Friday, November 03, 2006

the boredom

his present is still with me. i wonder when can i complete it and send it to him. it's supposed to be last year's bday present. ugh... i'll try to complete it and send it as this year's christmas present.
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nothing much interesting happened lately. just the normal routine. getting up early, going to work, waiting to go home, eat, watch some drama, sleep... and repeat the whole routine the next day...
trying hard to lose weight lately.
but nothing seems to be working..
i felt so ugly and fat lately.
felt really ugly.
felt more unattractive than usual.
ugh...
i don't want to write anymore.
blueghh!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

the dinner. farewell. party. mooncake.

i went for dinner at tgi friday's last saturday. it's our office's gathering + heather's (our temp director from london) farewell + nesa's birthday party.
everybody were there except pam, she went back to penang.
we had a three course meal and the appetizer itself was really very, vey, VERY big portion and i was half full when i finished the buffalo chicken strips.
dy, abby and heather

norin, sally, dy and abby


this is the cajun shrimp pasta that i had.

the pasta was good. but too bad, it started to get oily by the time i have time to eat. the shrimp was really fresh too. i ate all the shrimp and left more than half of the pasta there. was busy checking the list of who's eating what and who's drinking what.


my favourite double choc fudgy brownie!!!!!!!!!!!


pig-out session...... warghhh!!!!!!!!!!

after dessert, we made the birthday girl to stand on the bar, but because the roof is too low, she had to sit instead.. ヾ(@^▽^@)ノ わはは


every birthday girl have to get dirty... and nesa is no exceptional... *tee hee*


and that's what close friends are for!!!


sitting on the bar is not enough.... we made her down a Lamborghini.. (^.^)v

after we took loads of photos with heather, she pay the bill, and we head home...

the best director next to miss may.

we'll really miss her..

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i called Li Yen Restaurant @ The Ritz-Carlton KL to reserve a box of mooncake... and guess what?? they sold all, i repeat, ALL the mooncakes that i wanted to order!!!!

(,,#゚Д゚):∴;'・,;`:ゴルァ!! they only have durian flavor and moet & chandon champagne with yellow lotus paste flavor left..... Σ(゚Д゚)

how can they be so cruel????!? ugh... i had to take the latter.. no choice... i don't like durian flavored food except for durian ice-cream and dodol... and one box of mooncake costs me RM 55!!! and they only give 10% discount for employees! how can??? Renaissance is giving us 30% doscount on all the mooncakes.... Σ( ̄ε ̄;・・・

so i have to go and take it today before everything is sell out again..

Friday, September 29, 2006

the ride.

there's this one fine day, i went to work by lrt...
and i took a cab to the lrt station cos nobody's free to send me there.. so i stopped a cab.......

i told the uncle where to drop me off and i stepped in and shut the door.

then, when i lift my head, i saw something very ... weird.... something not so right... i saw something that's not supposed to be in any vehicle.....

i do watch "pimp my ride" once in a while and the way the modifiy those cars... it's extreme... and guess what? i can't believe that i get to see a taxi's interior a la "pimp my ride"....












































i saw this!!!


How can this be in any moving vehicle???!?
it's so fucking dangerous ballz!! if there's accident happens, imagine where those steel goes?? or, what if the seat got loose? it's so damn dangerous ok?
hmm...
i wonder why he put that in?
trying to pimp his ride???

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

the trip.


went to penang for a short trip last weekend. waking up at 5.30a.m and dragging myself out of the bed in a weekend morning isn't fun at all. but when you think about the things that you can do at trips, ie: long highway rides (i love highway rides!!), sleeping cosily in the front seat with nice music (no need to drive!), and most importantly, you get to EAT (no diet plans that needs to be followed during trips). yay! going out from the house early morning is not so bad. as we reached Ipoh around er... i think it's 10a.m. we went to look for the ever famous dim sum in town. the restaurant is called Foo San. it's a bit old school type of restaurant where their waitresses still wears checkers uniform with a hankerchief-attached-hairband. they looked cute.

the food there, absolutely delicious!!!! i gave all thumbs up! the "siew mai" is yummy, no prawn smell and funny pork smell. super fresh! the "ha gao", i tell you... it has three prawns,50-cents big, in each "ha gao".



steam pork rib at kl dim sum will never be the same again.
we went to Gurney Drive at night for supper. look what they found!!!!!!!!

sibeh crunchy fried chicken skin!!!!!!!!

KFC spicy chicken with crunchy skin also kalah! KFC will never taste good again.. this chicken skin.. is purely just chicken skin. and when you bite the skin, it's so crunchy that it almost melt in the mouth....

of course, nobody goes to Penang without stuffing themselves with at least two bowl of the infamous scrumptious asam laksa.

yummy asam laksa!

as we reached the hotel, it's only 12p.m. we requested for early check in but unfortunately, they can only give us (dyming and seanmoon) rooms on level 9 and they only have two bedded rooms left.

we checked in anyway.

moved the bed together and make it like it's king sized bed.

we changed into our beach attire and head to the beach and joined the rest.

it was a hot saturday. but very strong wind. perfect time to get a tan.

i put sunblocks on my face, my hands and my neck. i just want to tan my legs, back and my body. but half way through my nice sleep, it rained. we have to go in and wait for it to stop.

it didn't rained long enough tho. maybe around ten minutes and the sun is up again. and we're back to our sunbeds and trying hard to get a nice tan.

watched the guys fly kites. and i tried balancing it tho.. it's nice... very nice feeling.

didn't really stayed long enough to get tanned tho. it drizzle and stop and it's annoying. so we decided to dip ourselves in the seawater to cool down.

we played frisbee, fly kites, the guys played volley ball, and made some sand castle. we buried gary in the sand too!


chilling out with ming after the short rain.

with pekyee waiting for the rain to stop.

after long hours at beach (not to mention that i didn't get any tan), suddenly ming found out that the room key's missing. he put it in his pocket and maybe it dropped in the sea. we report about the missing key to the manager and luckily we only have to pay 30 bucks for it. the manager replaced our room. we get one floor higher. exactly the same room, but one floor up. phew~ lucky that we don't have to pay the missing-key's room. after we moved our stuff to the new room, we head back to the beach for second round of dipping.

went to batu ferringhi for dinner at those hawkers center. food there was so-so. prawn mee was nice. and homemade fried spring roll was unique in flavor. yummy too!

went to Kek Lok Si temple for prayers and lit up a candle. things are almost still the same since the last time i've been there, which is almost 5 years.

ming, gary, lun and donald posing with thier chinese zodiac sign, the Goat.


as for me, it's the cow....

here's one photo of everybody at the Bronze Buddha at the top of Kek Lok Si temple.

it was a wonderful trip.

my first road trip with ming.

totally worth it.

but totally broke.

we're planning our next trip already. PD, Phuket or Bali maybe? hehee....

Monday, September 11, 2006

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

the mtv.

joe is going to Australia soon...

to find his love.

i hope everything will be alright when they meet.

i know how it feels to have a partner so far away and not knowing exactly what will happen to each other.

i know how it's like not having our partner beside us whenever we need a shoulder to cry on, to hug us when we feel cold, to pamper us when we are not well..

i know how it's like, to be attached yet you feel lonely.

i know how it's like to pray for the same prayer and wish the same wishes every night before bed.

it hurts a lot.

it hurts but you can't do anything about it.

it's sad that you can't blame anyone but the situation.

i'm sure things will be lot difference if our partner is right by our side.



i wish joe all the best.

everything will be fine soon.

it will be.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

the happy one.

i wanted to write.

there's quite a lot of things in my mind now.. but i don't know why i just can't seem to put it in words.

i told ming that i can't write lately.


you know what he said??

hmmphh....


"because last time you lonely ma.. got so much time... and you always not happy.. that's why can write.. now you cannot write because you're not alone.. plus, now so happy... *grin*"

-_-:


last time i very pathetic meh? nothing to do beside blogging meh?? i don't have him very lonely meh? ceh...

hmm..

but he's a bit right.

not about the lonely part..

about the writing part..

i can write when i'm unhappy. when i'm angry. when i'm emotional..

he's right.

i'm happy now.

i don't really how to express happiness in words.

i'm happy now because everything seems to be great.

let's see why...


1. i have a fulltime job.. (though i didn't finish my studies in college..)

2. i have more freedom compared to last year.. (though i still have to inform daddy if i'm not going home..)

3. i still have my best friends..(though i hardly ever see them nowadays..)

4. i have ming with me everyday.. (though he never fail to tell me how fat i am every possible chances that he have..)

5. i can eat choki-choki when i'm working!!! (though sometimes, i also eat mcD sundae, nasi lemak, kuey tiao goreng, halls honey lemon flavor, mamak's cendol, etc...)

6. i have time to watch anime.... ~_~ (though sometimes, i also watch porn...)


isn't that enough to make me a happy one?? ^O^


hehehee...

Thursday, August 03, 2006

i wrote an entry today.

and suddenly i have to close the internet explorer due to some error.

ugh...

no mood to write again.

shall continue tmr.

burr..

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

the continued story.

ok.. back to the story...

where was i...? hmm...



oh.. i was saying that i was so wrong...

yes. i was wrong.

i realised that if you truly love someone, tears will flow easily.

i've always thought that nobody can replace harvey.

until i met ming.

no. i'm not saying this just to make anyone feel better. i'm really saying what i felt.

from the first time i met ming for teh tarik, i knew he'll only make me laugh.

he did.

before we're officially together....

whenever i get his text message, i grin..

whenever i hop in his car for a ride to the lrt for work, i grin..

whenever we meet for dinner/supper/yamcha sessions, also grin.

-_-:

whenever we talk, no matter what topic, there's only smiles, grins, and laughters.

whenever i'm with him, i'm happy.

i forget.

i forget about how painful it was to stay alone in KL while harvey is away.

i forget about how difficult it was to have boyfriend ten thousand miles away, not knowing when we're going to meet again.

i forget about how hurtful it was when i made the decision to let go a truly beautiful love just like that.

yes... i forget how sad i was whenever i get ming's text / get a call from ming / meet him up for dinner.

he is the person who made me forget about all that miserable thing for a while.

that's why i like seeing him.

that's why i like talking to him.

he's capable to make me smile throughout our outing, from the moment i see him until the moment he sent me home.

that's ming.



*to be continued

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

the wrong thoughts.

"let's see each other once a week instead of everyday".

that's what he said when we're watching tv the other day...

instead of giving him my normal,"why? why duwan see me?" and "bB dun love me d ar?" and "bB boring see me meh? i know.... you wanna see other girlfriend!!! *evil grin*", reaction, i just nodded and replied, "okay" without looking away from the tv.

i wasn't in the mood for jokes. i'm tired working the whole day and was stucked in the non-moving bus due to the ever-popular traffic jam in KL for more than an hour. Plus, i've been thinking lately that we spent too much time together. we see each other everyday. yes.. everyday. i started to wonder if he'll get bored one day.

i've been talking to Celeste about this... she asked me, "you see each other everyday, not bored ar?"

i told her no. i'm not bored at all.

i still have those butterlies-in-my-stomach feeling whenever i'm going to see him..

i still look forward to seeing him every single day...

i still find that making funny faces is not boring..

i still like to "force" him to kiss my back of hand whenever i said or did something stupid, even though he always say, "eeee... smelly hand...." or "why always force me kiss you??" *bluek*

i still like to multi-kiss him on the shoulder everytime i hop in his car knowing that he'll say, "yer... dirty ar..." and i'll ask, "your shirt?"... he'll never fail to say, "yalor.. you make my shirt dirty... hyuckk..." *smack his lap and throw him an evil look*

yes. i still feel that way.

then we talked that night.. i told him i know that i'm becoming a burden to him. and that's the last thing i ever wanted to happen.

i once said, "he who makes her cry doesn't deserve to be with her. and i believe that he'll only make me smile. i also believe that he'll never make me drop a single tear of sorrow."

i was so wrong.



*to be continued.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

the day.

so mommy went back to new york few weeks ago.

it's funny how feelings can play ones heart. before mommy came back from new york in april, i missed her a lot. but i never show it. never really expressed it out before. maybe because it's my nature.. or perhaps, i'm not so close to her..

i've always knew that mommy favours debb and desmond more than me. perhaps it's because both of them always share things with her. i'm the more quiet middle child. i think the reason why i'm not close to her is because i don't grow up with her around me most of the time.. i was at the babysitter through childhood. can't blame them tho. they're busy. which, i think, is the reason why i keep most of my problems to myself.

daddy knows about this. he knows who she favours most and less. he notice that. but when he told me "see? she always pick on you", i just told him "it's ok.. i'm used to it".

when she's back here in KL, we argue most of the time. tho most of the time, i prefer to remain silent whenever she starts nagging or giving opinion, sometimes i just can't stand it. sometimes i wonder.. perhaps it's because i'm like my mother. her traits. maybe because i'm too much like her that she started to hate me...

now that she went back to new york, i started missing her. i'm not sure when i can see her again. i've always wanted to tell her that i miss her and that i don't mean to hurt her.. but i'm too ego to do that..

hmm...

i'm worried about dad tho..
i hope he'll be alright this time around..


work is good so far.. nothing too interesting happened to me lately.. just the normal thing.. it's been a while since i went to a club. haha! can you believe that?? now, i prefer staying at home, watching dvd or watch ming play world of warcraft or just lay there and do some thinking then go to bed.

i miss MPH and Kinokuniya.................................

Sunday, May 21, 2006

was browsing at those photos i took few months back.. and i found this...

heehee..... i love this one..


damn a lot of shitty things happened lately... it's hard to understand sometimes.. and at times, i just don't want to understand. sigh..

i'm in love with that photo~



[music on air]
picture by kid rock and sheryl crow.

[quote of the day]
be reasonable.


Friday, May 05, 2006

everything happens for a reason. now i know that this statement is true. very true indeed.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

the transformation.


i'm bored.

i got nothing to do.

staying at home.

it's boring.

i wanna walk.

in the rain.

i feel like swimming.

stopped for two weeks.

i wanna shop.

get something for ming.

also get something for mother's day.

get a shoe.

that's for myself.



this is how i look like now..

Saturday, April 22, 2006

the haircut.


i felt like i'm the saddest person alive lately..

too many things happened at once.. haih....

sometimes, i felt that i'm not being fair to him...

sometimes, it's hard to explain what's in my mind..

sometimes, i just wonder if all this happens for a reason..

sometimes, i'm afraid that i'll bore him to death..



oh.. btw, i planned to have my hair cut.. but ming doesn't agree with me... he said i won't look nice with short hair.. =(

but i wanna have it cut like this.......see? she looked sad too... like me.. maybe because her boyfriend doesn't like her haircut.

sometimes, i just feel like running away to a place where nobody knows me.

sometimes, i feel like a useless person..

sometimes, i wished to be heard.

sometimes, i wonder when it's gonna end..