Fifthnniversary.

A delayed fifthnniversary thoughts.


Without realizing, five years passed. When I started going out with Smelly, I’ve never thought that we’ll last this long. Considering my age when I met him and especially my personality, it’s amazing how we can preserve this relationship to where we are now.

Things progressed rather smoothly, despite his usual discontentment about my body size and almost out-of-control credit card debts, and my never-ending annoyance with his obsession with gaming and lack of sensitivity towards my feelings. I guess that’s how things are supposed to work.

I used to think that we’re not a normal couple. But after listening to so many relationship stories from friends, I felt blessed and grateful for what I have. One can never be too greedy and keep wishing for the impossible, yet cannot be too contented with what we have. So I guess everything needs balance.

I Love Anniversary! (or not!)

another new year celebrated without Smelly.

damn stupid.

Smelly's colleague's farewell on the eve and he was supposed to join me and his friends for karaoke after dinner. mana tau they went for drinks after dinner and got stuck there and end up cannot make it to countdown with us.

not even a text saying Happy New Year AND Happy Anniversary!!! pfft.

what made me angry was when i reached home at 1.30a.m, i found him in the toilet, vomiting. and he stayed in the toilet for more than one hour before he decided that he had enough of vomiting. ugh.

pissed drunk and a pissed girlfriend. mad angry at his colleague and boss. of ALL night, why choose NYE to celebrate! grrrr.

so the next day, i made him promise to get a camera for me as an apology. *smart eh* but dilemma now cos new model coming out, maybe n April. hmm.

anyway, obligatory anniversary photo. nah!

Happy Anniversary!

i meant to post this up on 1st January, but got lazy and procrastinate instead.

Happy 4 years, SmellyBie!

it's a record for me to stay in a relationship for so long. i've never thought that i'd be able to keep it for such a long time.

to many people around us, they might think that it's an easy one for us. but actually, it's really not what most people around us sees it. well at least, it's not easy for me. i dare not say that i'm very certain of this relationship. i dare not hope for anything right now at this very moment because as cliche as i might sound, nothing is certain. not until the day we die.

at times, i felt so weak that i thought of giving up this relationship just because i can't see what's in it for me. and sometimes, i thought i know what's on your mind, but i realised that i don't. maybe i'm just afraid. but i know i'm not being fair thinking that way. love shouldn't be weighed and judged the way i did sometimes.

don't worry. i think it's just another emo phase.

you still brighten up my days.

you still make me smile for no reasons.

you're still the one who keep me grounded.

love you lots!

Third Anniversary.

To my dearest Smelly bB,

Happy third anniversary!

Three years is not a very long duration, but it’s long enough for both of us to understand and know each other thoroughly. It’s certainly long enough for both of us to decide whether we really want to be with each other… if not, I’m sure we won’t hold on until today, huh?

Like every relationship, I’ve definitely learned a lot in this. You watched me said goodbye to my teenage life and lead me through when I stepped into adulthood. You made me realize that it’s important to be selfish sometimes. You made me realized that it’s not about getting how much that we gave, it’s about receiving and enjoying something that other people don’t.

I’m not sure how much I’ve changed your life after we met, but I’m very sure that things are different after you appeared in mine. I hope that my presence brings a lot of joy in your life and I hope that this relationship will be your most wonderful and memorable one. We cannot guarantee what will happen in the future, but I really hope that we both learned something from each other and be a better person for each other.

I wanted to write more, but I guess I'll just save the mushy part.. =)

Muahx! Love you bie!