terpesong.

I was reading my 2006/2007 archives, when I was still working with Marriott as a Reservation Specialist... and I found myself laughing all the way through. I never knew my writing style was so funny! LOL!

It’s like.. I’ll write whatever that comes out and never edit it. Not that I do now, but I tend to think a lot before writing nowadays.. You know.. Select better vocab.

It’s funny how my working life back then. I kind of missed it too. Because we were the pioneer batch, everyone's like family. But somehow, after a year working and when you know your colleagues well, there comes gossips/misunderstandings/scandals/etc. but back then, we "focused" more on gossips.

LOL! Of course, the only place that I can let out my disagreement/anger/kaypoh-ness was my blog and only 2 of my colleagues knew about it. They were my bestest colleagues/friends..

Back then; my blog is my journal (still is, though not so personal now). I never thought that people will actually read it and I never ever thought that I’d make friends through my blog. I’m more of a silent reader to most of the blogs that I frequent and only leave a comment when I really think I should shout out. In fact till now, I’m still silent to most of the blogs unless they're my friends in real life.

Writing really comforts me in some ways.

Reading others is just to be informed and up to date about the happenings.

So back to blogging… when I read the past entries, I found out that I actually cursed a lot at some point. LOL! I think bad influence from Uncle Tiu la… haha! (ok lah.. I admit la.. I curse a lot in real life too… those who knows me in real life will not be surprised..)…

Even now, sometimes, it’s hard to hold back the words… especially when you’re talking about something very interesting and by adding some magic curse word into the sentence, it’ll become more “umpphh”! get what I mean?

I used to dislike people who curse back when I was in high school. We had a friend who curse a lot… to the extend that we salute her. She’ll insert a lot of vulgar words in one sentence. 7, 9, 67, 69, lan, hai, diu, and the list goes on. I used to think that it’s not good la.. some more girl…

But mommy was right. Don’t talk bad about people… got karma one..

So when I was in college, I always hang out with my bestie, whom is a guy, and his close friend, also a guy, who is The King of All Vulgar. I hang out with them almost every day and from a girl who doesn’t know how to insert vulgar words into a sentence, I became the next Queen of Vulgar. Of course, in the beginning stage, feel really weird adding diu,lan,7,9,hai,etc in a sentence. But practice makes perfect. Wtf!

From one vulgar word in ten words, it became six in ten. Kua jiong right?

But of course… I did not use the same language to talk to everyone la… only when I’m with my bestie and some of my close friends who happen to speak the same language.

It takes a while to get used to use-less-vulgar-words. But of course, the most difficult situation is when I’m playing mahjong with Smelly’s mother! Imagine NO CURSING while mahjong!! Damn difficult can die!

So my point is…

If you wanna get rid/control of your bad cursing habit, play mahjong with your partner’s mother!!

Definitely worked for me!!!



note: why every time i intend to write something, it'll end up with something else geh??? noticed that i was talking about my blogging style, suddenly it became vulgarity! damn out weh...

outdated post...

Daddy is going to Japan with Ben on the 9th. And last Saturday, I decided to clean my room. Initially, I thought just cleaning up those old junks that have been stacked in the room ever since my brother took my room. It’s like a storeroom.. ok la.. I know I’ve been promising myself to clean my room since like… last year?? But never did cos Shorty and Fatty moved my stuff, when Fatty took over my room, without waiting for me letting me choose my room and decided that I take over my late grampa’s room and just chuck everything inside. Including their unwanted-but-still-want-to-keep stuff in it!

So cannot blame me for procrastinating la..

So many things to clean!

Daddy’s going to travel for a week, so I had to stay home to look after my gramma, I HAVE to clean it no matter what la..

Cleaning is not enough, daddy asked me to switch room with gramma cos her room is actually my old room, got air cond. Very long never turn on cos gramma only use fan.

SWITCH room again. So means more things to clean and throw and organize!

So back to last Saturday, I woke up at 9a.m (9a.m on a weekend is miracle) and getting ready to go back home from Smelly’s place. Just when I’m about to call daddy to confirm that I’m going back to clean and switch rooms, he called… and asked if I could go down town to take some medicine for gramma. She’s not feeling well since the night before. She’s been “poo-ing” non-stop. I got worried so I offered to drive her to the clinic, which is in Pudu cos grampa used to go there, it’s his doctor.

I went home and there she was… sitting on her rattan lazy-chair, watching tv. I asked if she still feels sick, she said she’s not sick. Then, I asked the maid to get her ready to go clinic. I told gramma we’re going to see the doc, she refused and said she’s not sick. The maid came out and said she doesn’t want to shower… she told me she didn’t want to put on the adult diaper and urinated there. I looked down to see a yellow patch of watery marks just below the chair. My heart sank.

I felt sad for my gramma.

I tried convincing her to take a shower. Hold her hand and asked her to follow me… “come… I bring you… follow me,” I said. Somehow, she took my hands and started walking.

Phew! Relieved that she finally agreed to shower.

She have to walk very slow cos her bones are weak. After few drags of steps, a sudden rush of pungent smell flow through the air. I looked down. Thick stream of dark brown juice flowed down thru her pants, making tiny dripping sound… as she continued dragging her slippers, trying hard to walk, I can hear the squeezing sound made by the slippers, results of the encounter with the thick liquid.

“ahh.. sudah berak…” (ahh.. she poo-ed…) my maid said, holding her left hand, me on the right.

We couldn’t do anything but to continue walking to the bathroom, which is still about 15-18 feet away.

My heart sank deeper.

I look at my gramma, she’s trying so hard to walk and when she looked at me, she just gives me her usual smile. Like nothing happened.

She doesn’t know she have no control over her bladder and rectum (is that what you call it?). And she’s dementia. Can’t do much but to try talking to her as much as possible.. Sometimes, she remembers a lot of things. Sometimes, she remember me as her neighbor...

We had hard time trying to get her to the clinic cos she doesn’t want to go out. She’s always afraid to go out from the house. Maybe because she’s afraid that we’ll send her off to somewhere and leave her alone there. She held my hand very tightly when I helped her walk towards the gate. Every few steps she took, she’ll stop and say, “I don’t want to go.” Then, I’ll say, “It’s ok… just follow me..” and she’ll walk another few steps and say, “I don’t want to go.” This repeats for few times before I had to carry her into the car cos it’s almost 12p.m and it got very hot.

Everything went well in the clinic. Got some supplement and diarrhea pills for her. A lil bit of trouble getting her out and in the car…but other than that, everything went smoothly. She even remembers my name when we reached home.

So after a week, I went back home again to do a final clean up for my room… my dad told me that after all the supplements and pills, she can walk better. I saw her and her face glowed. I think she’s getting better now. She doesn’t even need us to hold her when she walks now. I guess the supplement worked a lil… but daddy also told me that she’s not been visiting the toilet for the whole week…

Hmm…

deja vu

i found this when i was reading my archive..

funny how feelings were.

funny how all the same feelings came back.

funny how i forgot that i had those feelings before.

no wonder it felt like deja vu all over again.

i was eating watermelon just now and i felt like i'm biting on some rock. then i found out that i my tongue ring just BROKE. -_-

i texted Shorty and asked how long does it take to heal up if you take out the bar bell?

she said about a week.

lucky me. still have enough time to go home and replace with the old one.

lesson learnt : never buy cheap bar bells!! *does this mean i have excuse to shop for new one?* heh..

now, my tongue feel naked.

gah!

choose lah...

you're getting ready to go out.

when you walked out, you saw two cars waiting to pick you up.

one is your current boyfriend who most probably also a potential husband.

another one is your ex boyfriend whom you love very much but reluctantly broke up due to distance issue.

which car do you follow?

pre-thirdniversary thoughts.

Two more months till our thirdniversary.

How time flies.

October 2005 is the first time we met each other.

Our relationship progressed very fast and on New Year 2006, we’re officially dating each other.

I don’t remember if I posted up anything about him previously. Like how we met, how we started, etc..

Actually, I kind of avoid writing about it on purpose.

I noticed that I’ll write every thing in detail about my previous relationships and every time I turn back and read those entries again, I felt like I’m ALWAYS contradicting myself. And every time I re-read those entries, I’ll go “how ironic!!”

So I made a pact to myself that I’ll try to refrain myself from writing too much about Smelly in my blog.

Funny how things turned out.

When I look back what happened within these two years we’ve been together, it’s very funny and surreal.

I never imagined myself to be THIS relationship for so long. The more unserious I want it to be, the more serious this relationship turned out.

I never thought that I’d be able to stand up again and continue walking THE PATH with him so far. The more I wanted to stop walking, the further I walked with him instead.

I always thought that I could be alone. Without him. I always thought that it doesn’t matter if he’s not by my side. I even thought that it’s okay to live without him.

I was wrong.

The more I wanted to be alone, the more I felt that I needed him around.

The more I wanted him to leave me alone for his games/work/whatever, the more I wanted him to be there, even if it means boredom.

The more I wanted to get him out of my life, the more important he became.

We’re just like any other couple.

We hang out with friends a lot, we watch movies some times, we do shopping together, we argue over silly things (like why am I so fat! And how inconsiderable of him, disapproving my already SLIM figure..) Seriously, besides me getting fatter/heavier AND spending without really checking my bank balance, there is really nothing for us to argue about. I used to silently wish that we argued a lot… just to spice things up. But it almost never happens.

If you ask me how my relationship is.. I really can’t answer. I can say it’s boring. But somehow when I say it’s boring, it turns out to be quite out of the norm (at least for me, I felt it’s a bit abnormal la..)

How can a couple never argue? [Too bored to start an argument? Too tired to care?]

How can a guy never get jealous? [Does he really care? or he’s just too confident?]

How can a girl let his guy hang out with whomever without her?

How can a guy never call to check on his girl every time she’s out, even after midnight? [Trust? Or careless?]

How can a couple trust each other so much that they never rarely question each other’s doing/behavior?

How can a couple be SO comfortable with each other that they don’t feel embarrassed anymore even if it means smelly farts or stinky feet?

How can a couple never get angry at each other for more than TEN FIVE minutes?

How can all these be love?

It’s SO BORING!

It’s so….

NOTHING.

Is this even normal?

Is every couple out there facing similar situation like me too?

Or is it just us?

Should I feel happy and glad that I don’t have a naggy/possessive/care-less/abusive/weird/monster boyfriend?

Should I feel blessed that at least we know each other well?

I think I should.

Maybe I should.

But..

Do we REALLY know each other very well? Or is it just because it’s becoming a routine? Is this love? Or is this companionship? Are love and companionship meant to go along with each other? Does this mean companionship is part of love? Maybe it’s just the same thing after all.

Ironically, even when the third year is approaching, I still feel like it’s only yesterday. I felt like there are still a lot of things that I still need to learn about him. Third anniversary only happen once. And how many more anniversaries we’ll be celebrating together?

There are times when I silently think… If one day I woke up knowing that he’s not in this world anymore, what will I do? What will I be? Can I cope? Can I move on? How can he leave first? I cannot say I’m 100% sure that I cannot live without him. But I’m definitely sure that live won’t be the same without his presence.

IF he’s not here anymore, can I find another partner like him? Do I WANT to have another partner like him? Will I be happier without him? Or will my live turn upside down?

What if I’m the one who’s gone? Will he lead a happier life after me? Can he move to the next station safely without me? Will he stay put or board another train to the next destination to forget about me? About us..

These are questions that will surface once in a while. And today is one of those days. I’ll think deep and feel terribly sad about it and after a good sleep, I’ll forget the answers to those mysterious questions.

Am I feeling paranoid? I’m not sure.

Does every girl thinks like me when they’re in a relationship?

Tell me this is normal.

i like la..

I like the way you hold my hand.

I like the way you smile.

I like the way you laugh at my silly statements. “stupid dum dum”

I like the way you imitate my silliness. “ugh… why I’m becoming like you?” you’ll say.

I like the way you touch my hair after shower. “why so dry?” you’ll ask.

I like the way you kiss me goodnight on my forehead. even if I had to remind you every night. “why I have to kiss you first? You cannot kiss me first meh?” you’ll complain.

I like it when you’ll pour a cup of water for me. even if you knew I was just lazy to get up from bed. “tsk… go get yourself lah!” you’ll say while walking to the kitchen.

I like it when you wrestle with me. even when I knew I’ll end up not able to move at all. “HAHA! You’re a caterpillar!!” *wraps comforter over my shoulder with my head sticking out* UGH!!!

I like it when you say “NO!” every time I asked if I could eat something. (I was just teasing you..*tho sometimes I really do feel like eating la..*)


I like to call you “Bie” randomly. For no reason at all and you’ll fall for it every time by answering “hmm?” or “what?”.
I love you.

i noticed that i can eat the same thing everyday without getting bored of it.

i can eat the same sandwich every single day... ham sandwich.

i remember eating instant noodle every day. either during tea time or for supper. i just HAVE to have it.

i can eat the same dish every day.. this usually happens during Chinese New year. you know the dish where there dump all the leftover meat like duck, siew yoke and chicken, into a big pot with "kai choy" (i don't know what they call it in english) with dried chili & asam soup.. you know that dish? sour and spicy soup. yum! it's very delicious especially after 2-3 days you keep adding more leftover meat in it.. i can eat that, and ONLY that, with rice. every single day if possible.

is it just me or everyone else is like that too?

but then again..

i also noticed that after a period of time i eat the same thing every single day, i will switch to another type of food and eat it every single day again for another few weeks or months.

does this reflect my personality when it comes to friendship & relationship as well?
i think it does..

i can see the SAME friend every day.. hang out at the SAME place every time and talk about the SAME thing too.. of course.. without getting bored at all.

i can see Smelly EVERY SINGLE DAY and still feel like it's only the first time we hold hands. well, the good thing is, i have not get bored with Smelly.. not yet. (will i ever?)

every time i discovered something different, i'll be hooked for a very LONG period of time before switching it to something else again. and i can also always go back to it any time i want, forgetting that i've once got bored with it, with a whole new feeling.

just like the feeling i have for instant noodles lately.

i used to eat curry flavor and got bored with it and switch to chicken flavor. i remember the times when i rather not eat because only curry flavor left at home. i banned curry flavor. i think because i ate at mamak and it tasted like noodles with water.. but lately, i fell in love with curry flavor again.. i've been craving for curry flavor instant noodles for days now..

where's my curry flavor? Maggi Mee?

Smelly, will you approve this?? please...

OMG!!..

MAS is having this low fare thingy again..

i just checked.

to Bangkok is only RM325 for return tix!

and to Hong Kong is only RM659!

this is sooo tempting!!!!!


rates above is for travelling in May 2009..

since my probation only end in April, i can only plan for holidays after that. and what a coincidence.. May happen to be my birth month!

a birthday treat for myself maybe?

this time, must go during weekend!! MUST MUST MUST go Chatuchak..

hehe..

oh.. and i've also checked the Baiyoke Boutique Hotel , it's only like THB 6500 for 4 nights including breakfast for 2.. should be around RM 670.. around RM170/night. i think it's quite reasonable la.. since it's at the centre of the city and has really nice room.. (no, i'm not going to the Baiyoke Sky Hotel.. very expensive! Boutique Hotel is the lower range of Baiyoke hotels..) and it's just located at the warehouse place.. imagine.. after breakfast, take a shower, get ready and start your day with shopping.. which is only few steps away from your hotel.. and you can put your buys back to the room and continue shopping if you got tired of holding too many shopping bags! whoa!! so nice right..

and Chatuchak... i missed it cos i went there during weekdays few months ago... (also in May!) i can't wait for my next trip!!!

how how?

can i get the tickets and book the room already?

please?



(anyone wants to be my travel partner if Smelly don't want to go with me? hmmmm..)

too early for new year's resolution?

i'm planning to go for gym next month.

i already have a plan..

let's see..

breakfast - home made sandwich (tuna/ham/egg) or cereal with milk *note to self-stock up cereal*. except weekends and public holidays. because by the time i wake up, it's already lunch time. normally i'll eat noodles or porridge..

lunch - as usual, the company's canteen. they usually serve rice and noodles with a variety of dishes to go with.. like chicken, fish, chicken, fish, chick.... a lot of vege too. half the portion of rice or noodle i usually take. (eh.. i'm serious about this diet healthy lfestyle thing ok?). maybe i'll go out for lunch once in a while with friends... and have like.. fast food? hehe.

dinner - depends on what Smelly's mom cook. but i usually only take 2-3 tablespoonful of rice. and a lot of vege also. sometimes we eat out. so i guess eating out is a bonus/rest day for me.. so from next month onwards, no more rice for dinner. strictly no carb for dinner. only lots of protein and fiber. (i'll try to follow this dinner menu..) must follow!

so, i'm planning to go to the gym every monday, wednesday and friday. since it's free for staffs, might as well make full use of it right? i heard that it's really underutilized. and i heard from one of my colleagues who visits the gym religiously, said that not more than ten people every evening. and she sees the same person every time.

so i thought.. why not?

ok.. i think i need to get running shoes and exercise attire..

*pledge to self* follow the routine and menu strictly.

let's see how many kilos i will gain shed before new year!

Lucky Charm?

look what came in my mail today!

i ordered it from Stephanie the other day..

it's carefully wrapped in those bubbles plastic.. *me love pressing on those bubbles*!

neatly wrapped in blue paperbag.. does the color look familiar to you? *cough*tiffany*

"handmade by stephanie"

ok la.. tiffany and stephanie rhymes right?? *i don't have the money to spend on a real tiffany though*cough*hint*

opened the wrapper and it's wrapped with another bubble plastic.

another "logo" there.

Stephanie's.

here's the bracelet.. it's called "White Clover"

i have a thing for four leaf clover ever since i got my first real four leaf clover pendant 3 years ago..

how it looks like on my wrist.


Stephanie's online shop sells 100% handmade accessories. bracelet, necklace, handphone charms, etc. she even custom make for people if she happen to have the materials that clients request..! i'm thinking of getting a full set of custom made accessories already.. hehe..

check out her shop now. you might find something you like!

(this is not a paid advertorial. sharing is caring right? winkz!)

camera camera..

which one?

Canon or Sony?

compact or DSLR? (of course... i'm thinking about something cheap and easy-to-use.. like EOS 5OD? cos i am camera-idiot.) *btw, can someone tell me what is "prosumer" ??*

i'm not very good when it comes to gadget.. i think the pro-est that i can get is to know how to use my iPod by heart (well almost la)..

i've been longing for a camera since like.. forever. i'd love to have a DSLR. but i think with my hangat-hangat tahi ayam nature, it'll take seconds (okay, i exaggerated.. maybe few months) for me to get bored and fed up with playing with it..

i do think that it takes a lot of effort and time to learn and explore photography and i certainly don't have the artistic genes.. (blame my parents.. they gave all the art genes to Shorty). i'm just afraid that after spending so much on a DLSR, i don't make full use of it ended up keeping it in the storage box.

actually, i just need a compact camera.. i'm eyeing on one of the Canon IXUS/Powershot or Sony Cyber-shot. i used to like Sony T series.. (obviously because of the sleek design).. but after a while, i think i prefer the W series... (cos the lense is not built-in.. i heard built-in lense's photo doesn't come out as great as those "un-built-in" ones.. [what do you call that? zoom-able lense? or just lense?] correct me if i'm wrong..)

i'm eyeing on one of these babies... tho i don't really know what's the difference.. but i think i like the design.. :P

Canon E1

Because it's cute and got white color..

Canon IXUS 90 IS

er.. because.. it looked more expensive than E1...

Sony W300

because i purposely want to compare Canon with Sony.. it's black and definitely handsome!

Sony T300

Because it's RED!!!!!!! and it comes with wide screen. nice.

but actually right.. i just need a compact camera that can make my photo come out like DSLR.

hohoho... i still salivate everytime i look at DSLR photos.. so real and so nice! no need photoshop...

seriously lor.. cos DSLR is very bulky.. i can't take it with me 24/7.. not to mention that it's expensive too.. though i know i can just top-up few hundred bucks and get the entry level DSLR.. but like i said earlier, i tend to get bored easily and no art genes at all.. so i don't want to waste money.. (i'm considering on learning photography from friends though).

so.. any suggestion on good compact camera that will turn my photo into DSLR effect (without photoshopping la)?

i don't want to grow old.

i went for a drink with best friend just now..

bff : so... when are you giving me the BIG BOMB? (wedding invitation lah)

dy : not so soon la.. i won't get married so young... what makes you think that i'll marry him?

bff : i know la.. must be him..

dy : who knows.. maybe my husband is another guy.

bff : don't joke la.. you won't break up with him now.. cos you're lazy to find another one. you won't get used to it geh.. like my situation also.. if you ask me to break up and find another girl, i rather don't break up. unless of course, if got another girl that i'm interested in and so happen if she like me too lah.. =P

dy: -_-


does this mean that it's not about love anymore? it sounds more like companionship and habit to me...

is this good or bad? or does every long-time/married couple face the same issue/situation too?

halloween party.

going for halloween party this Friday at Rahsia. Seng Tat invited me early last month i think.. and it's kinda like a private party if i'm not mistaken. he said we have to dress in halloween costume..

because Smelly don't normally go parties with me (due to his age catching up), i invited Tockie to become my date for the night.. lucky me, he's free that night cos he will be attending another party only on saturday..

i hope that he will be able to make it this time cos he ALWAYS had something coming up EVERYTIME we're supposed to meet up.

i'm totally gonna ban him if he ffk me again this time.. No.. better ask him to treat me for fine dining next time he ffk.

hahaha...

who wants to go to halloween party with me this friday?

Back From Book Shopping!

Alice told me yesterday that she bought 25 books!

i was very thrilled and couldn't wait to go for the MPH warehouse sales today.. it's the last day today so i think there aren't many books left for me to choose.

here's what i bought.

The Life of Mahatma Gandhi - Louis Fischer

The Diary Of A Young Girl -Anne Frank

Marley And Me - John Grogan

'Tis - Frank McCourt

How Starbucks Saved My Life - Michael Gill

The Secret Of Scent - Luca Turin

If You Could See Me Now - Cecila Ahern

To Kill A Mocking Bird - Harper Lee

Specials -Scott Westerfeld

Extra -Scott Westerfeld

Stories We Could Tell - Tony Parsons

Man And Wife - Tony Parsons

My Favourite Wife - Tony Parson

Breaking Dawn & New Moon - Stephanie Meyer.

I wanted to get Stephanie Meyer's "Eclipse" and "Twilight" but the guy told me they had promotions days before and sold off everything.. too bad.

i also wanted to get the first 2 books by Scott Westerfeld - "Ugly" and "Pretty".

and i only noticed that i bought a wrong book while taking the book's photos just now!

initially, i wanted to get "Teacher Man" by Frank McCourt.. i took the book and before i went to the cashier, i saw that the book is ot in a very good condition. so i went to the shelve and take a better one.. because the color of the book is almost the same, so i guess i took wrong one.. T_T i took 'Tis instead of Teacher Man!! which i already had in my collection..

i'm thinking about selling it off or giving it away.

:)

couldn't find "The Memory Keeper's Daughter" by Kim Edwards though... i wanted to get more books.. but couldn't find what i wanted so i ended up with only 15 books. the damage? RM308.00. which i think is kind of worth it la.. i think i saved at least a hundred bucks there. maybe more.

hope they have another sale soon!