i woke up early again. 6.30a.m. (before snoozing til 6.45a.m.. =P)
though actually i really tempted to snooze til 7.30a.m... but i never did cos i'm afraid that i'll oversleep and going late to work.
i remember i had a dream 2 days ago that i was very late to work. rush like fuck and was damn scared that i'll leave bad impression to boss. (eh.. have to jaga a bit la.. if not, how to grow better, right?) then i woke up and the clock showed 02:43. -_-! but lucky it was only a dream.
i don't know why lately i've been waking up a lot in the middle of the night. almost every day, i will sleep latest by 1a.m. (nowadays, i can even sleep at 8pm... but normally 10 or 11pm.) and i will wake up once at 2.30ish a.m, 3.45ish a.m and 5.45ish a.m. (see? it happens almost every day that i remember the time!).
i don't know why i will wake up... it's either from dreams or i wake up naturally. but normally i'll fall back asleep very fast. it's been like this for few months already. before i started my new job, i will usually snooze my alarm every 10 mins, for more than one hour, before waking up and go to work (this explains why i was almost always late to work whenever i drove). i always feel that i did not get enough sleep so i sleep in most of the time.. and be late to work. =P but after a while, i started to carpool with a colleague and he will wake me up 20-30 mins before he come over. so i HAD to get ready before he reaches my place at 8.3oa.m.
and now, i have to reach office at 8.30a.m. no more less snoozing time. =P
why am i writing this down?
because to me, it's really an achievement weh!! though for some, waking up early and go to work earlier/on time is nothing unusual. but for ME/WO/SAYA/WATASHI/NGOR (wtf!!) it's achievement of the year! wtf!)
Friday, October 24, 2008
his best friend.
we went out for dinner at mamak yesterday cos his friends are joining us for yamcha.. i order yee meen next door tho. regretted cos it's not yummy at all.
we went back at around 12a.m. so Smelly drove his car my car our car (wtf??!) the kenari (that belongs to him but i'm driving. wtf. so is that my car or his car? his driving a car that belongs to me.. so who is the car owner? wtf.. so complicated.) nvm. i shall state the kenari as my car from now on.
so he's driving about 300 metres away from the mamak...
me: BIE!!! yer!!!! YERRR!!!!! you see... YERRR!!! *pointing at the middle of the dashboard.
Smelly: what? what?
me: stop the car!! faster stop the car!!!! *unfasten seatbelt,unlock the door in split second*
Smelly: HAHAHA!!!!!
me: faster stop the car... don't move!! don't move.. *open the car door, jumped out 2 feets away from the car*
Smelly cupped his hand on the dashboard, struggled a bit with it and threw it away.
yes. it's his best friend, mr. lizard. there was a baby lizard in my car! MY CAR. LIZARD. IN. MY. CAR!!!!
how can that thing went inside my car??!? i was damn sceptic and keep on asking him "did you really threw it or you're just making a gesture of throwing??" "what if the lizard's mommy still inside the car??" *SWEAT*
smelly: good la.. let's catch a baby lizard and make it as a pet.. i'll put it in a clear box for you to see clearly... and you can feed it too....! ok??
me: -_-! go away!
UGH!!!
damn geli lor!!! some more the baby lizard can nicely & slowly walk across the dashboard and made a pit stop there right in the middle.. wtf????!!! fashion show meh? luckily it wasn't coming to my direction lor.. luckily it was going towards the driver side..
on the way home, i felt like they are more lizards in the car and keep on brushing my legs. yerrr... thinking of this made my neckhair stands.
i think it came through the window when i parked my car beside neighbour's tree/plant, which is as tall as my car, and i kept the window opened an inch so that the window and mirror won't get fogged the next morning when i drive to work.
wtf.. i think i should stop doing that.
windows will be closed ALL THE TIME when parked.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
i started to feel good about waking up earlier in the morning for work.
yes. you read it right.
i'm definitely not a morning person. but then these few days i've been waking up earlier than usual, (actually half an hour earlier only...), i made breakfast for myself and Smelly to bring to work before going off. i think one of the reason i felt good is because i skipped the terrible traffic jam. i saved at least half an hour on the road.
i reach office and i have time to have breakfast and time to see my boss to update him and just catch up.. (he's very busy during working hour due to meetings..).
sometimes, i'd go home on time. but most of the time, i'll stay til 7pm just to check if there's anything urgent to do after boss' meeting. and by going home later, i'll skip the evening jam. another half an hour saved.
i'm feeling good about this kind of routine.
though sometimes i'd miss those days when discipline almost lose it's place in my dictionary.
right here, right now, i felt more disciplined. also most importantly, i felt healthier.. well, mentally.
Today's breakfast: Cooked Ham & Cheese Triple Sandwich
Ingredients (per serving) :
3 slices of Gardenia Breakthru Bread (or any type/brand of your choice)
Butter
Mayonaise
1 fresh tomato (sliced)
1 slice of cooked ham
1 slice of cheese (i used Kraft Singles)
Methods:
1. Butter the breads.
2. Place the cooked ham on top of the buttered bread. Fold the ham if it's too big for the bread.
3. Spread mayonaise on the ham and cover with a slice of bread.
4. Place slices of tomatoes on it. (i put 3 slices cos the bread is small).
5. Put the cheese on top of the tomato and slap it with the last piece of bread.
easy right? (sorry if you can't understand the instruction cos it's the first time i write a recipe.) and i usually prefer making simple and easy meal.. which reminds me that i still have a post to finish writing : potluck party.. i made spaghetti and steak.
you can make it for your breakfast too! you can add lettuce, cucumber or any vege of your choice. i use tomato cos i like la.... can use so many different types of ham too!! hehe.. oh.. you can heat it with microwave to melt the cheese.. and if you have toaster at home, you can toast it too! but i like it chilled and un-toasted.
but then i know sure you've tried making or eating this sandwich before.. =P
stay tuned for tomorrow's recipe! hehe..
how relationship lasts III.
gf: i reached office at 7.30a.m today... hehe..
bf: why so early?
gf: *whisper* because got leng cai.. hehehe... *obviously teasing bf*
bf: *indifferent* ceh... they won't look at you also ler..
gf: >_< why?
bf: because you're fat and ugly.
gf: *GRRRR* what fat and ugly???!!? you also ugly! herh!
bf: then ngam la.. i ugly, you also ugly. that's why only i will love you. perfect match!
gf: -_-!!
tell me la... how to get angry liddat? grrrr!!!!
part 1
part 2
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I know it's still early to make a Christmas wishlist.. but since i'm so free now, might as well do it now. :P
why? because i need a proper wallet..
Monday, October 20, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
where to find a boyfriend like mine?
i have a habit of buying shoes at least once a month.. cos most of my shoes doesn't last me more than 3 months, except for slippers and sneakers.. you know lah, nowadays shoes that i can afford is not high quality ones.. i tend to always break my sandals and heels within 2 months.. i think it's because of the low quality.. but then i've bought shoes that are slightly more expensive than it worth for the brand and still, the shoe will somehow spoil. it's either me or the brand has got very low quality material and cheat people.. bluek!
so i went to shop for shoes with Smelly couple of weeks back.. he don't really encourage me to spend so much on shoes cos they tend to break easily but he cannot do anything about it la.. those kind of misfortune cannot be saved..
so i decided to get a pump heels i tried and ask for his opinion..
smelly: anything la.. you will break it anyway.
dy: what wor.. cheap shoes is like that ge la.... not that i intend to break it.. unless you get me a Jimmy Choo and it still break, then i got nothing to say..
smelly: i think give you Jimmy Choo or other branded one also will break lor...
dy: why leh...?
smelly: because you're too heavy. the shoe cannot support your weight.
dy: =.=
Annual Trip - Cameron Highlands
So finally i have time to post some of the photos from the Cameron Highlands trip last month. it's kinda like an annual thingy la.. whereby we will choose a destination for short 2-3 days trip anywhere in Malaysia. this year, we all agreed to Cameron Highlands again (we went last year too). one of our friend's company owns a bangalow there and it's really cheap to stay since we don't have to pay for the rent.. we only pay for the meals which includes breakfast, lunch and dinner. there is a care taker there to clean and cook for us. so during our stay there, i felt like a queen... wake up in the morning, breakfast already served. then watch tv or play games and lunch is served... then another leisure time and dinner is served...
no need to do anything. so relax. that was the purpose of the annual trip..
just some photos not in order.. lazy to drag..
first night. after dinner and nice long hot shower.
the next morning. photo session... actually we're really reading.. (LOL!!!! believe or not? hehehe.)
first night. steamboat. all thumbs up for the food.. vege were very fresh.
second day. still morning. we played boxing on Wii. guess who won?? (of course me lah!! 3 rounds non stop winning! now who wants to challenge me??
second night after dinner. it was BBQ. yea.. i know u must be thinking... why i wear the same attire from night one until night two.. because it's cold that we don't have to shower.. gah!!!!!!! hahaha!! actually it's because i slept the whole day on day two and woke up already dinner.. BBQ smoke very smelly ma.. i don't want to shower so many times. (Bleh! lazy!)
this is actually day 2 morning..
oh... before i forgot.. "Congrats Joyce!! you will be mommy soon!!" i'm so excited when i knew that Joyce (in black jacket) is pregnant.. it's like... of everyone in the group, can say she'll be the first.. so happy to hear that..
Note: Joyce is Smelly's bestfriend's wife.
Note 2: Everyone in the trip is actually Smelly's friend and the girls are all "Ah Sou".. including me.
told you photo not in order...
girls in action. seriously, i think i should get a Wii too... after 3 rounds of boxing, my arms muscle hurts for few days. it really helps for those who are lazy to exercise..
Good hair day... this is first night.
gah!! i know you can tell it's heavily Photoshopped.. bluek!!! seriously, i just want to show how good my hair was...
last day... we don't feel like going home...
i saw a moth on the wall in the morning of our departure... it's very nice actually... only my camera not nice..
will post the rest of the photos when i'm free..
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
the pot of gold.
It’s been more than a year I’ve been away from the corporate-style office, which is to require me to be at work on time. I’ve been going to work well, not very on time I’d say, for the past year. But hey, it doesn’t mean that I’m lazy.. It’s just that, it’s kind of a culture in the previous office. People come to work not on time, but they work more than 10 hours a day. Some even go back home after midnight. So it’s natural not to be at work on time. But then, it’s also because the company is not a corporate company. It’s because the company is just a small and comfortable one.
So anyway, I’ve finally had the courage to step out and learn something new. Well, not exactly new la.. but more to change of environment and also to challenge myself in a different industry. It was kinda difficult for me to leave everything and everyone behind. Especially Sam. He’s the first boss that treated his subordinate like friends. And I treated him like my older brother cos he’s very young too. Only 6 years older than me. Perhaps that’s why I felt happy working there at the first place. Even though the salary wasn’t as good as I got before, I felt happy and didn’t mind working there. Come to think about it, he hardly gives me any pressure during my service there. It’s very comfortable working with him (I can always walk in his room without even knocking and chat with him like a friend). Very informal and very easy.. I wonder if I have any chance to have a boss like him again..
The next thing that I missed most is the colleague there. Even though sometimes when we’re busy with work, especially during events, and sometimes there will be some misunderstanding and disagreements, everyone were very close. It’s like a small family growing in the company. We talk, we laugh, we got angry, we scolded each other, and we made up, we’re just like a family. A typical one.
It’s kinda sad knowing that I had to leave but seriously, if it wasn’t about the company’s restructuring plan that went terribly wrong and stupid (my opinion lah), I wouldn’t have resigned. But then.. oh well… let’s just make that a history.
Being in a new company, a different industry, a new boss, whole new colleagues and different environment kind of made me feel like it’s a new ME. It’s like I’m newborn. There’s so much to learn.. So many things to catch up and because this industry is new to me, there are so many emotions running in me now. I have a mixed up feeling the moment I got to know they accepted me in. I felt very happy but at the same time, scared. I was really nervous that I couldn’t really sleep well and had nightmares for almost two weeks. Yes… it really affects me. I don’t know what I’m going to face. I don’t know how my future boss will treat me. is he the kind who have a black face all day long? Will he scold me for something puny? Or will he treat me like my previous boss? Is he strict? Is he lenient? I don’t know..
I don’t know how my new colleagues will be. Will I mix with the wrong crowd? Will there be any crowd? How will they think of me? Will they think that I’m a bad girl by judging my looks?
I’m so nervous yet very excited at the same time. Can I wake up on time every morning? Will I be late to work? I can’t afford to go late to work… must be disciplined. It’s unlike my previous company where latecomers aren’t warned at all..
So.. the first day of work….
Miraculously, I managed to drag my lazy ass and heavy body up and finally forced myself to open my eyes and face the reality – which is to wake up early to work like almost everyone else. I find it quite challenging to wake up early in the morning, as I’m really actually very superbly definitely NOT a morning person at all. But I managed to be at the office 10 minutes earlier than the scheduled time (praise self).
I went to HR dept to get my tags and do some quick introductions of some of the policies and stuffs and went to my workstation. My boss was in a meeting and the CEO’s PA, Carmen, showed me around the building. Which is quite a number of floors we need to go (regretted wearing high heels— hurt and blistered like hell now). Got to know some important people that I will liaise with in the future, which are secretaries, head of divisions and some other people that I will work very closely with. To be honest, I can’t really remember who is who yet and I totally forgot their names right now but I will definitely try my best to remember who is who and what is what.
Well, I can’t judge my boss now cos it’s only one day and so far I think he’s okay. But I got to know from Carmen that he’s a very morning person! He reaches the office around 7-8 every morning… -_-!
So this week is more like a 'getting-used-to' period.. hopefully everything will be fine la. Oh.. Have I mentioned that lunch is provided too?? Hehehe… this way, I can save up for my Hong Kong trip!
Yesterday was a very nervous and blur day.. to be honest, I felt very scared because I really don’t know what’s ahead of me. I felt lifeless. I felt dull. But then just before I went home yesterday, I went in my boss room and I saw a full rainbow. Yes… FULL RAINBOW in KL.. and it instantly lighten up my mood. I instantly felt much better and funny though… the rainbow is like a hope. A very good one..
Perhaps God wants me to know that there are still hopes and the world is still colorful.
Perhaps there are really pots of gold at the end of the rainbow… :)
Saturday, September 20, 2008
the day i suddenly become 30 years older.
Ahem!! i finally curled my hair last week.
but it's not the curl that i wanted lor!! i wanted wavy... but then it turned out to be CURLY... sigh! now all my friends are calling me Aunty! >_<>
NAH! preview......
very curly right?? right?
see what i mean?
i think i miss my straight hair now.
hmmphh!
see? straight hair looked 20 years younger.
my silky(ceh!) straight hair!
but right... i think i miss my short hair more... see?
short hair is even better! look 30 years younger!
you see what i mean? and i looked slimmer too!
see? so the baby face. (wakakakaka!)
but then i was lucky lah.. even with curly hair, i think i won't even end up looking like this...
WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAA!!!!!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
random.
i saw Alice did the "What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?" quiz and i thought of giving it a try since she said that the analysis is quite accurate for her. here's my result..
Your Blog Should Be Purple |
 You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say. |
eh...
a bit agree overall. but i don't think i tend to set blogging trends lor... i'm not that influencial afterall. hehe.
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Smely starts working on weekend starting form today. =( his offday will be on Mondays. =( so it means that i have to spend my offdays without him again. sigh!
but never mind! last time when i was working with Amex, i worked on weekend shift too... not the first time spending my offdays alone anyway. but then... it's been a year we spend our weekend lazing together, fighting to use the PC, fighting over the tv remote, asking each other to go out and buy food cos both are lazy.... hmm..
now i'm here alone on a weekend, blogging (no one fight to use PC with me).
have to go out and buy food. =( [even though i'm almost always the one who gave up and go out to buy food or cook instant noodles]...
i can hug the tv remote... or even bring it to the toillet with me.. bleh!
hmm.. who wanna yamcha, shopping, lunching, or do anything with me on weekends? i'm totally free to be your partner.. :P
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
how will you feel and what will you do...
when you got de-promoted from your current position? well, kinda technically got depromoted from a kinda good position to a kinda not so good/grand/sounded nice position? but your salary is still the same?
when almost everyone, especially your bosses still calls and spells your name wrongly even after a year working with them? they spells it wrongly EVERY TIME even when your email spells your CORRECT name? when there are not one version but a lot more other version of your name that got mispelled and you know it's not typo error?
when 30-40% of your colleagues starts to resign or at least are thinking about resigning or talking about getting another job?
when you know your direct superior is leaving and you got "thrown" to another department, work directly under another superior that you dread working with due to no respect?
when you woke up in the morning everyday hoping that is was still Sunday?
when you heard the alarm rang and you pretended that it was your neighbor's alarm?
tell me la...
how will you feel?
what will you do?
Friday, August 15, 2008
my gramma.
i went home 2 days ago. dad asked me if i want to go home for dinner. one of his staffs' birthday. thinking that i haven't been seeing him for a week, i thought of going home.
had dinner and gramma haven't sleep yet. it's already 8.30pm when i got home. she's sitting there, watching tv. gramma is like that.. everytime there are visitors, she can't sleep. or should i say, she won't sleep. maybe she felt insecure or something. she will be very worried and keep on asking where my father is.
she's been naughty. dad asked her to sleep cos it's late. she normally sleeps at 7pm. she just walked up and down till everyone went home.
she sat beside me. my bag was on the chair opposite where i'm sitting. she pointed at the bag and asked, "who's bag is that?" i told her it's mine. "don't put there. later people take away."
i assured her that it's ok.
after five minutes, she pointed at the bag again. "who's bag is that?"
again, i told her it's mine.
"don't put there. later people take away."
this repeated for almost 6-7 times.
then i took my bag and put it on my lap.
she stopped asking.
she saw my phone on the chair, just beside me, "is this yours?"
"yes"
"keep it. later you lose it"
sigh.
then my dad came out, after cutting the cake, he asked gramma, "do you know who is this?" pointing at me.
gramma smiled. "i know.. i know.......*mumbles*"
she can't remember me that moment.
"she's your granddaughter. remember?"
"ahh.. yes.. i remember."
no. she didn't. she said that just to make us feel better. she's afraid that we know that she can't remember.
dad's staff always comes over our house and gramma will scold them and ask them to leave the house cos she don't recognize them. dad will tease her. "she's your grand daughter, remember?" she won't believe. but when dad told her that shortie, me and fatty are her grandchildren, she will smile and say "ah.. yes.. yes.."
i felt sad.
sometimes, she remember me clearly. asking me where i went. if i'm going to school that day. (cos before her condition got worse, i was still in college).
sometimes, she thought i'm her neighbour.
sometimes, she thought i'm a friend.
but luckily most of the time, she remember my name. but when asked, she got mixed up. i hope gramma won't forget me totally. i wish she still remember i'm her grand daughter.
before she went to bed, she stared at me very long and smiled. "you lose weight" she said.
"is it?"
"why you lose weight?"
"i diet... am i pretty?"
"yes yes... of course!" she laughed.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
missing home.
i found out that my baby brother started blogging yesterday. i read his first entry and it made me cried.
his english wasn't as good as me and shortie . yet he wrote something that made me teared. he wrote about his daily routine. just like when i started blogging, i wrote about my daily routine and musings.
though he's not good at english, i still think that he wrote wonderfully. why he started blogging? i wonder..
is it because he's got nobody to talk to?
is it because evrybody owns a blog, he wanna have one too?
is it because he's lonely?
i can't figure out.
i felt kinda bad for not being at home so often. and everytime i went home, he'll get some kinda scolding or lecture from me. not taht i intend to argue with him every time we met la.. just that sometimes, it's difficult talking to a teenager. (do i sound like a mother?)
the thing that made me teared is when i read about what he wrote bout my gramma, who have Alzheimer's Disease.
"my grandma knock the door...she thought a thief...so i told my grandma she is my dad staff can say my dad 'Kai Lui'...than she go away...so get back to my pc play some old games...Gunbound..after playing 20 min i heard my grandma knock louder n louder...so i tell her she sleeping dun kacau her...then get back the same things after 5 min...hiahz...so cham...because she got abit sick...sometimes she can' remember me...sometimes she call me as his son...hiahz...but nvm...old ady is like tat lor...hmm.."
after reading this, i felt a lump on my throat.
it's been a while since i go home.
i think it's time to go home now.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
should i cut my hair?
i don't know... i looked back all my short-haired photos.. i looked slimmer in it. really!! see??
so.. should i cut my hair short again???
huh? huh? huh? should i???????
