it 1999? can’t remember. hmm.. feels good walking down the memory lane while clearing junks. i found some old photos and cheesy poems that i wrote. hahahahha… even I don’t believe that i wrote it.. lol! will post it up here when i have the time though.
anyway, there’s so much to do.. so many things happened. shitty things. nothing new though. just normal shitty things ie: work and insensitive boyfriend but both have been resolved. anyway… will update about my room once i’m done arranging and cleaning. (if you follow me on twitter, you’ll know how frustrated i was with my dad for rearranging MY ROOM after i planned it the way i want. ugh!)

I Love Lobster!

So we went to Lobsterman last Saturday to celebrate my birthday. Shared a 900gms lobster with Smelly and it's shiokalingam!!! seriously in love with it! gonna go back there next month for Father's Day! whee~

mmm hmm...

see.. Uncle Mun also likes it!

it's actually me and uncle's first time eating a whole lobster... FOL. *shame*

pinhole effect on Olympus EP-1 Super ♥ ♥ ♥!!!!!!!

after dinner, apa lagi.... CW™  lah!!!

We went to Taman Tun for a around of drinks after dinner... so...

continue CW™ -ing lor..... since the camera is so so so SO AWESOME..(but a lil heavy for my liking.)

hmm! it's my bithday so i can CW™!!! cui ah!

these are just a few awesome photos from none other than Uncle Mun's awesome camera!

Uncle in action! now all i need is a camera as awesome as his!!! i'm planning to get Olympus EPL-1!!!

happy birthday to me.

it’s my 25th birthday today.
quarter life passed. achieved almost nothing.
is life supposed to be like this? *shrug* so insignificant and boring.
why do we celebrate birthdays?
to celebrate life.
but aren’t we all supposed to celebrate life 24/7? why only celebrate life on birthdays? so you don’t celebrate life on normal days? how miserable is that?
hmm.
as i grow older, i see a pattern.
birthday is just another day.
it could be a working day.
it could be a Sunday.
it could be a bad day.
it could be a sad day.
it could be an exam day.
it could be a public holiday.
it could be a break-up day.
it could be a proposal day.
it could be a wedding day.
it could be another birthday.
it could also be a death day.
yes. so what’s the big fuss about birthdays again?
it’s just another day.
like today.
it’s a Sunday.

Packing In Progress

woot woot! it's Friday again! but this weekend will be a tiring day because i need to pack my stuff cos we're moving to a kinda-new house. i still haven't start packing anything yet!!!! i hope i have enough time. and i hope my new room will have enough space for me to put all my junks and books. =( a bit mm seh dak the house.. sobz sobz. stayed there for 23 years and now we had to move. =(


btw. my niece is sick! =( talked to her on the phone last night. but she still sounds mischievous! can't wait to see her tomorrow!!!